Thank you everyone! I know you've been busting your asses over this, so make sure have a break too.
Ah, Aoi. Sad to see it, the breakdown, but you'll become much much more mature and stable if you can move on. You become a great if you take this misery, this pain, and re shape it into motivation, to get better, to grasp what you were so close too. But never forget it is just football, it may become your living but you cannot let it become your sole, single reason of life.
There must balance. You went too extreme so come back down and stablize, Aoi.