Bokura no Ai wa Kimochi Warui - Ch. 5

[mangaburner1979]

Did not expect this turn into full blown psychological horror! The dreaded meeting between Azuki and Meguru was somehow worse than expected and now everything is going even further off the rails. Meguru's discovery of Azuki and Remu's strange relationship is going to hit this story like a freight train and I can't wait.

I thought it was interesting that Azuki still sees herself as a puppet with zero autonomy, which makes her sculpting Meguru a perverse and misdirected means of taking back some small degree of power even as it traps her in a psychologically unhealthy loop.

Niji seems like she believes she's the writer of the lives around her, assuming she wasn't just trying to test her gaslighting abilities on something trivial.

 

[HenkumaEnthusiast]

I seriously cant be the only one who thinks this is just Utena but older yeah?

She even has a magical girl obsession, the pipeline is clear 🦅

Also shouldnt be surprising, but it seems the Ex has become a O, as in O-man, our MC is going to gush for weeks 🔥

Don't worry she 100% a carbon copy of Utena.

 

[mangaburner1979]

Don't worry she 100% a carbon copy of Utena.

At first I didn't see it but now I can't unsee Azuki as a burnout Utena who never got her superpowers (and all the self-confidence and personal growth that came along with them).

 

[HenkumaEnthusiast]

Niji is probably the most dangerous out of the cast so far. She's giving Yandere vibes, and depending on whether or not the author wants to include actual violence in the story, this could be bloody.
I think that Meguru is also "disgusting," she has clearly shown that she despises Lust above all else and loves anime -> maybe she's only into 2d romance and is the type to go insane when her ship is not realized or becomes horny.

But she's also weird because she went to meet Mc when you'd expect her to want to avoid her straight up. I wonder if she's planning something, because she does appear to be aware that MC is def into her still.

 

[Manko-sensei]

Oh no, instead of melting her brain is breaking, that bleeding is a death sentence! I think her relationship with imouto-san is going to take a turn...

 

[KitsuKyouno]

Real Meguru was hard
but that happend with the mc been in a parasocial relationship base in a bad trying

 

[jrocker]

I really do wonder about the face. Was it truly one of disgust or horror or one of enjoyment? Clearly the MC has gotten much more disturbed considering the whole thing about not liking her painted in her blood. Also, seeing that they are sisters do both of them have the same ideal body they are going for?

 

[Cornonthekopp]

 

[Sunzo]

I just wonder what the author was thinking making the MC like this lol

 

[kkakasih]

How do you even come up with this damn
Author really proved that fluff is not all he can do

 

[MacinteuchPlus]

Oh this is becoming terrifying, guess you gotta hit rock bottom before going back up, I hope?

 

[wlftchtr82]

 

[Redrot]

Usui Shio writes perfection yet again. Page 27 especially hits so hard. The panels, in order, with the dialogue, ending with the squiggles under Meguru's rejection of Azuki… putting it into words can't do it justice. And the final page, too. And everything else, just as well.

Not a single panel is wasteful. Even pages 29-31, while functionally having no dialogue, work precisely because they don't have dialogue. It captures Azuki at that moment better than anything else could.

It's no less hard to find what good to point to than it is to find anything bad, due to it all just being so good. It's hard to pick just one aspect, just one page, just one panel, to focus on that to say what makes it work. This is in part because while it's all perfect, it is so to the extent that picking it apart ruins the magic, on some level.

Since it's perfect on every level, it's no less great in how everything fits together, and only by soaking it all at once can it truly be appreciated.

 

[Zeralyos]

I really do wonder about the face. Was it truly one of disgust or horror or one of enjoyment? Clearly the MC has gotten much more disturbed considering the whole thing about not liking her painted in her blood. Also, seeing that they are sisters do both of them have the same ideal body they are going for?

They're stepsisters so I wouldn't say that's guaranteed.

 

[Gothic_Catalyst]

Thank you for the chapter.

 

[johnspartan]

i cant get enough of this one, i love mentally ill women

 

[mogzig]

Holy shit, I wasn’t expecting them to reunite so soon and it made everything so much worse. Thanks for the TL! Absolutely love this unhinged banger.

 

[Nuwanda1313]

wait wait wait wait

they're not just quirky, they're mentally ill fr

 

[onedumninja]

GImme a break meguru. Dismissing someone's feelings because you don't believe love can involve sex is so horrible to do. Maybe you got some trauma or something but mc seems like she really loved you. She also seems like a coocoo crazy now but fuck off meguru.

Making a fragile person feel like they're a disgusting freak because they fell in love with you and you don't believe in love the same way is mondo uncool.

I'm very interested to know if it's a result of meguru being ace or homophobic or something else. Her parents are divorced. Maybe she created negative associations about relationships after that.

 

[onedumninja]

wait wait wait wait

they're not just quirky, they're mentally ill fr

If she wasn't before, she definitely is now after having her heart broken by her only human connection she ever had

Some trauma can actually fracture someone's psyche to the point they become certifiably coocoo. Mc is lookin like one of those people 0_0