I wonder when will we see what the fmc actually feels? She clearly wants to be treated as a dirt rag by the mc. To be cheated on, have him be agressive towards her, sexually used etc. When she found out he was going behing her back it looks more like she is happy and aroused rather than relieved. We can also see how she likes to service other men than her bf, most likely to anger him? Just like someone mentioned, nothing makes sense in this manga. She speaks how she likes his kind side but actively wants to hurt him. Basically, a manga for swingers but honestly even they wouldn't be satisfied since the fmc is weird so its more towards cucks since the anguish of the mc is so detailed
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First, a small correction: I miscalculated the estimated sales for volume 2. It should be 1,042, not 1,283. Also, volume 2 covers chapters 7–13, containing one more chapter than volume 1.
Now for the sales data of volume 3. According to Shoseki Ranking's data, volume 3, released on 2025-10-20, sold approximately 1,213 physical copies in its first week. That’s slightly better than volume 2 but still far below the 2,264 copies sold by volume 1 in its first week.
Here is the chart showing the first-week sales of each volume:
Volume 3 covers chapters 14–20. Since the latest raw chapter is 29, the author already has enough material for volume 4, and volume 5 is confirmed. This seems to be one of those cases where digital sales are keeping the series going, as physical sales remain quite low.
How do you get the number of copies sold for each volume? A new volume has just been released, and I'm curious to know how well this story is selling.
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So, to estimate the sales of physical copies using Shoseki Ranking, the volume needs to get at least one weekly ranking, since there are no estimates for the daily rankings. I checked, and volume 4, which came out on 2026-02-19, didn’t get a weekly ranking, meaning it sold less than 1,050 physical copies in its first week, which is bad.
I also checked Amazon to see how the digital sales for volume 4 are doing, and they don’t look very good either:
So, yeah, sales for volume 4 really don’t look great, but in the end it depends on whether it’s selling enough to meet the publisher’s expectations, and we have no way of knowing that.
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Last 2 chapters lean in to that
She goes back to the fat guy and his GF and talk about it. Her apparent problem is that she feel absolutely no sexual attraction towards the MC because he is too kind (yeah really) so she is probably a massive M. She doesn't think he is manly enough so her pussy dries up as soon as they are down to it. They advice her to make a notebook and check how she feels when they do something specific and mark it down. Like; doesn't feel good / feels moderately good / feels great etc. So in short, she has a very specific taste in bed (rough/dominant play) and MC is too kind/understanding to fuck her shit up. She decided to try and mold him into the type she likes instead of breaking up with him because she probably can't find a similarly limp wristed doormat bitch like him again.
MC of course shed tears after she tells him about all this because he thinks she's been putting up with him being "kind" (while fucking other man lol) and decides to work hard to change.
MC of course shed tears after she tells him about all this because he thinks she's been putting up with him being "kind" (while fucking other man lol) and decides to work hard to change.
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I got no words to say how shit this is. All ima say is the author wants his wants to sleep with other men. Ban this shit it get -1,00,000
I think there's a real conspiracy at work to promote ntrslop to the masses. I'm seeing more and more manga with this shit.
This is so stupid and insane. FMC didn't even give her fiance time to consider whether he wanted an open relationship or not; she'd already found someone. It's just total bullshit.
This is so stupid and insane. FMC didn't even give her fiance time to consider whether he wanted an open relationship or not; she'd already found someone. It's just total bullshit.
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I hate this, and its just my opinion but yea this is heartbreaking, MMC does not seem into it.
I know actual swingers and they are nothing like this, they come in all shapes and sizes but a lack of physical intimacy is not something they suffer, yknow they typically sleep with their partner more than others...
Hate the FMC in this, totaly ambushed her partner, and a whole year without bringing it up, i can only hate read this in hopes that MMC wakes up and finds a good partner leaving FMC heartbroken, run through and only capable of empty situationships as she deserves.
Honestly this could have been a good series if it started with him leaving when she entered the hotel room and ghosting her from then on
I know actual swingers and they are nothing like this, they come in all shapes and sizes but a lack of physical intimacy is not something they suffer, yknow they typically sleep with their partner more than others...
