When it first started I had some questions about the past life but they were one's I honestly thought we'd get during Shuli's second life and I was happy with that. And yet as the story progressed and we came to understand the children better, different questions appeared so the trip into the past life was bitter sweet. It answered those questions, yet left me heart broken. I want Shuli to uncover the plots the Church are even now starting toward her so much, with the help of those she's collecting around her (Nora, Jeremy). Yet I sincerely hope she doesn't remember her death in it's entirety as if it was as brutal as they suggest that...isn't something I'd want anyone to remember. She'd also be dealing with some serious trauma from it, so please let it remain as a memory of dying without any specific details. I also realized something else that is perhaps the most heart breaking of all this. While Shuli will hopefully uncover the Church plot and put it all together of why she died in the previous life, there is one thing she can never know. She died thinking those kids didn't like her, didn't want her around and couldn't wait to be rid of her and even now that doubt sometimes haunts her choices with them. She'll never know how much they loved her and the surprise they wanted to give her by finally confessing it all to her. That despite her missteps, she was still a good mother to them. That just breaks my heart.
