Dansei Kyoufushou datta Watashi ga AV Jouyu ni Naru made no Hanashi

[xg2x]

@MoreGenericUsername
Well..
I dont get raped but i grew up in pretty abusive environment,
i don't say my way of dealing with things back then which is fighting fire with fire pretty wise either, and damn sure didn't make the situation much better.
but hey, the abuse stop eventually, and i did felt like i found salvation at that time, by my own hands, so it mean something.
So you see, kids is just inexperienced immature 'human', they're no idiot monkey,
kids can learn and make decision, and ACT based on that, especially in extreme environment.
when everyday is abuse-time and it's been happening for years and no one ever come to help, you'd eventually realized "i don't want this", "why nobody care","i wanted to die"..
but so far, nothing happen here isn't it..? She let that unreasonable things happen, and that is the fact.
Kids being kids, the result wont be pretty, but at least they still should do something, Burn the house, run from home, stab her dad, whatever...
That's Unreasonable for a kid? Yes, obviously, but she grew up in that unreasonable situation, she can't be considered normal children anymore, why would i use normal-happy-innocent kids with flowers on their head as standard ..?
Should she just bear with it? and say "well, you got bad luck, hope you're well now.." post-tragedy? Is that the normal thing to do?

But yeah, of course i get that, i don't see things you did, from perspective of kind hearted people like you, saying pleasant-to-ear sympathetic things to is the the only thing you can do..
Btw, you realized that she's not special rare case or something right? It's pretty common you know, sometimes you just got trash for a parent, Shockingly.
what do you expect from me really?
I shouldn't say cruel things now because it's already happen?
should i pretend to be sad, and say kind things too?
This is my "sympathy".. if that annoy you so much, you shouldn't comment on this, that easy.

Also one thing,
"the ones who should be teaching these things, are the ones who are abusing her"
i expect her to do something about her situation and you said it's unreasonable.
But you, expect the one who abuse her to actually do something about her bad situation? man, you're crazier than me..

 

[heckingheck]

@ xg2x She's an elementary schooler for a huge part of the story. She told her mum and the csa from her brother stopped. She has taken a form of action about her situation. Fight/flight/freeze/fawn = she froze because she wasn't safe, that your response pinged to 'fight' doesn't make it the superior response, whilst some abusers are looking for an easy mark and back off if their target hits back not everyone does, some instead escalate the violence.

"Kids being kids, the result wont be pretty, but at least they still should do something, Burn the house, run from home, stab her dad, whatever...
That's Unreasonable for a kid? Yes, obviously, but she grew up in that unreasonable situation, she can't be considered normal children anymore, why would i use normal-happy-innocent kids with flowers on their head as standard ..?"
...so, she should've ruined her life because that would be the feelgood edgy anime protagonist response thereby creating a new slew of problems in the process? Do I even need to get into the 'Nevada-tan' fiasco of how "oops, life isn't a shounen and stabbing people created a new slew of mental health problems actually" or how frequently homeless women and girls are raped? (spoiler: a lot) Abuse doesn't inherently transform you into a wacky edgelord.

We're only _just_ at the chapters where she with no education or guidance about sexual abuse started talking about it, in her childhood, in a country with a really poor rate of acknowledging child abuse and supporting the victims. There's gender-separated trains because of the rampant molestation issue ffs.

But yeah, of course i get that, i don't see things you did, from perspective of kind hearted people like you, saying pleasant-to-ear sympathetic things to is the the only thing you can do..
Hi, abuse survivor telling you you're full of shit and need to adequately process your own trauma better than vomiting victim-blaming on the first case of a literal teenager girl freezing up and shutting down in response to sexual abuse that you see. I'm gonna guess from your nonsense rhetoric and Edgy pfp that you're still at the idealizing-violent-response-all-the-other-survivors-are-wimps stage, grow up.

