Despite the bullies being hateful, I can't bring myself to spite them. I just feel disappointment, some anger, and a lot of sympathy. Reading thought provoking psychological situations done me goof or good. Idk.
Also, nobody asked but exposure therapy and powerful yearning to not let the filth get to you helps a lot. I don't think you can be like the others but you'll be able to handle it much better and not hurt yourself. You'll probably feel like you're in hell for the next two years as you cry, have hyperventilation, and want to die, maybe even have memory lapses because you spent them feeling like a zombie and crying, but it gets better. At least from my own experience. Try limiting how many times you're allowed to wash your hands or whatever was dirty bit by bit too. You'll have relapses time to time, and that's okay, just keep moving forward.