on chapter 31 right now, and i just have to wonder... Why not join them? There's almost nothing left for you ANYWHERE. The girl you were pining after is a piece of shit, cannibal leech. She's using the fact that you love her to escape. You can never go back to society, simply because of all the horrific shit done to your body. If you DO go back, your only life choice is being locked up in a lab somewhere.
But if you joined THEM, you could have a family. A messed up, disgusting, dirty cannibalistic family but family nonetheless. With everything that's happening, they're most likely the only people who will still care for you, if not love you.
edit: just caught up. man this is a shitshow but i fucking LOVE it. totally rooting for ripped mouth girl and the main character. so far, pretty damn good. the only problem is the main character constantly on the first girl's meat. like dude, learn your lesson, she don't want you. she a thot, through and through.