She Doesn't Know Why She Lives. - Vol. 1 Ch. 13 - Absent-minded Identity

[SoLei]

@DANDAN_THE_DANDAN
I indeed enjoyed your beautiful wall of text ♡

I guess we have different anxieties and outlooks on life.
What I am curious about is why you feel like you must make an impact.
If you feel comfortable discussing, I have some questions I'd like to ask:
Why do you feel like you need to leave a legacy? And why to you is 'impact on the world' the purpose of living? Does life need a bigger purpose than ourselves?

Do you think we're all gonna die by AI?

I hope I haven't misunderstood things you've said. Perhaps we should move our conversation out of the comment section here though, I feel like we might be going too off-topic lol

 

[DANDAN_THE_DANDAN]

@Rei-is-Lei

Perhaps we should move our conversation out of the comment section here though, I feel like we might be going too off-topic lol

Nah, it's fine. This manga is already depressing so let's make the comment section as depressing.

Don't worry, you interpreted me right.

I think that my need of contributing to humanity just comes from an irrational fear of feeling useless.

"If you have nothing of value, then what is the difference between you and a piece of rock?" is what I would ask the NEETs begging down the street inside of my head.

I know that sounds very condensing and rude but I can't remove this "value" system from my brain.

I always compare myself to the people above me and the people way below me.

"If I can't beat him, I'm not doing enough. If I become him, then I'm useless." is what I say to myself to keep myself motivated on my goal.

Then I realize something.

"Burning a dead tree has more use than dying as a useless man."

"If you have no worth, then nothing would change if you die. If you have any worth, your death will bring meaning to mankind."

"Your death will affect your friends and family. A celebrity's death will affect the entire world."

These three revolves around death so let's remove even that from the equation to get another point of view; another perspective on this never-ending cycle of self-perishing thoughts.

What is the purpose of life? To worship a God? To discover every corner of the universe? To ensure the survival of your genetic code? To make sure the people around you are prosper and joyful? To simply be satisfied as an individual?

Then what if you can't even succeed at any one of the things mentioned in the list above?​

That's my philosophy on the topic. I'm not proud of it but I can't seem to reject it either. Also I know that this thought process is unhealthy but I don't really care anymore because it is motivating me anyway so why fix what's not broken?

P.s. I have even more unhealthy philosophies that are unrelated to the topic but is diminishing me as a human being.

 

[XieShu]

is it dropped?
not enough raws?
no translators?
I need information

 

[cinubu11]

oh no, why is this so relatable??
so many emotions goin through me right now

 

[narra]

@XieShu the last few pages said the next installment will be published in spring

 

[MasterPannya]

DAMN, CAN I BE HER FRIEND??
Not a waifu, but someone I can talk to. Most of my friends just can't take my problems seriously. It was just a fresh of air trying to talk to someone about existentialism in a more serious, natural tone.

Also, I recommend Vitamin D. I don't know if Vit. B also have that role but after a month, it did made my emotion more controllable. I rarely have depressive attacks anymore.

 

[PsychoJing]

@Rei-is-Lei I know you wrote this a while ago, but i just wanted to let you know
What you wrote made me feel so much better today

Thank you...

 

[SoLei]

@PsychoJing ❤

 

[cubed]

I'd like to put in my two cents on the discussion between Rei-is-Lei and DANDAN_THE_DANDAN like 3 months after it ended lol.

In a billion years or so there probably won't be evidence humanity even ever existed to begin with. Even if humanity has somehow lasted a billion years, it's still just a matter of time - the heat death of the universe comes eventually even if it takes a few trillion years, so at the end of the day there will be nothing. Looking at things from this perspective everything is inherently pointless and meaningless. Thus, the answer to "If you have nothing of value, then what is the difference between you and a piece of rock?" is simply "nothing". Functionally, at the end of the day (universe) we won't be able to tell what constituted a rock or what constituted a person.*

So at the end of the day, who cares? If you're here you might as well enjoy it.

*Technically if you believe in superdeterminism it'd be possible to reconstruct the entire history of the universe including the fact that humans had, in fact, at some point existed, but given that there's almost certainly nothing capable of doing this at the heat death of the universe this is a moot point.

 

[SoLei]

@cubed

I would agree uwu

 

[kudorz]

uhhh guys the second thing is out on amazon

 

[AgentKuga]

i mean yeah it's up but I guess no one's translating
oh well

 

[kamuicabbage]

Give me back my depression, please. Been waiting since January.

 

[apt-get]

@DANDAN_THE_DANDAN
I completely understand what you mean, especially about wanting to have an impact on the world. It's something I've struggled significantly with. I fortunately have never been depressed (I'm a rather relaxed individual), but those thoughts constantly linger in the back of my mind, and my crippling procrastination becomes a source of anxiety when taking that into account.
It's also tied to a gloomy view of time: with merely 80-85 years to live on this earth, every day wasted quickly snowballs into weeks, months, and then years. This is particularly true during one's youth, as a year then is worth so much more than when you're old. Realizing that nearly nine months have passed since the beginning of the year with me still being the exact same person I was keeps me up at night.

Simone Weil died at 34, but had an incredibly important impact on the world, despite her short life. Why can't I be the same? Why can't I get started, even when I know what I want to do and the path to get there?

...
Well, this is probably my fourth or fifth re-read of this manga, and it's as good as ever.

 

[deoclasher88]

"You don't need a reason to live. You just live" -Nero Vanetti (91 Days)

 

[nommi]

i dont need meaning but i do wish it was simpler to enjoy life

 

[SpudWumper]

nice comments here, need to bookmark this

that smile as she's looking at her phone on the last page... man...

take it easy huh, it feels like i've been taking it easy, and slowly but surely the world is telling me i can't and i really hate that 🙃 just let me out

 

[Notme321]

So...
Why do you guys think we still live?

Because death is uncertain

 

[mtfunky]

touching

 

[AnimuVsMango]

"Why are you alive?"
Good God, please don't ask me that question, because I might just answer it honestly.