You make no allowances for "you didn't handle this perfectly, in my edgy teenager opinion, as a literal child" like ffs could you spew this garbage on a page that isn't literally an autobiography at the least.

idk man im gonna go eat a chocolate instead of watching the comments section for followup, people are gross and can't can it on the literal autobiographies about abuse instead of idk Bad Takes on characters that at least aren't real

 

[blurgh123]

Is anyone working on this?

 

[MoreGenericUsername]

@xg2x

Oh wow I thought you were retarded but I didn't think you were THIS retarded.

>"i don't say my way of dealing with things back then which is fighting fire with fire pretty wise either, and damn sure didn't make the situation much better."

Good because it's not points for realizing that

>"So you see, kids is just inexperienced immature 'human', they're no idiot monkey,
kids can learn and make decision, and ACT based on that, especially in extreme environment.
when everyday is abuse-time and it's been happening for years and no one ever come to help, you'd eventually realized "i don't want this", "why nobody care","i wanted to die".."

No shit sherlock I didn't say kids were brain dead idiots I said they were in experienced how about going back and reading what I said you're assuming a bit too much here and I forgot to mention in my original comment that this is Japan which I might add does not have the best track record for handling things like mental health and kinds of abuse.

>"But yeah, of course i get that, i don't see things you did, from perspective of kind hearted people like you, saying pleasant-to-ear sympathetic things to is the the only thing you can do.."

What? Wtf are you on about? I'm confused when did you come to the conclusion of me having a rosy outlook on life? Im sorry I'm calling you out for your disgusting victim blaming I guess?


>" Btw, you realized that she's not special rare case or something right? It's pretty common you know, sometimes you just got trash for a parent, Shockingly.


Yes, yes I do realize she's not special and the hundreds if not thousands of victims of abuse in the world, I know there are some people that have no business being parents.

>what do you expect from me really?

Nothing you're a stranger on the Internet projecting your issues on a comment section so nothing really I'm just bored


>I shouldn't say cruel things now because it's already happen?

Am I saying to you don't say cruel things, No, I am saying to you stop blaming the victim, projecting your issues in real life and try to cope with your trauma in a more healthier way

>should i pretend to be sad, and say kind things too?

No, since when did I say or imply that I only said its unreasonable to expect something from someone who can't give that something.

>This is my "sympathy"..

Blaming someone for something they had no control over? got it.


>if that annoy you so much, you shouldn't comment on this, that easy.

What if someone said that 1+1=3 and they genuinely believed themselves that the answer is 3. You'd feel the need to correct them right? But hey it's the Internet no one really cares


>Also one thing,
"the ones who should be teaching these things, are the ones who are abusing her"
i expect her to do something about her situation and you said it's unreasonable.
But you, expect the one who abuse her to actually do something about her bad situation? man, you're crazier than me..

Yes I am saying that they should do something because its the responsibility of parents to take care of their child but they're not going to because their horrible parents and I KNOW that. What my point was is that her parents are/is supposed to be acting like decent human beings bu they're not. Maybe I could've worded my statement here better so that's my bad


But in the end your not going to listen to me and your just gonna keep projecting your shit and "its everyone's fault", "Im always right". My advise is get a healthier way to cope with whatevers going on with your life instead of projecting.

 

[qwappa]

Sad that a manga like this has been dropped. I thought this was going to be some edgy manga like 'The Boy's Abyss' but boy was I wrong. Writing about something this traumatic isn't easy but it is very well portrayed and told. As depressing it is, its good that they are sharing their experience. I wish the author the best.

 

[Kyoukahisui]

this shud be in tag : Haram.. fk u friend who suggest me this... why does he like troll me w this kind of manga. first he suggest me boys abyss... now this crappy traumatic ...
guys suggest me any manga that have traumatic scene ... like this...so i can get my revenge on him 🤬

does his brother go to jail? how about his step dad? do they go to jail?!!


for the brother nd her dad... may u go through hellish life now!