Hate the FMC in this, totaly ambushed her partner, and a whole year without bringing it up, i can only hate read this in hopes that MMC wakes up and finds a good partner leaving FMC heartbroken, run through and only capable of empty situationships as she deserves.
Honestly this could have been a good series if it started with him leaving when she entered the hotel room and ghosting her from then on
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chapter 40 is out and blonde classmate (I think) did something really funny
i'd say there's some very juicy drama incoming
and maybe also a fight who knows
wow, that's a lot of 1 star ratings
i think it was some sort of celebration but she stayed back in chapter 39 to look at some things with them teacher (no she didn't sleep with him). She was running late so MC called the restaurant to push the reservation back a few minutes. Then his classmate appears and offers to start eating with him until she arrives. He goes to the toilet a while later and his gf calls then. Classmate picks up, gf doesn't know it's her and starts apologizing for being late yada yada. Then the classmate basically calls her the worst for being late on such an important day and I think also tells her that hes too good for her. she then hangs up and we see that those words did something to her. Dejected she turns around on the stair in the train station and goes away (don't know where though). Meanwhile blonde girl deletes the call from his history and pretends the call never happened. Just in that moment MC comes back and asked if she called in the meantime. she says no (I think) and mc at first thinks that she's just too tired and sends her a message asking if everything is okay. She briefly replies with something that I'm not sure if this was translated correctly (let's talk some other time or something like that). Anyway he suddenly remembers their contract going forward with the sharing and also remembers that they apparently were to meet up with Kuma again in a week. So his mind starts racing thinking she might be meeting up with him, but his classmate quickly comforts him and says she doesn't like how his girlfriend just walks over his feelings like that. At the end of the chapter she invites him over because of the rain (she lives close by apparently)
i'd say there's some very juicy drama incoming
and maybe also a fight who knows
wow, that's a lot of 1 star ratings
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I'm really glad I'm not the only person who thinks this. I feel icky after reading. If its two couples who are okay-thats fine! I think because the boyfriend wasn't and doing it just for his girlfriend is felt gross.
chapter 40 is out and blonde classmate (I think) did something really funny
i think it was some sort of celebration but she stayed back in chapter 39 to look at some things with them teacher (no she didn't sleep with him). She was running late so MC called the restaurant to push the reservation back a few minutes. Then his classmate appears and offers to start eating with him until she arrives. He goes to the toilet a while later and his gf calls then. Classmate picks up, gf doesn't know it's her and starts apologizing for being late yada yada. Then the classmate basically calls her the worst for being late on such an important day and I think also tells her that hes too good for her. she then hangs up and we see that those words did something to her. Dejected she turns around on the stair in the train station and goes away (don't know where though). Meanwhile blonde girl deletes the call from his history and pretends the call never happened. Just in that moment MC comes back and asked if she called in the meantime. she says no (I think) and mc at first thinks that she's just too tired and sends her a message asking if everything is okay. She briefly replies with something that I'm not sure if this was translated correctly (let's talk some other time or something like that). Anyway he suddenly remembers their contract going forward with the sharing and also remembers that they apparently were to meet up with Kuma again in a week. So his mind starts racing thinking she might be meeting up with him, but his classmate quickly comforts him and says she doesn't like how his girlfriend just walks over his feelings like that. At the end of the chapter she invites him over because of the rain (she lives close by apparently)
i'd say there's some very juicy drama incoming
and maybe also a fight who knows
wow, that's a lot of 1 star ratings
This manga deserves a low rating.
One of the major problems with this manga is the lack of expressiveness.
On this page, she has just found out that her boyfriend is now with a girl at the very place where he was supposed to be waiting for her to have dinner together; that female voice has just told her: ‘You're the worst’, ‘You’re disqualified as a girlfriend’ . When you look at the manga panels, is she sad? Is she angry? Has she realized her own behavior? Or is she indifferent? It’s clear her face doesn’t show happiness—but beyond that, it’s hard to tell.
Then there’s the repeated use of those ellipses, which only leaves the reader still not knowing what she’s thinking.
