I remember first picking up this manga when there was only 6 chapters out and thinking wow this is pretty unique, as I went on though I couldn’t help but feel this strange feeling, with every chapter we got the more that feeling grew, it wasn’t dread, fear or disgust, the best way I could describe would the worst most painful feeling of melancholy, you want to root for Reiji and hope he get out of the god awful place but it seems that the more tries the deeper he sinks, the better he gets the worse he falls, every time Reiji attempts to or makes some positive change some much worse thing comes to tear him apart leaving him and even emptier husk than he was before, I can’t ever truly describe the feeling this story fills me with but it is a feeling I have being carrying with me for the past 4 years and will continue to do so for the rest of my life, I love this story every chapter always has me hooked from start to finish, it is in my opinion an underrated masterpiece, I fear what will happen to Reiji in the end, I can only hope makes it out of his abyss and finds comfort in a place from which it can never consume him again