hello everybodyyyy it took me this long to stop dying from this chapter 🫶
okay yatsuda teki. okay. i should start compiling to sue for emotional distress
anyways!! key highlight of this chapter is unsurprisingly yatsuda's artwork and their fucking unbelievable ability to tell and present this already insane and endlessly profound story with said artwork. i said it before and i'll say it again, yatsuda's art style and ability to draw with all these crazy camera angles, emotional expressions, fight choreography, action movie inspired vibes, and. my absolute favorite part - the very last panel, which is no panel at all it's just a completely blank space of white nothingness aside from the slight and fading remnants of the BANG sound effect of that gunshot. the use of negative space. it's indescribable and a transcendental experience to read. the writing of this story will always have been excellent with just how profound and effective it is, the very concept of a tragedy whose point is that nothing matters aside from death in a near-future world where humanity itself is commodified, but yatsuda drawing this story the way they are makes it just that more special.
now for the meat and potatoes. the IFs are fucking something else man.
they are consistently so so so unnervingly human, with chihiro being the most striking example of what i mean. the love that chihiro felt for kana couldn't be anything but agonizingly real. among many other things such as being the platonic ideal of herself that kana always yearned to be, the fact that chihiro began to manifest as her own distinct existence and that kana not only embraced this but encouraged it and yearned for it. it's such a genius way to depict this, this concept of wanting to be saved from the circumstances and world that hurt you so badly that for lack of any other option you, the best version of you that you can be, become your own best friend and risk life and limb even of others to protect yourself from everything that keeps threatening you.
there is no way kana wanted to live that badly before she got her myther. chihiro saved her so much she started actually wanting to be saved.
but chihiro wanted to be saved too...
i'll never stop being right it seems with the repetition now of the clear theme, chihiro just wanted a reason for her existence and she wanted to believe that reason was with kana. does every single IF go through this process? from conception to creation to growing into their own proper existence and personhood to the pinnacle of having one's own agency and, if you ask me, the pinnacle of being human too - looking for a reason we are alive.
is kyo required to do the myther test every time he starts showing signs that he's questioning the reason for his existence? there's no way that's not the explicit purpose of the myther test which steadily wears down on kyo's personhood. but an actually interesting question is posed then, of how often that has happened where kyo has wondered about his purpose in life and immediately got all traces of any possible answers and the question to which they belonged erased?
what about vanitas? does every IF he kill get to die before they start asking what they are alive for?
is that cruelty? or is it a mercy.
sataki needs a raise.
and that is what i shall cap this off with, thank you as always i love you guys so much 😘