I also don’t understand what purpose is served by the effort to draw that clash with the other person coming up the stairs – is it just filler in a moment that should have been emotional?
One of the major problems with this manga is the lack of expressiveness.
On this page, she has just found out that her boyfriend is now with a girl at the very place where he was supposed to be waiting for her to have dinner together; that female voice has just told her: ‘You're the worst’, ‘You’re disqualified as a girlfriend’ . When you look at the manga panels, is she sad? Is she angry? Has she realized her own behavior? Or is she indifferent? It’s clear her face doesn’t show happiness—but beyond that, it’s hard to tell.
Then there’s the repeated use of those ellipses, which only leaves the reader still not knowing what she’s thinking.
I also don’t understand what purpose is served by the effort to draw that clash with the other person coming up the stairs – is it just filler in a moment that should have been emotional?
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That's intentional. The real cucks reading this (seriously) would lose their micro boners if she felt anything near guilt. The point is for the MC to suffer. He gets to have his fun, but in the end, the author is gonna make him as sad and as miserable as possible. Like his previous work's MC (another comment mentioned it). It doesn't matter that any other normal person would have quit on the relationship a long time ago; no matter what, MC needs to be in love with FL, so that FL can do whatever she wants. I'm happy this dumpster fire manga is struggeling with sales, I hope the author finishes it up with a shitty, rushed, cucked ending so everyone here can move on. I look forward to review bombing his next work when it's put on here.This manga deserves a low rating.
One of the major problems with this manga is the lack of expressiveness.
On this page, she has just found out that her boyfriend is now with a girl at the very place where he was supposed to be waiting for her to have dinner together; that female voice has just told her: ‘You're the worst’, ‘You’re disqualified as a girlfriend’ . When you look at the manga panels, is she sad? Is she angry? Has she realized her own behavior? Or is she indifferent? It’s clear her face doesn’t show happiness—but beyond that, it’s hard to tell.
Then there’s the repeated use of those ellipses, which only leaves the reader still not knowing what she’s thinking.
I also don’t understand what purpose is served by the effort to draw that clash with the other person coming up the stairs – is it just filler in a moment that should have been emotional?
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Yeah, another new one came out from the same author as "Someone's Girlfriend." Genuine dogshit all around. They gotta start a 1984-style surveillance campaign to rid the Japanese of this mind virus.
NTR can be an interesting genre if the story is well-constructed, which in my opinion is not the case here. It’s a genre that thrives on creating a negative emotional impact. That is what the regular NTR reader is looking for.
For this manga to work, you have to believe two things: that they are a couple and that they are in love. That just doesn’t happen. Whenever they appear together, it’s always regarding the 'swap'; they have no couple moments independent of the exchange. We don't see them in everyday situations—no conversations, no dinners, no small gestures or signs of attachment like lingering looks, genuine concern, or emotional exclusivity. Without clear signs of love, there is no emotional foundation. And without internal conflict, there is no drama. This creates a very specific feeling:
'This isn’t a relationship that is breaking; it’s a relationship that never fully existed.'
Regarding this specific image, the lack of expressiveness doesn't reinforce the NTR. If you don't feel that one person is in love with the other, the manga fails at the core pillar of the genre. What should be uncomfortable or painful ends up feeling cold, distant, or simply confusing. In short:
No relationship -> No betrayal -> No impact.
My rating for this manga is very low because I think it suffers from too many narrative flaws, such as contradictions and incredibly flat characters.
'This isn’t a relationship that is breaking; it’s a relationship that never fully existed.'
Regarding this specific image, the lack of expressiveness doesn't reinforce the NTR. If you don't feel that one person is in love with the other, the manga fails at the core pillar of the genre. What should be uncomfortable or painful ends up feeling cold, distant, or simply confusing. In short:
No relationship -> No betrayal -> No impact.
My rating for this manga is very low because I think it suffers from too many narrative flaws, such as contradictions and incredibly flat characters.
