Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 41 - Everything, Falling Apart

[RetroYLAN]

Alright boys i just sped-run this manga in 5 minutes since the ratings were low, safe to say im out. Cant complain since its free but god willy damn is this manga dogshit. All my homies jumping the black haired girl ong, i slide for my dawgs but she really doing the opposite, doing the female lead dirty if that was one my friends we all jumping and sliming them cuz thats a snake. Always make sure your homies are real homies and not rats and snakes, they the ones you gonna lean on when it gets low and you should do the same. Treat your homies well brothers and sistas

 

[awtystic]

I want to see how it ends, whether it’ll take a realistic turn with the characters drifting apart, or if everything will be forgiven through the power of friendship. I'm especially curious about Hikari’s relationship with Yami. I just don’t see how Hikari could possibly forgive her.

Given that she forgave Yami for the "prank" i can see them going with the power of friendship

 

[Litreara]

Given that she forgave Yami for the "prank" i can see them going with the power of friendship

I think it’s different. The “prank” was terrible, but it’s more forgivable since they barely knew each other at the time. But what Yami did now, kissing Yuu while knowing Hikari was watching and all the nonsense she said to Hikari, is much worse because of the close, intimate relationship between them. That’s why I don’t see how Hikari could forgive Yami this time.

 

[awtystic]

I think it’s different. The “prank” was terrible, but it’s more forgivable since they barely knew each other at the time. But what Yami did now, kissing Yuu while knowing Hikari was watching and all the nonsense she said to Hikari, is much worse because of the close, intimate relationship between them. That’s why I don’t see how Hikari could forgive Yami this time.

What you said is valid but we can't forget authors previous work wa2 where setsuna somehow forgave kazusa and haruki kinda and they were close so it won't be surprising if hikari does the same i can see hikari winning though just going by the title since most heroines win by the title of the manga or they were the first lead

 

[GennArc]

kissing Yuu while knowing Hikari was watching

There's no indication yet that Hikari knows Yami did that with awareness of her presence.

What you said is valid but we can't forget authors previous work wa2 where setsuna somehow forgave kazusa and haruki kinda and they were close so it won't be surprising if hikari does the same i can see hikari winning though just going by the title since most heroines win by the title of the manga or they were the first lead

I wouldn't compare them because the circumstances are completely different, and Setsuna always knew she got between them first.

 

[Litreara]

There's no indication yet that Hikari knows Yami did that with awareness of her presence.

I think this is debatable. The story strongly suggests that Hikari knows Yami kissed Yuu on purpose while she was watching. Hikari’s silence, her pointed question about the classroom, and Yami’s guilty reaction all hint she understood the full betrayal. But since we seem too focused on the exact wording and the story doesn’t state it outright, it leaves room for interpretation. Given that, and since I don’t really have the energy to keep going on about it, I’ll give in and say the text doesn’t outright prove Hikari’s awareness, though the surrounding context strongly points to it.

 

[Litreara]

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Spoiler: Yuu’s Chapter – Chapter 4

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Yuu’s Chapter – Chapter 4: No More Love...

A few days after that “fateful day.”
The high school entrance exam results—or rather, the failure announcement day.

…And then, one more dawn later.

Yuu: “Uh, um… Yami-senpai…”
Yami: “What? Already back on your feet? That’s youth for you, Yuu~”
Yuu: “That’s not what I mean… And hey, I’m only a year younger than you.”

Me and her… Yami-senpai—unbelievably—became that kind of relationship on just our second meeting.

From early morning, wrapped in each other’s arms in a hotel bed.
Spending an unbelievably intense time together.

For me, it was one shocking experience after another—like my whole world had been turned upside down.

Yami: “Hmm? For someone saying that, something’s been poking my butt for a while now. And it’s hard.”
Yuu: “Wha—?!”
Yami: “Idiot, don’t panic over that. That’s exactly the kind of thing that makes you seem like a virgin.”
Yuu: “I’m not a virgin anymore…”
Yami: “Right, ‘cause I took it from you.”
Yuu: “…Yeah.”
Yami: “Heh.”

