Boroboro no Elf-san wo Shiawase ni Suru Kusuriuri-san - Ch. 16

[Alx-Jeager115]

I don't say it's bad, but ending with sad memory in Christmas eve, damn

 

[JACGohu]

I think it was a lot of killings, along with the fact that their coup failed, so he feels like it was all for nothing.

Plus he said it himself, he viewed all races with equal value. He lived, they didn't, and he has a hard time processing why they had to die, what more that he performed the deed on many of them himself.

It's a fair bit of character development. I suspected he was a former assassin on the original single-panel version, but author didn't elaborate on it very much. For a moment, I was afraid Giba-sensei was about to make him a former member of the gang that did all that to her. I'm glad that wasn't the case.

 

[Ichigo69]

Maybe I'm too medieval fantasy pilled, because I didn't think having a few political assassination's was that bad lmaooo

Also, "elves" were included in that list of assassinations....

 

[GambierBay]

The cost of fighting for a positive future is often the innocence of those who would have lived entirely different lives had it not been for the time they lived in.
Mr apothecary lived for his higher ideals. Blood may have been spilled by his hands. But they were in service of an absolute good. He is a hero. And it's ok to take an iota of pride in working towards an absolute good.

(Just watch as it turns out they iruda were actually the good guys and I eat my words next chapter)

 

[Blackspace_2]

i think this was a little too out of left field. i get its his trauma and all but he basically went: yeah how you feeling? you wanna go back to your hometown? i killed people, many people

 

[absoluteAquarian]

i think this was a little too out of left field. i get its his trauma and all but he basically went: yeah how you feeling? you wanna go back to your hometown? i killed people, many people

The way I see it, he views himself so poorly that even the smallest bit of gratitude towards him feels undeserved and ends up reminding him of all the terrible things he did in the past.
He knows that he's doing a good deed by helping Reszurre recover, and that she views him as her savior. However, his negative self-esteem makes him think that this is merely a small drop of water in an ocean of sludge.

 

[Nolzi]

Bro decided that she is too happy and started trauma dumping

 

[YamiRi]

Well.. MC.. since this is the world that can abuse and torture Reszurre into that state, your killing can be justified as long as you don't kill her family.