Bokura no Ai wa Kimochi Warui - Ch. 4

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Yeah. She's masturbating while licking a fucking doll leg... :haa:

Btw, licking plastic wrap is bad for her too. Microplastics entering the body and what not. Idk why, but the microplastics thing bothers me just as much as her freak shit. OCD man.
It is, but replicating the plastic doll uh .. experience (?) is kind of part of what she's after.
 
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So she can't remember who she is trying to recreate so it must be Azuki, and the drama with the big sisters will tie up that loose end?
 
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thank god dolls normally don't have private parts or we would get a chapter about it too
that's kinda what struck me about this whole situation ... these models are both neutered (no genitals) and sexualized (portraying an exaggerated ideal of a particular gender) and this contradiction comes out really strongly here. another interesting aspect is while Azuki's fixation is polymer clay - a moldable, reusable material trying to approximate a specific person, Remu's fixation takes the form of solidified plastic - mass produced in molds. i dont have a thesis here tbh im just noting down these details for someone smarter to riff on. use and exchange value? concrete and abstract labour? the sublime object? im making shit up rn
 
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that's kinda what struck me about this whole situation ... these models are both neutered (no genitals) and sexualized (portraying an exaggerated ideal of a particular gender) and this contradiction comes out really strongly here. another interesting aspect is while Azuki's fixation is polymer clay - a moldable, reusable material trying to approximate a specific person, Remu's fixation takes the form of solidified plastic - mass produced in molds. i dont have a thesis here tbh im just noting down these details for someone smarter to riff on. use and exchange value? concrete and abstract labour? the sublime object? im making shit up rn
Thank you for making this insightful comment, it got me thinking. You are on to something very interesting about the choice of materials. In the case of Azuki, she is constantly producing and reproducing the simulacrum of Meguru to get closer to the idealized form from her memories. Polymer clay can be baked to harden into plastic, but that's something she never does, since she is always one step away from the perfect body, unable to even make a head for the model. Every time one accesses a memory one rewrites it and that is exactly what is happening here, Azuki even forgetting the details of Meguru's face. The lability of the polymer clay corresponds with the lability of her memory of Meguru. There is also the correspondence between the sense-memory of having sex with Meguru and the sensory experience of molding and groping the polymer clay into the desired form. Now that she's unknowingly using the sensory experience of Remu's body to rewrite the memory, everything is getting confused and mixed up with her budding desire for Remu.

Remu's choice of plastic is illustrative of the ideal feminine form that she desires, a very generic, almost mass produced feminine ideal form. Fitting then that she then chases this form in mass-produced product that is very stable in a material sense, while never actually reaching that ideal (or seeing her face). However, the plastic dolls can never satisfy her precise desired ideal, so she is like Azuki in this way, but different in that she is chasing this unattainable ideal through consumption. She says she puts the plastic wrap over the clay to disguise the taste, which makes sense on the surface if you've ever tasted polymer clay, but there's something deeper here. She wants the labile clay to be as close to the stability of plastic as possible, the unchanging comfortable ideal. But ideal forms are as labile as memory, and now that a labile doll material has been introduced along with sensory experience with Azuki, I expect that ideal to drastically shift.

The contradictory neuter/sexualizaton of dolls makes so much sense for both of these characters, where they want the sexualization and sense experience of another body in a completely controllable way without the threat of sex and all that comes with it. I wonder if that will change now that they've both found people they can truly trust with their whole selves.
 
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Almost bursted out laughing at work when the page of the girl licking the leg while rubbing off came up. That caught me so off guard lmfao 😭
 
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Thanks for the TL, this series is so odd and interesting.

I do find it really funny that someone might read Doughnuts Under a Crescent Moon or I Married My Female Friend and go looking for another Ushio Shio series to read only to end up getting hit in the face with this one.
 
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Thank you for making this insightful comment, it got me thinking. You are on to something very interesting about the choice of materials. In the case of Azuki, she is constantly producing and reproducing the simulacrum of Meguru to get closer to the idealized form from her memories. Polymer clay can be baked to harden into plastic, but that's something she never does, since she is always one step away from the perfect body, unable to even make a head for the model. Every time one accesses a memory one rewrites it and that is exactly what is happening here, Azuki even forgetting the details of Meguru's face. The lability of the polymer clay corresponds with the lability of her memory of Meguru. There is also the correspondence between the sense-memory of having sex with Meguru and the sensory experience of molding and groping the polymer clay into the desired form. Now that she's unknowingly using the sensory experience of Remu's body to rewrite the memory, everything is getting confused and mixed up with her budding desire for Remu.

Remu's choice of plastic is illustrative of the ideal feminine form that she desires, a very generic, almost mass produced feminine ideal form. Fitting then that she then chases this form in mass-produced product that is very stable in a material sense, while never actually reaching that ideal (or seeing her face). However, the plastic dolls can never satisfy her precise desired ideal, so she is like Azuki in this way, but different in that she is chasing this unattainable ideal through consumption. She says she puts the plastic wrap over the clay to disguise the taste, which makes sense on the surface if you've ever tasted polymer clay, but there's something deeper here. She wants the labile clay to be as close to the stability of plastic as possible, the unchanging comfortable ideal. But ideal forms are as labile as memory, and now that a labile doll material has been introduced along with sensory experience with Azuki, I expect that ideal to drastically shift.

The contradictory neuter/sexualizaton of dolls makes so much sense for both of these characters, where they want the sexualization and sense experience of another body in a completely controllable way without the threat of sex and all that comes with it. I wonder if that will change now that they've both found people they can truly trust with their whole selves.
ok i think u are my new favorite poster WOO let's see how this story develops now im eager. Tbh the lack of lit crit in yuri comments sections is a travesty; we will rectify this;
 
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ok i think u are my new favorite poster WOO let's see how this story develops now im eager. Tbh the lack of lit crit in yuri comments sections is a travesty; we will rectify this;
I'll try not to disappoint you but not every comment I make will have this level of thought or care behind it, as some other commenters are well aware by now :aquadrink:
 
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Really interested in whatever niji has going on, esp since she's going on about Remu saying the "wrong" things

Thanks for the chapter!
 
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Since she's masturbating I can only imagine the wet and horny hell occurring under her covers. I wish we could catch a glimpse of her crotch in that moment.

Thank you for the translation.
 

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