Right in front of me was her pale, slender back.
Even when I held her shoulders, she didn’t show the slightest hint of annoyance.
On the contrary, when I kissed her shoulder and buried my face in the nape of her neck, she only let out a ticklish little laugh.

In that moment… no, in every memory since then—
Yami-senpai always had such a wonderful scent.

For someone like me, who could never get close enough to another girl—Hikari—to even notice her scent, it was the first time I’d ever experienced the fragrance of a woman.

…Well, with her, I had countless other “firsts” too.
But even now, more than her face, more than her voice, maybe what I remember most is that scent.

Yuu: “So, um… what I wanted to ask was…”
Yami: “What?”
Yuu: “This isn’t… just a whim, right?”
Yami: “……”
Yuu: “Like… once we’ve gotten over this, you’re not just gonna…”
Yami: “Don’t worry. Whenever you’re in the mood, I’ll let you do it again~”
Yuu: “That’s not what I mean, not in some casual way like that…”

She comforted me with her whole body after I lost what was basically my first gamble in life.
And she let out her own sadness and pent-up feelings, too.

Yami: “Yeah… I’ll keep being your convenient woman, always.”

We were both people who’d been hurt…
No, putting my pain on the same level as hers would be disrespectful to her.

Yami: “So… let’s exchange IDs, Yuu…”

Even so, back then, I truly believed we connected.
Not just in body, but in heart as well.

…Or so I thought, anyway.

…………

…………

Yuu: “The fireworks festival’s tomorrow, how’s your schedule?”
Yuu: “Yami-senpai, where are you right now?”
Yuu: “Is something wrong? Did I do something?”

My LINE message history with her ends right there.
And she didn’t even read my last message.

That’s how, after about half a year, my connection with Yami-senpai was suddenly severed.

I really thought—this time—it was love that had come true.
I thought, for the first time, my feelings had been returned.

I still have no idea what I did to touch Yami-senpai’s nerve.
And at this point, finding out what circumstances or changes of heart she might have had would be nearly impossible.

Of course, it’s not like I just passively accepted being dumped one-sidedly.

After summer break ended, I went several times to the train station nearest her school—Hikari’s school, too—but I never saw her.

Once, I even spotted Hikari and hid in a panic, but in the end, I never caught sight of that distinctive braided hair—or of the short-haired figure she must have become.

From autumn through winter, after we lost contact, I kept turning it over in my mind.

Day after day, I replayed every single word I’d ever said to her.
I dragged up every word, every reaction, every expression she’d ever shown me, from the depths of my memory.

And that only made the sadness and longing worse.

Because, in my memories, Yami-senpai had always been into it.
She had always responded to me.

When we talked, she’d smile at me.
When she teased me, she’d smile even more.

In bed, she’d show me that bittersweet look.
Gradually, she’d started to react to my clumsy moves.
There were even times she’d arch her back and climax.

Was all of that… just my misunderstanding?
Are they telling me it was all just her “skilled” acting?

But for what purpose…?
I just couldn’t figure it out.

So when winter passed and spring came,
I decided to forget everything.

Because the more I remembered, the more it just hurt.

She had already quit school.
We had no remaining points of contact—there was no way to meet her again.

I forced myself to believe that every trace of our connection had disappeared.

Because… I’d had enough.
I decided to stop liking people—stop liking girls.

Just because you have feelings for someone doesn’t mean they’ll be returned.
In fact, the odds are close to impossible.

If you’re good at building relationships, maybe a single failure wouldn’t even faze you.
If you can move on without dwelling, maybe you can just keep falling in love again and again.

But I’m not like that.

I probably don’t even know what it’s like to be rewarded.
And in the worst way possible, I’m the kind of person who can’t forget.

Neither Hikari nor Yami-senpai—
I still haven’t been able to turn either into a fond memory.
I’ve never once been able to think, “I’m glad I fell in love. Even if I was rejected, I can let go.”

I just keep dragging it out, regretting it, getting disgusted with my own weakness, hating myself for it.

So I won’t chase anymore.
I won’t cling.
Not “giving up”—forgetting.