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I read the 7 chapters up before knowing that this was made by the artist for THAT particular series. I'm just hoping that, since it was the artist and NOT the author, this person might be interested in taking it down a different path. Before reading the spoilers, I was hoping that someone would sit down and ask her if she'd considered her boyfriend's feelings. Like, OK, you love how caring and devoted he is to you, and because he's so caring and devoted you want him to let you sleep with other men to fulfill your fetish? One look makes it clear that's not what he's into, so which do you want? Do you want a man who will love you so much he'll gladly help you do things he hates knowing you do? Or do you want to love him enough to do what he loves even if it doesn't always turn you on? That's something people often don't seem to get: it's not just about "compatibility". In real life, you're never going to find someone who's a perfect match, whether we're talking about matching what each can give sexually to what each wants, or what each wants and supports in terms of work, or emotionally, or anything. What really matters isn't whether you're "compatible". What matters is whether you care enough about your partner to try and give them what pleases them and try to understand the good parts of what they have to offer.
For instance, if the truth is that the girl doesn't just have a thing for screwing other men but just wants the guy to treat her a way he doesn't, maybe they should both just talk about what they like and want. And not in the sense of "What you do makes me dry/makes me limp", but rather "this is what really turns me on, what turns you on?" In other words, full acceptance and reassurance that no, you are not at fault for me, and I'm not at fault for you, and just because we don't perfectly match up here doesn't mean we can't love each other and find fulfillment in one another's arms. If he likes gentle lovey-dovey stuff and she prefers something rougher, maybe they can take turns. Some days she can play the proper princess melting into her beloved's arms, and some days he can play the horny bandit having some fun with the princess before tossing her aside. If they really love each other, and give their all to make it clear to each other just how much they love doing these things, they should be able to sense that passion, and that in and of itself should at least give them something. If you can't feel anything from seeing your beloved overwhelmed with passion, can't find it in you to even try to reciprocate when they're expressing their love and desire and need, then the problem is NOT just that you're "not compatible".
For instance, if the truth is that the girl doesn't just have a thing for screwing other men but just wants the guy to treat her a way he doesn't, maybe they should both just talk about what they like and want. And not in the sense of "What you do makes me dry/makes me limp", but rather "this is what really turns me on, what turns you on?" In other words, full acceptance and reassurance that no, you are not at fault for me, and I'm not at fault for you, and just because we don't perfectly match up here doesn't mean we can't love each other and find fulfillment in one another's arms. If he likes gentle lovey-dovey stuff and she prefers something rougher, maybe they can take turns. Some days she can play the proper princess melting into her beloved's arms, and some days he can play the horny bandit having some fun with the princess before tossing her aside. If they really love each other, and give their all to make it clear to each other just how much they love doing these things, they should be able to sense that passion, and that in and of itself should at least give them something. If you can't feel anything from seeing your beloved overwhelmed with passion, can't find it in you to even try to reciprocate when they're expressing their love and desire and need, then the problem is NOT just that you're "not compatible".
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I read it on my phone and i was thinking why its feels so similar...
First i thought maybe it's by the author of Ashita, Watashi wa Dareka no Kanojo
after I read it i started thinking of Karami Zakari - Entanglement by Jada Pinkett Smith
Aigoo, what is wrong with these cuck obsessed japanese. Even the studio that green-lit this dogshyt.
54 cucks on Mangadex rated it 10 as of the time of this post.
What makes the story worse is the Fmc and her acting like an airhead, some of the panels make me wanna 'Zawa Zawa' her from existence. Speaking about just the story, i don't even care about the cucked MC. Go along with the hoe's logic and don't speak up? I hope he suffers.
What i want more is insight about the author's real life cucked story. Something that explains his cuckkening (cuck + awakening) & infatuation with such stories.
First i thought maybe it's by the author of Ashita, Watashi wa Dareka no Kanojo
after I read it i started thinking of Karami Zakari - Entanglement by Jada Pinkett Smith
Aigoo, what is wrong with these cuck obsessed japanese. Even the studio that green-lit this dogshyt.
54 cucks on Mangadex rated it 10 as of the time of this post.
What makes the story worse is the Fmc and her acting like an airhead, some of the panels make me wanna 'Zawa Zawa' her from existence. Speaking about just the story, i don't even care about the cucked MC. Go along with the hoe's logic and don't speak up? I hope he suffers.
