ohh, 'i wonder whether i lost more than what i'd gained'. nice stamp about living long, question like that should arise when losing the touch with the world. even loners ask themselves what they are gaining and losing, why shouldn't a hermit think the same. to not wonder is to be too assured, but character never are that flat and direct with their felling. and when the author don't wonder about such topics i feel it is quite a loss. this makes the story so much more spicy, filled with feeling. even if the feelings are rather simple.