I'm not condoning any forms of cheating in online games because it could potentially hurt other players too (For example, some salaryman plays online games to let out some stress just to end up meeting and beaten by cheaters, hence, wasting his/her refreshing time and time is meaningful)
Cheating is still WRONG, I don't care if you have some sort of tough real-life and whatnot, you shouldn't let it out to other people with dirty way like that.
My Advice, since you even cheats in Fall Guys (Where basically no skills required to have fun) just play offline games, play Illusion games or something or better, seek help ASAP.