 

[newuser.1]

ヨハネ筆・福音書 3:16 AB
[16] 実に神は、一人子ひとりごをさえ惜しまず与えるほどに、世の人間を愛してくれた。 つまり、神の一人子を信じる者が、だれ一人滅びず、永遠の命エターナルライフを得るためだ！！！
https://bible.com/bible/2040/jhn.3.16.AB

 

[newuser.1]

@MoreGenericUsername
Well..
I dont get raped but i grew up in pretty abusive environment,
i don't say my way of dealing with things back then which is fighting fire with fire pretty wise either, and damn sure didn't make the situation much better.
but hey, the abuse stop eventually, and i did felt like i found salvation at that time, by my own hands, so it mean something.
So you see, kids is just inexperienced immature 'human', they're no idiot monkey,
kids can learn and make decision, and ACT based on that, especially in extreme environment.
when everyday is abuse-time and it's been happening for years and no one ever come to help, you'd eventually realized "i don't want this", "why nobody care","i wanted to die"..
but so far, nothing happen here isn't it..? She let that unreasonable things happen, and that is the fact.
Kids being kids, the result wont be pretty, but at least they still should do something, Burn the house, run from home, stab her dad, whatever...
That's Unreasonable for a kid? Yes, obviously, but she grew up in that unreasonable situation, she can't be considered normal children anymore, why would i use normal-happy-innocent kids with flowers on their head as standard ..?
Should she just bear with it? and say "well, you got bad luck, hope you're well now.." post-tragedy? Is that the normal thing to do?

But yeah, of course i get that, i don't see things you did, from perspective of kind hearted people like you, saying pleasant-to-ear sympathetic things to is the the only thing you can do..
Btw, you realized that she's not special rare case or something right? It's pretty common you know, sometimes you just got trash for a parent, Shockingly.
what do you expect from me really?
I shouldn't say cruel things now because it's already happen?
should i pretend to be sad, and say kind things too?
This is my "sympathy".. if that annoy you so much, you shouldn't comment on this, that easy.

Also one thing,
"the ones who should be teaching these things, are the ones who are abusing her"
i expect her to do something about her situation and you said it's unreasonable.
But you, expect the one who abuse her to actually do something about her bad situation? man, you're crazier than me..

 

[vannieee]

i just finished reading this and bawling my eyes out. i understand her struggles so much and it made me understand how much i have truly suffered. i wish nobody had to go through these things 💔

 

[VenomSnake]

Have you even thought about how packed Gotham hospitals are with all the coma cases which Batman keeps delivering every month?
It be like:
"Sigh....another coma patient. Just place him near the vending machine"
"They keep on coming after some jerk sent Batman "Dansei kyoufushou datta watashi ga av jouyu ni naru made no hanashi" !"
"Well! Maybe now Gotham can become a better place when all the child abusers are in comatose"

 

[EvilMana]

this is so depressing i actually cant put it into words, i would not recommend at all to anyone

 

[67User67]

Yea, this sucks, others have also noticed it's ironic she became a porn star after sexual abuse, how would that help her past

Spoiler: Talking

She said it herself, she's envious of others misfortune, probably because of pity, one guy mentioned pity party, I think that's exactly it, other guy mentioned she was insecure of her chest, so becoming a porn star for attention, then making a manga for pity, that teacher that hugged her she wrote was nice but scary, but overall seems to be purely positive
(So that teacher was probably a cause as to her latching onto pity, in an odd way, didn't help, as all she got was a pitying hug, not something that fixes anything)
(Pity is for the past, and some people live in it, not learn from it)

She was likely freezing, out of fight/flight/freeze, as there was no way she could fight, nowhere to flee
Guy that mentioned pity party talked about age of victim glorification, yea, people seem to keep self-diagnosing
(It's likely she self-diagnosed with androphobia, it doesn't make sense as a porn star, it's likely a "That's so crazy, she's so brave" thing)

Her parents were shit, completely awful, like that one guy said, her mother is mostly to blame, both parents had to have chosen each other to have kids, and her mother stuck with her throughout it, so her mother was likely the one to want kids with the father the most, and when she told her mother of the abuse, seems like she did nothing
(Reminds me of a comment "Ever consider most people just aren't supposed to be parents?", yea, there's a lot of shitty people out there, an equal amount of shitty parents)