What i want more is insight about the author's real life cucked story. Something that explains his cuckkening (cuck + awakening) & infatuation with such stories.
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No surprise it reminds you of KZ. The author didn't write that series, but they did draw it. Can only hope that the fact the one writing this one didn't write that one means they might give it a better ending. These types of series hurt me, but they always leave me trying to think up ways things might change. I think I thought too much here, since I actually came up with a "plan" of sorts, thought probably not a good one:
Honestly, if this was "real" and I had to talk to these two, my first point would be to ask Mako how badly she wants to stay in this relationship, and whether she wants to because she really loves Kouhei and wants to be with him or because of things like pity or pride. If she really does care that much, I'd then tell Kouhei to be more assertive and have the guts to tell Mako when she's asking for something he doesn't like, and to put his foot down hard if she's asking for something that makes him jealous or uncomfortable; and at the same time I'd tell Mako to stop being so selfish, as even a blind and deaf person would have been able to tell that Kouhei hated the idea of either of them sleeping with other people, even in a "swap" form, and yet she begged him all the same because it's what she wanted. I'd also disillusion them: "physical compatibility" is very often nothing more than an excuse to not try to adapt to one's partner, to try and give them what they want and learn to enjoy what they have to give.
Next, as an optional first step, I might suggest a few days doing it in front of experienced and trusted people who can be relied on to judge both parties equally but also aim more for constructive criticism, giving pointers on where to improve rather than declarations of where they're no good.
Then, as a sort of primer, I'd suggest a week or two without sex (with ANYONE, including each other), only relieving themselves on their own with self-selected materials. At the same time they should try to find or make materials that demonstrate their ideal of what they want to do with each other. Then they should exchange those materials and thoroughly explain what they like, what they like about it, and why. The goal is simple: get the other person to not just learn what you like, but why you like it, and hopefully get it to a point where they can appreciate it and comprehend it even if they can't personally like it.
Next, the main point: a long period of time, maybe a month or two, of taking turns. Meet as often as possible to have dates and end it with sex, one night for Kouhei then one night for Mako and so on. Whoever's night it is, that person should choose the date spot based on what they like and want to share with their partner, not what they think their partner would like, and the sex should be focused on pleasing that person. The lead should set the tone and style, and should pay attention to their partner partly in terms of what things they did that the partner enjoyed but even more based on what their partner did that they did or didn't enjoy. Afterward, they should debrief, not with a selfish rating of good and bad, but rather a description of points that were really good, recommendations on how to improve weak points, points where they hoped something was going to happen, etc. The goal again is to understand one another's interests and desires, but also to train both to put more focus on one another in bed, to feel when their partner is into it and actually value these signs. If it works, by the end they would hopefully be able to find things that both like, to find fulfillment in pleasuring one another rather than just using one another for their own pleasure. At that point, they'd probably be able to have most nights follow their middle ground, with special occasions dedicating to fulfilling one or the other's personal fetishes. Like, on Kouhei's birthday Mako may go extra vanilla and tender, and on Mako's birthday Kouhei could get her a collar and some cuffs to "train" her.
Next, as an optional first step, I might suggest a few days doing it in front of experienced and trusted people who can be relied on to judge both parties equally but also aim more for constructive criticism, giving pointers on where to improve rather than declarations of where they're no good.
Then, as a sort of primer, I'd suggest a week or two without sex (with ANYONE, including each other), only relieving themselves on their own with self-selected materials. At the same time they should try to find or make materials that demonstrate their ideal of what they want to do with each other. Then they should exchange those materials and thoroughly explain what they like, what they like about it, and why. The goal is simple: get the other person to not just learn what you like, but why you like it, and hopefully get it to a point where they can appreciate it and comprehend it even if they can't personally like it.
