@AevaEl I'm guessing that the me who wrote that 10 months ago was probably saying that it felt like a more literary rape you know. It was just mild PTSD me talking. Don't try to make sense of it.
Anyways, it's weird how rape is in the setting of this story's society. I kinda don't like it. It doesn't affect the protagonist particularly and it just feels like a plot device the author specifically uses to make us hate a character. I don't like it. I just feel like rape is something major and with this story's pacing, things like this will never be properly explained.