I’ll lighten my heart, thin out my relationships, and just live.
After three brutal heartbreaks, you can’t help but learn that lesson.

Come to think of it, there was an old song titled “I Won’t Fall in Love Again.”

I’ve never actually heard it, but I’ll live by that feeling.
I’ll go through my days without letting anything shake my heart—
without feeling… no, without allowing myself to feel.

…………

…………

But you know, there’s actually more to that phrase…

After “I won’t fall in love again,”

it’s followed by,

“is something I’ll never say.”

I didn’t learn that until after the new year, when spring had come…

Hikari: “Oh, Ta~kun, welcome back.”
Yuu: “Hikari… if you’re here, turn the light on.”
Hikari: “Mmm… what time is it?”
Yuu: “Four-thirty. More importantly, I’m about to get changed…”
Hikari: “Oh, don’t mind me~”
Yuu: “I do mind… whatever, just don’t peek, okay?”
Hikari: “What’s the point now? If I were gonna peek, I’d have been doing it since middle school.”

It was around the time when, for some reason, the distance between me and Hikari began to close again—
for the third time.

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Maruto’s post on X:

黄昏の章四話更新しました。今まで少年がうじうじ悩む青臭い話だったのに、“あの人”が登場すると一気にねっとり……というか、大人っぽい感じになりますね～……ええ、挿絵含めて #さらなみ

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Yuu’s Chapter – Chapter 4 is now up. Until now it’s been a naive, angsty story about a boy brooding over things, but once that person shows up, it suddenly turns all sultry… or rather, it takes on a more mature tone. Yes—illustrations included. #さらなみ

Yeah… I don’t really think it took on a more mature tone. And I don’t think Yuu’s relationship with Yami actually made him mature.

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Insight:

The biggest thing about this chapter is that Yuu actually went looking for Yami after she ghosted him. Also, calling his heartbreaks “three brutal heartbreaks” feels a bit exaggerated, at least when you consider the first two with Hikari. But I get it; that is how a young guy might see things, so it does not really bother me. Still, yeah, this definitely is not doing Yuu’s image any favors.

 

[middle-the-nerd]

Thanks! Completely forgot to reply to the last chapter but honestly i kinda don't remember really having much new to say just like his previous heartbreak it wasn't Hikari fault she didn't do anything ect ect bro just let himself get in the way

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Spoiler: Yuu’s Chapter – Chapter 4

​

Yuu’s Chapter – Chapter 4: No More Love...

A few days after that “fateful day.”
The high school entrance exam results—or rather, the failure announcement day.

…And then, one more dawn later.

Yuu: “Uh, um… Yami-senpai…”
Yami: “What? Already back on your feet? That’s youth for you, Yuu~”
Yuu: “That’s not what I mean… And hey, I’m only a year younger than you.”

Me and her… Yami-senpai—unbelievably—became that kind of relationship on just our second meeting.

From early morning, wrapped in each other’s arms in a hotel bed.
Spending an unbelievably intense time together.

For me, it was one shocking experience after another—like my whole world had been turned upside down.

Yami: “Hmm? For someone saying that, something’s been poking my butt for a while now. And it’s hard.”
Yuu: “Wha—?!”
Yami: “Idiot, don’t panic over that. That’s exactly the kind of thing that makes you seem like a virgin.”
Yuu: “I’m not a virgin anymore…”
Yami: “Right, ‘cause I took it from you.”
Yuu: “…Yeah.”
Yami: “Heh.”

Right in front of me was her pale, slender back.
Even when I held her shoulders, she didn’t show the slightest hint of annoyance.
On the contrary, when I kissed her shoulder and buried my face in the nape of her neck, she only let out a ticklish little laugh.

In that moment… no, in every memory since then—
Yami-senpai always had such a wonderful scent.

For someone like me, who could never get close enough to another girl—Hikari—to even notice her scent, it was the first time I’d ever experienced the fragrance of a woman.

…Well, with her, I had countless other “firsts” too.
But even now, more than her face, more than her voice, maybe what I remember most is that scent.