Next, the main point: a long period of time, maybe a month or two, of taking turns. Meet as often as possible to have dates and end it with sex, one night for Kouhei then one night for Mako and so on. Whoever's night it is, that person should choose the date spot based on what they like and want to share with their partner, not what they think their partner would like, and the sex should be focused on pleasing that person. The lead should set the tone and style, and should pay attention to their partner partly in terms of what things they did that the partner enjoyed but even more based on what their partner did that they did or didn't enjoy. Afterward, they should debrief, not with a selfish rating of good and bad, but rather a description of points that were really good, recommendations on how to improve weak points, points where they hoped something was going to happen, etc. The goal again is to understand one another's interests and desires, but also to train both to put more focus on one another in bed, to feel when their partner is into it and actually value these signs. If it works, by the end they would hopefully be able to find things that both like, to find fulfillment in pleasuring one another rather than just using one another for their own pleasure. At that point, they'd probably be able to have most nights follow their middle ground, with special occasions dedicating to fulfilling one or the other's personal fetishes. Like, on Kouhei's birthday Mako may go extra vanilla and tender, and on Mako's birthday Kouhei could get her a collar and some cuffs to "train" her.
Either way, this is pretty much a demonstration of the absolute last couple that should try swapping. I doubt that such an activity could really be healthy for a relationship, but even if you could argue that it is, it should only be for people who find plenty of joy and satisfaction with one another. No good could come from swapping because your partner doesn't turn you on enough.
I don't know what to say, I'm fine with NTR plot, but this one is just horrible. It feels weak when the relationship of MC and FMC is more of exploiting and abuse.
I think the author just want the MC to suffer, and that's his fetish/turn-on, seeing a male being weak-minded and helpless.
I think the author just want the MC to suffer, and that's his fetish/turn-on, seeing a male being weak-minded and helpless.
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Just read the last few chapters (up to 42), thought I'd update how things are currently and my thoughts/hopes (though they may not mean much since I've only read the first few chaps and 39-42).
So as for what I hope might happen after this (though I doubt it)
As I mentioned in the spoilers, one thing I wanted to know is about their "new rules" that Kouhei mentioned while wondering if they're still going with them. What are these rules? Do they perhaps limit meeting with others or require some kind of alert that they are going to? I don't know so I sort of wonder whether Mako thought Kouhei broke the rules when the girl picked up the phone.
As mentioned above, Mako is held back because a teacher wants to talk to her, so Kouhei goes to eat with the blonde girl (no clue who she is though her feelings are clear). While he's in the restroom, Mako calls to apologize while running to the train station, assuming he's already home and promising that she'll make it up to him. Blondie tells her that she's the worst and she's unqualified as a girlfriend before hanging up and erasing the call. Mako's surprised by the girl's voice and slumps a bit as she stares at the phone. Someone bumps into Mako and she just stares at them before turning around and walking back the way she came from. Kouhei texts her when he gets back and she apologizes before asking to talk later. He thinks back to things she said about a friend of "Kuma-san" and things he taught her. He recalls she went to see him when she made up that checklist or "charm training" or whatever and wonders if they're still keeping the "new rules" (if anyone has read the stuff before this please post these "new rules"). He worries whether he can get to the station in time to get home, and the blonde invites him to her place since it's closer.
At her apartment, he changes into a jersey so he can dry his clothes from the storm outside. She apologizes to him for dragging him over when he's in pain. He tells her if anything she's being too kind, but she feels he's kinder: when an important promise is broken, to choose to worry about the person instead of resenting them takes a lot of faith, and most people couldn't think of another person before their own loneliness. He instead says he just has no confidence in himself, and whether that's why he's lacking in sex appeal. He shows her the checklist and comments on the destructive power when he was told she felt nothing no matter how he kissed her or touched her, Blondie starts poking him and touching him to figure out what kind of "touch" he means. She goes further and further before telling him Mako's cruel to say such a thing (though he thinks to himself that's not exactly what she said or how she said it), and that personally she wants him to touch her everywhere.
They strip, and it becomes clear she has no experience and no clue what she's doing, so he pushes her down and starts to take the lead. Before long he can see that she's truly enjoying it, without any lies or deceptions. When she asks him he agrees and puts it in. She admits it hurts a bit, but still she just wants to stay like this forever. He sees an image (since I haven't read I don't know if it's a memory or just a dream) of Mako saying those words, only for the image to warp and disappear while he says "So do I".
