we are so back chat
alright let's scope out the scene a bit
we're got the special services who own kyo's life, existence, purpose and have cultivated and groomed him to be the perfect soldier and weapon at their disposal for whatever they may desire. they're going to keep conducting the myther tests on kyo which are to keep him and his individuality in check, continuously wiping the slate and likely even putting in measures to prevent kyo from exerting his agency again until everything that could be considered a person that is of kyo's is whittled away to nothing.
we've got sataki who, first of all needs a raise immediately, second has lots of personal stake and thus reason to continue doing this where she withholds information from her peers who are either directly causing or indirectly complacent to the theft of kyo's personhood. we've known from the start that she's here for filial reasons, her father definitely being an honored predecessor to her in whatever sense of early myther they had a generation before. it's a heavy enough reason for her to want to uphold her duties to the state - but sataki is such an empathetic and compassionate person. she's choosing kyo, the
person kyo, over all else. i'm scared of the consequences this could mean for her if (when) things go wrong.
and then there's kyo himself. he has a job to do which, regardless of anything else, he's going to continue doing. he has this job due to his specialized abilities of synchronizing with the illegal mythers. and that dream sequence... just as feverish and psychedelic as i could ask for i love you yatsuda, but anyways it's so obvious that there are now lasting and heavy consequences from kyo synchronizing with these illegal mythers as he's been doing. forget developing empathy as an individual - kyo is straight up becoming these people, these IFs, he is synchronizing with. he's dreaming about what he saw as them.
all of this coupled together makes me theorize that what will eventually happen with kyo is a mindmeld hivemind type of situation. all the accumulated memories and emotions and experiences of these illegal myther synchronizations will blend together and become so much of a weight that kyo's individuality starts reflecting it, that he begins to carry with him the legacy of every single myther he had killed up to this point.
i have suspicions that vani is this honestly, at least to some extent. he puts on then disposes mythers so easily that i can see the same thing happening to kyo, and only vani being able to offer any insight into what has happened. that where kyo is now was where vani used to be before whatever drove him to the brink and brought him to doing this distribution of mythers thing.
so many other things too. sataki describing what kyo did for kana as "salvation" - first and foremost, yet
ANOTHER huge theme taken in a very similar direction in vanitas no carte by mochizuki jun. ahem. anyways! in a story with a huge main theme being "vanitas" - that there is no meaning to anything and everything will always lead to death and nothing more - the concept of salvation has always been such an integral part of it. salvation doesn't just refer to the literal sense of saving someone from any given thing, that word specifically is going to refer to the religious ideal. in christianity, being "saved" means being redeemed from the sins of simply existing and most commonly that means the deliverance of the soul; there's a reason the rapture that is so dreamed of by those of christian faith consists of being "liberated" from the constructs of the mortal world, your soul leaving your body behind on earth as you ascend to heaven. it's not just very much like death it basically IS death. salvation is death. dying can be a mercy itself in freeing one from the agonies unique to being alive, but also the desperate wish any person might have to be saved could be nothing more than their end.
who does that teddy bear belong to? it's very unnerving to realize the specific symbols and ideals being constantly associated with kano, from the childish teddy bear to the paternal relationship he has with kyo. i don't think it's out of the question for kano to have had something with kyo's master in the past, in a literal romantic and/or sexual manner, and that his behavior towards the current IF kyo having some incestuous tones to be on purpose. this story is a tragedy after all. kyo is going to be abused in all manners in all directions no matter what he does. that's why it's devastating.
in lighter news, very funny and predictable that yichen is seethingly jealous of kyo for vani's attention. it's times like these where it's the most adorably obvious that yatsuda teki is an experienced BL and yaoi mangaka. i see you you fujo 🫶
thank you guys AS ALWAYS for your wonderful and hard work, y'all are getting so fast about it!!! we're catching up!!! popping the BIGGEST bottles when we do

see y'all next time!!!