Yuu: “So, um… what I wanted to ask was…”
Yami: “What?”
Yuu: “This isn’t… just a whim, right?”
Yami: “……”
Yuu: “Like… once we’ve gotten over this, you’re not just gonna…”
Yami: “Don’t worry. Whenever you’re in the mood, I’ll let you do it again~”
Yuu: “That’s not what I mean, not in some casual way like that…”

She comforted me with her whole body after I lost what was basically my first gamble in life.
And she let out her own sadness and pent-up feelings, too.

Yami: “Yeah… I’ll keep being your convenient woman, always.”

We were both people who’d been hurt…
No, putting my pain on the same level as hers would be disrespectful to her.

Yami: “So… let’s exchange IDs, Yuu…”

Even so, back then, I truly believed we connected.
Not just in body, but in heart as well.

…Or so I thought, anyway.

…………

…………

Yuu: “The fireworks festival’s tomorrow, how’s your schedule?”
Yuu: “Yami-senpai, where are you right now?”
Yuu: “Is something wrong? Did I do something?”

My LINE message history with her ends right there.
And she didn’t even read my last message.

That’s how, after about half a year, my connection with Yami-senpai was suddenly severed.

I really thought—this time—it was love that had come true.
I thought, for the first time, my feelings had been returned.

I still have no idea what I did to touch Yami-senpai’s nerve.
And at this point, finding out what circumstances or changes of heart she might have had would be nearly impossible.

Of course, it’s not like I just passively accepted being dumped one-sidedly.

After summer break ended, I went several times to the train station nearest her school—Hikari’s school, too—but I never saw her.

Once, I even spotted Hikari and hid in a panic, but in the end, I never caught sight of that distinctive braided hair—or of the short-haired figure she must have become.

From autumn through winter, after we lost contact, I kept turning it over in my mind.

Day after day, I replayed every single word I’d ever said to her.
I dragged up every word, every reaction, every expression she’d ever shown me, from the depths of my memory.

And that only made the sadness and longing worse.

Because, in my memories, Yami-senpai had always been into it.
She had always responded to me.

When we talked, she’d smile at me.
When she teased me, she’d smile even more.

In bed, she’d show me that bittersweet look.
Gradually, she’d started to react to my clumsy moves.
There were even times she’d arch her back and climax.

Was all of that… just my misunderstanding?
Are they telling me it was all just her “skilled” acting?

But for what purpose…?
I just couldn’t figure it out.

So when winter passed and spring came,
I decided to forget everything.

Because the more I remembered, the more it just hurt.

She had already quit school.
We had no remaining points of contact—there was no way to meet her again.

I forced myself to believe that every trace of our connection had disappeared.

Because… I’d had enough.
I decided to stop liking people—stop liking girls.

Just because you have feelings for someone doesn’t mean they’ll be returned.
In fact, the odds are close to impossible.

If you’re good at building relationships, maybe a single failure wouldn’t even faze you.
If you can move on without dwelling, maybe you can just keep falling in love again and again.

But I’m not like that.

I probably don’t even know what it’s like to be rewarded for my feelings.
And in the worst way possible, I’m the kind of person who can’t forget.

Neither Hikari nor Yami-senpai—
I still haven’t been able to turn either into a fond memory.
I’ve never once been able to think, “I’m glad I fell in love. Even if I was rejected, I can let go.”

I just keep dragging it out, regretting it, getting disgusted with my own weakness, hating myself for it.

So I won’t chase anymore.
I won’t cling.
Not “giving up”—forgetting.

I’ll lighten my heart, thin out my relationships, and just live.
After three brutal heartbreaks, you can’t help but learn that lesson.

Come to think of it, there was an old song titled “I Won’t Fall in Love Again.”

I’ve never actually heard it, but I’ll live by that feeling.
I’ll go through my days without letting anything shake my heart—
without feeling… no, without allowing myself to feel.

…………

…………

But you know, there’s actually more to that phrase…

After “I won’t fall in love again,”

it’s followed by,

“is something I’ll never say.”