At her apartment, he changes into a jersey so he can dry his clothes from the storm outside. She apologizes to him for dragging him over when he's in pain. He tells her if anything she's being too kind, but she feels he's kinder: when an important promise is broken, to choose to worry about the person instead of resenting them takes a lot of faith, and most people couldn't think of another person before their own loneliness. He instead says he just has no confidence in himself, and whether that's why he's lacking in sex appeal. He shows her the checklist and comments on the destructive power when he was told she felt nothing no matter how he kissed her or touched her, Blondie starts poking him and touching him to figure out what kind of "touch" he means. She goes further and further before telling him Mako's cruel to say such a thing (though he thinks to himself that's not exactly what she said or how she said it), and that personally she wants him to touch her everywhere.
They strip, and it becomes clear she has no experience and no clue what she's doing, so he pushes her down and starts to take the lead. Before long he can see that she's truly enjoying it, without any lies or deceptions. When she asks him he agrees and puts it in. She admits it hurts a bit, but still she just wants to stay like this forever. He sees an image (since I haven't read I don't know if it's a memory or just a dream) of Mako saying those words, only for the image to warp and disappear while he says "So do I".
So as for what I hope might happen after this (though I doubt it)
I'm hoping one of two things happen.
1: Kouhei suggests he and Mako break up, finally gaining the confidence to assert himself in this and telling her that she should find someone who can make her feel fulfilled, and that he's found someone who feels fulfilled with him. The story could end there, or continue with both pursuing others but unable to let go completely. But honestly, with how harsh things have been, this might be the simplest and cleanest way to give an ending that isn't simply heartbreaking.
2: Kouhei or Blondie tell Mako about what happened, and either the look on his face or details shared with her conveys to her that, again, this girl truly did feel excitement, pleasure, joy and fulfillment being with Kouhei. And it's clear how much this honest pleasure at his touch means to him; in a sense, it's like the rough stuff with her. For the first time, she actually feels what Kouhei felt when she told him she couldn't feel pleasure with him, the heartbreak and soul-crushing inadequacy in being unable to have that bond with the one she loves, being unable to give her beloved something precious but knowing that others can and readily will. I really hope this goes this path, but I don't have high expectations. If it did go that way, it would maybe allow her to understand to a more fundamental level how she's hurt him, and maybe see that he's not the only one that needs a lot of work. If the story EVER reaches a point where she recognizes this pain and her need, there might be hope as like I've said before both of them need to work to better feel each other, better please each other, and to value one another's feelings more.
1: Kouhei suggests he and Mako break up, finally gaining the confidence to assert himself in this and telling her that she should find someone who can make her feel fulfilled, and that he's found someone who feels fulfilled with him. The story could end there, or continue with both pursuing others but unable to let go completely. But honestly, with how harsh things have been, this might be the simplest and cleanest way to give an ending that isn't simply heartbreaking.
2: Kouhei or Blondie tell Mako about what happened, and either the look on his face or details shared with her conveys to her that, again, this girl truly did feel excitement, pleasure, joy and fulfillment being with Kouhei. And it's clear how much this honest pleasure at his touch means to him; in a sense, it's like the rough stuff with her. For the first time, she actually feels what Kouhei felt when she told him she couldn't feel pleasure with him, the heartbreak and soul-crushing inadequacy in being unable to have that bond with the one she loves, being unable to give her beloved something precious but knowing that others can and readily will. I really hope this goes this path, but I don't have high expectations. If it did go that way, it would maybe allow her to understand to a more fundamental level how she's hurt him, and maybe see that he's not the only one that needs a lot of work. If the story EVER reaches a point where she recognizes this pain and her need, there might be hope as like I've said before both of them need to work to better feel each other, better please each other, and to value one another's feelings more.
As I mentioned in the spoilers, one thing I wanted to know is about their "new rules" that Kouhei mentioned while wondering if they're still going with them. What are these rules? Do they perhaps limit meeting with others or require some kind of alert that they are going to? I don't know so I sort of wonder whether Mako thought Kouhei broke the rules when the girl picked up the phone.
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