Here is her wikipedia, someone else linked:
https://ja.wikipedia.org/wiki/野々原なずな
and her instagram: (again someone else linked, it's nothing new)
https://www.instagram.com/nonohara_nazuna

Spoiler: Victim/Pity scarcity mindset

It's victim mentality, and it's not good, it thrives mostly off of pity, and the extra care or attention from it, probably trying to overcompensate for when she had none, a type of scarcity mindset, she's likely ingrained it into her identity, and if you were to try to help her she'd likely be defensive of it, as you'd be approaching a lot of her self-worth, given this was childhood, where you're still literally trying to figure out what life is, she'll have much more difficulty moving on as it's what she grew up to know
(People with victim mentalities are usually a "step before" recovering, before you even start recovering, and in an odd sense, like another guy said, it doesn't take a lot of courage to talk about trauma, if anything they want to for attention and pity, those who are really courageous are the ones recovering and those having recovered (though, recovering it's possibly impossible for them to talk about it because they don't even know how to deal with it))
(She'd be willing to talk about it, she wouldn't be willing to try and fix it (If she did talk about it, she'd do it in a safe way that she can't be directly talked to, which, so happens she made a manga))
(She didn't end off the story with "I'm doing much better now", if anything it started in a horrible spot, more pity, her being a porn star seems selfish, how is that supposed to help any future children that may be abused the same, some guy I think mentioned banning porn because of this, tell that to the porn actress that created this)
(She also did cosplay, if cosplay isn't just for attention I don't know what to tell you)

Her last instagram was of her child 3 years ago, reminds me of another comment in a similar scenario "Life moves on", but, as anyone knows with social media you're only shown what they want you to see, so, it'd be interesting what her home life is like, I'd imagine unaccountability, as that aligns with victim mentality, and for reasons I won't explain, I don't imagine she'd ever love a weak man, so her partner is likely powerful, which can be fine, but higher odds of abuse, likely like her mother
(Like the other guy said, this looks like a pattern repeating)
(I wouldn't put it past her partner having a saviour complex, that, if he deemed her not worth saving anymore, will drop her, which, if she keeps lamenting about her past he'll begin to question how much it really affects, but if her past also doesn't seem to affect her, by her never mentioning it, he'd drop her)
(I also can't imagine her children will receive selfless attention and care from her, likely selfish such as "say you love me", in which her love for them may be conditional in them loving her, so if she begins to doubt their love, she'll retract her love first, which will seem unfair, it is (she has to be the winner of love, but relationships are not competition, healthy ones at least))

I will argue she isn't helping victims by displaying them as purely pitiful, a victim can be a very good or very bad partner, similar to being cheated on, if they're taking the appropriate direction they won't feel vengeful, and want a relationship purely to cheat on the new partner as a form of revenge, replaying traumatic experiences is common to try and gain a sense of control, rape victims do this often with wanting to rape roleplay, so they're able to control the rape, it's sad, but people do it

Not wanting to enter the house when a certain parent is home, or being relieved when they're gone or leave, is very realistic, the yell of not anger or sorrow best I can describe is anguish, frustration

What's the fix to victim mentality? Well, a lot of self-worth is likely placed in it, so find something else, and be ashamed of pity, you might've heard people say "I don't want your pity", it's a sign of a lot of self-respect, sure, they may be hurt, but they know if they value it, maybe again, they'll become a worse version of themself
(You can never fully move on from trauma, but you can try to deprive as much value as you can from it)

That stuff I wrote above isn't concise, but you can pull out what details you want
Edit: Wait did she get back into porn? https://actresseshub.com/japanese_actresses_archive/4400.html compare it to her wikipedia, it looks the same, Nov 8th 2018 first, Jan 17th 2020, and Mar 11th 2025 as of latest, wtf? "Former" what? weird
(New link, no one sent before, so it's on me for bringing attention to it, but like wtf, she's basically always doing porn? She's married with a kid right? well, those were old pictures so maybe things changed... man)