I didn’t learn that until after the new year, when spring had come…

Hikari: “Oh, Ta~kun, welcome back.”
Yuu: “Hikari… if you’re here, turn the light on.”
Hikari: “Mmm… what time is it?”
Yuu: “Four-thirty. More importantly, I’m about to get changed…”
Hikari: “Oh, don’t mind me~”
Yuu: “I do mind… whatever, just don’t peek, okay?”
Hikari: “What’s the point now? If I were gonna peek, I’d have been doing it since middle school.”

It was around the time when, for some reason, the distance between me and Hikari began to close again—
for the third time.

Well probably my biggest takeaways are that

1. He DID try looking for Yami again

2. I think a big reason Hikari started viewing him in a different light once they grew closer again was this whole "I won't fall in love again" and seemingly more independent mindset he apparently took probably made him seem far less like he was trying and clingy or whatever (i'm not sure how to fully describe what i'm thinking) even when his feeling for her developed again

But that's just how i view it from a really quick read of the chapter lol

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Maruto’s post on X:

Yeah… I don’t really think it took on a more mature tone. And I don’t think Yuu’s relationship with Yami actually made him mature.

I don't think it made him "mature" (I mean he's fucking still 16 not expecting it) but it definitely changed him and seems how he was talking DID push him to be more emotionally independent

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Insight:

The biggest thing about this chapter is that Yuu actually went looking for Yami after she ghosted him. Also, calling his heartbreaks “three brutal heartbreaks” feels a bit exaggerated, at least when you consider the first two with Hikari. But I get it; that is how a young guy might see things, so it does not really bother me. Still, yeah, this definitely is not doing Yuu’s image any favors.

Yeah it's 100% extra but like you said for a young guy who's still a teen- it honestly really adds up hell I remember being overdramatic about relationship shit in middle school/high school and looking back really realize how much I'd overeact and overthink- just part of being a teen imo not gonna knock him for it

 

[Mrson]

Thanks! Completely forgot to reply to the last chapter but honestly i kinda don't remember really having much new to say just like his previous heartbreak it wasn't Hikari fault she didn't do anything ect ect bro just let himself get in the way

Well probably my biggest takeaways are that

1. He DID try looking for Yami again

2. I think a big reason Hikari started viewing him in a different light once they grew closer again was this whole "I won't fall in love again" and seemingly more independent mindset he apparently took probably made him seem far less like he was trying and clingy or whatever (i'm not sure how to fully describe what i'm thinking) even when his feeling for her developed again

But that's just how i view it from a really quick read of the chapter lol


I don't think it made him "mature" (I mean he's fucking still 16 not expecting it) but it definitely changed him and seems how he was talking DID push him to be more emotionally independent


Yeah it's 100% extra but like you said for a young guy who's still a teen- it honestly really adds up hell I remember being overdramatic about relationship shit in middle school/high school and looking back really realize how much I'd overeact and overthink- just part of being a teen imo not gonna knock him for it

I think he should sleep with all his friends, screw everything hahaahahah xd

 

[story645]

“three brutal heartbreaks” feels a bit exaggerated, at least when you consider the first two with Hikari.

I think it's in keeping w/ he can't let go of Hikari even after everything that transpired w/ Yami. Also this is kinda making me double down on a Yuu/Aya ending - like maybe confessing to Hikari is how he gets closure on that chapter (he finally didn't give up) & that spurs him to not give up on Aya.

I probably don’t even know what it’s like to be rewarded for my feelings.

I hate this on principle - like not sure if it's a bad translation, but relationships are not prizes for liking someone. And I think it also highlights his issues w/ Hikari and Aya in that what they both take issue w/ is his actions/lack thereof.

I agree w/ you that he doesn't seem to have matured - to me this chapter was a prime example of how having sex doesn't magically lead to maturity, but that's also what I thought Maruto was talking about w/ "mature".

and seems how he was talking DID push him to be more emotionally independent

Dunno, it seemed to me like more retreating into his shell - like he talks about how this experience is making him less resilient - give up on love - rather than more. And like I'm sympathetic (I'm grown and still find failure hard) but this feels less emotional independence and more Yuu putting up walls so he becomes a project in similar ways to Aya.

