Dex-chan lover
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- Oct 30, 2023
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Having an incredibly closeted, homoerotic rivalry is just a canon event tbh
Jokes aside I started this without expecting much in the way of actual character study, and i was content to just enjoy the childhood friends-rivals-lovers beat. I did NOT expect an accurate portrayal of the confusion, angst and sense of going literally insane that happens when the misidentified passion of "I want to beat you/I hate you" starts to blur with same sex attraction.
From the moment we got the boyfriend flashback we knew Komaki was basically Hotaru from Netsuzou Trap - helplessly in love with her best friend and lost in the ugly and possessive side of it. The way she describes love is actually almost word for word how Hotaru does - something that makes you want to control and own everything about the other person, something that makes you feel crazy.
And then wanting to "save" the person she "hates" from a life of loneliness on a pedestal, to reminding Komaki that she's only human, our MC is rationalizing literally everything but her actual feelings lmao.
This honestly because one of my current favorites just because of that combination of character dynamic + character study, all rolled into one of the most dramatic "girls what are you doingggg just talk 😭" stories I've picked up to date. Genuinely didn't expect to love this so much
Jokes aside I started this without expecting much in the way of actual character study, and i was content to just enjoy the childhood friends-rivals-lovers beat. I did NOT expect an accurate portrayal of the confusion, angst and sense of going literally insane that happens when the misidentified passion of "I want to beat you/I hate you" starts to blur with same sex attraction.
From the moment we got the boyfriend flashback we knew Komaki was basically Hotaru from Netsuzou Trap - helplessly in love with her best friend and lost in the ugly and possessive side of it. The way she describes love is actually almost word for word how Hotaru does - something that makes you want to control and own everything about the other person, something that makes you feel crazy.
And then wanting to "save" the person she "hates" from a life of loneliness on a pedestal, to reminding Komaki that she's only human, our MC is rationalizing literally everything but her actual feelings lmao.
This honestly because one of my current favorites just because of that combination of character dynamic + character study, all rolled into one of the most dramatic "girls what are you doingggg just talk 😭" stories I've picked up to date. Genuinely didn't expect to love this so much