"all my efforts to ingest poisons was in vain" yo I get pissed if my life's resistance just went up in flames because someone wanted to "help"
though I don't think that's the case. because "I didn't raise these butterflies to kill" means that the red one is carnivorous and the purple one is a means of reproduction?
"what would happen to you if I were to leave this place" as in the consequences? I got irritated thinking in line with the protagonist, that he sees himself as some sort of support to Roxana when he's just prisoner.