 

[Litreara]

2. I think a big reason Hikari started viewing him in a different light once they grew closer again was this whole "I won't fall in love again" and seemingly more independent mindset he apparently took probably made him seem far less like he was trying and clingy or whatever (i'm not sure how to fully describe what i'm thinking) even when his feeling for her developed again

I don't think it made him "mature" (I mean he's fucking still 16 not expecting it) but it definitely changed him and seems how he was talking DID push him to be more emotionally independent

I don’t think he was aiming for emotional independence; it seems more like he was trying to emotionally detach himself. Rather than facing his feelings, he chose to run from them, which is understandable for a young man but clearly a sign of immaturity. Maybe what attracted Hikari was that Yuu appeared disinterested, not attached. One thing is certain though: his relationship with Yami caused him more harm than good.

 

[Litreara]

I think it's in keeping w/ he can't let go of Hikari even after everything that transpired w/ Yami. Also this is kinda making me double down on a Yuu/Aya ending - like maybe confessing to Hikari is how he gets closure on that chapter (he finally didn't give up) & that spurs him to not give up on Aya.

I hate this on principle - like not sure if it's a bad translation, but relationships are not prizes for liking someone. And I think it also highlights his issues w/ Hikari and Aya in that what they both take issue w/ is his actions/lack thereof.

I ran that part again, and it seems like ChatGPT added "for my feelings" into the text. It should just be, "I probably don’t even know what it’s like to be rewarded." I guess the AI picked it up from the context and thought it needed to include it. So, I fixed it.

 

[outinthegardener]

My big takeaway is how Yuu continues to put romance on a pedestal, and gets disappointed when the reality differs. When he asks Yami, post-coitus, if this is just a whim, and she brushes his question off; He should have figured that out beforehand. He could have paid attention and noticed he was getting brushed off, instead of assuming it was 'real love, baby.' He took it hard when Yami finally disappeared, but he had all the clues to see it was coming from the beginning.

Similar to how he made up conditions for his "love" for Hikari, like getting into her school = she'll fall in love with me, for real!

It's the mixture of idealization and projection that scuffs so many teenage romances. Yeah, Yuu is young and inexperienced and an idiot. But so was I at that age. I made many of the same mistakes. I think that even if I read this when I was a riotous hormonal teenage catastrophe, I wouldn't have learned anything. I'd still step in the doo doo.

I ran that part again, and it seems like ChatGPT added "for my feelings" into the text. It should just be, "I probably don’t even know what it’s like to be rewarded." I guess the AI picked it up from the context and thought it needed to include it. So, I fixed it.

@story645 I wonder if "Reciprocated" isn't a better word than rewarded, but then I remember that Yuu is meant to be screwing this up. "Rewarded" is appropriate for his dumb ass.

 

[middle-the-nerd]

I think it's in keeping w/ he can't let go of Hikari even after everything that transpired w/ Yami. Also this is kinda making me double down on a Yuu/Aya ending - like maybe confessing to Hikari is how he gets closure on that chapter (he finally didn't give up) & that spurs him to not give up on Aya.

Personally I still don't see him getting with Yami again at least not with what we're shown currently

I hate this on principle - like not sure if it's a bad translation, but relationships are not prizes for liking someone. And I think it also highlights his issues w/ Hikari and Aya in that what they both take issue w/ is his lack of actions

I think it's a weird translation i tried running it through a few other translators (including chatGPT again) and they gave me more along the lines of "i probably don't know what it feels like to be rewarded" which makes more sense since it would basically be him saying he doesn't know what it really feels like to have his feelings properly reciprocated which makes falling in love not worth it in his mind

I agree w/ you that he doesn't seem to have matured - to me this chapter was a prime example of how having sex doesn't magically impact maturity, but that's also what I thought Maruto was talking about w/ "mature".

Yeah pretty much- changing isn't the same as maturing

Dunno, it seemed to me like more retreating into his shell - like he talks about how this experience is making him less resilient - give up on love - rather than more. And like I'm sympathetic (I'm grown and still find failure hard) but this feels less emotional independence and more Yuu putting up barriers so he becomes a project in similar ways to Aya.

