Watashi no Kokoro wa Oji-san de Aru - Vol. 2 Ch. 11

[electro_neanderthal]

Ahh, I know this old man's feeling. I also think the same thing as this old man. When I was still young, I thought being kind was correct, but the more I grew up, the more I knew that society doesn't want a good guy but a good masking person.

I still remember when I reported a problem child, the teacher was not happy at all. Now I become an adult, I know the teacher just doesn't want more work.

But ironically, I just know about this truth when I work in society. It has been too late for me to change myself. Though changed a little, I don't think that I can change completely.

No, being kind is correct. Being kind because you're weak/a pushover/doing it for more selfish reasons, on the other hand, is a problem.

I say this because I am often the wrong kind of kind. I would prefer to give out of abundance and strength of will, not because I want to avoid conflict... and yet the latter happens too often. I might even call myself a coward.

Still, I am striving to change that, and as Cliche as this may sound, with Jesus as my rock, it makes the internal change possible. Still difficult—I've done much wrong and been quite cowardly in my life—but possible.