Well this is kinda what I was trying to say- it's him being independent but in a very unhealthy manner basically trying to shut himself off from other in order to not get hurt again

 

[middle-the-nerd]

Similar to how he made up conditions for his "love" for Hikari, like getting into her school = she'll fall in love with me, for real!

Do need to reread the last chapter again but i remember it being more along the lines of him not feeling like enough since he couldn't get in

But you the point still stands, he still put a "condition" on it

It's the mixture of idealization and projection that scuffs so many teenage romances. Yeah, Yuu is young and inexperienced and an idiot. But so was I at that age. I made many of the same mistakes. I think that even if I read this when I was a riotous hormonal teenage catastrophe, I wouldn't have learned anything. I'd still step in the doo doo.


@story645 I wonder if "Reciprocated" isn't a better word than rewarded, but then I remember that Yuu is meant to be screwing this up. "Rewarded" is appropriate for his dumb ass.

This is what I'm thinking is meant he does it know properly what it feels like to have romantic feelings reciprocated which is why he then thinks it's not worth having them

 

[middle-the-nerd]

I don’t think he was aiming for emotional independence; it seems more like he was trying to emotionally detach himself. Rather than facing his feelings, he chose to run from them, which is understandable for a young man but clearly a sign of immaturity. Maybe what attracted Hikari was that Yuu appeared disinterested, not attached. One thing is certain though: his relationship with Yami caused him more harm than good.

Yeah think I worded it poorly- emotionally "detached" is better way of putting it

I think he probably views it as being independent emotionally which it is in a way but it's in an incredibly unhealthy way- just detaching himself from others so he can't be hurt

Basically I Am a Rock by Simon and Garfunkel lmao

 

[middle-the-nerd]

I think he should sleep with all his friends, screw everything hahaahahah xd

Idk bro might actually crash out like that knowing him

 

[outinthegardener]

Basically I Am a Rock by Simon and Garfunkel lmao

I felt that one. 1966, 10/10 album and a banger song. Hail Satan! and Garfunkel.
https://images.app.goo.gl/E4J6nmgvuZzkJ6qWA

 

[HellJester]

Jesus Christ I'm hating this Yuu dumbass more and more. I just can't with this reveal of his inner thoughts.

Speaks to Yami for all of 20 minutes before jumping in bed with her and instantly falls in love. This is after his wet fart effort of trying to get into Hikari's school after spending years of doing jack shit to get her to notice him. The one opportunity he did have he chickened out - should have said "yeah I didn't write that letter but I do have feelings for you." Decided to just pine for Hikari and hope that she magically fell into his lap without him doing anything.

I mean his relationship with Yami is exactly what he wanted with Hikari. He did absolutely jack shit and a girl magically fell into his lap. And then he pretty much did jack shit during their "relationship" and acted shocked when she ghosted him. Now he's all "I'll never love again". Bitch you never really seemed to be in love with either girl. You just coast through life and hope something happens to you.

Now we're going to potentially see Yuu end up with one of them? Hell no, he's done nothing to deserve this. I honestly can't believe either girl actually likes him. What's to like?

 

[Catbowl]

Maruto’s post on X:

黄昏の章四話更新しました。今まで少年がうじうじ悩む青臭い話だったのに、“あの人”が登場すると一気にねっとり……というか、大人っぽい感じになりますね～……ええ、挿絵含めて #さらなみ

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Yuu’s Chapter – Chapter 4 is now up. Until now it’s been a naive, angsty story about a boy brooding over things, but once that person shows up, it suddenly turns all sultry… or rather, it takes on a more mature tone. Yes—illustrations included. #さらなみ

Yeah… I don’t really think it took on a more mature tone. And I don’t think Yuu’s relationship with Yami actually made him mature.

That's just Maruto jokingly correcting himself from saying "sticky" to "mature" as a euphemism for sex happening. Sort of like his previous tweet about finding a painfu-er, happy ending for everyone.