damn i use to do that too, i always thought "i just don't have the time" really i was just scared once they get used to me they wouldn't like me and how im actually am, also due to how my family(also chinese as well) is or just them making me move school again cus i got chance to go to a better school or just somthing just happend. I'm still scared to try making a friend that i can keep with me to this day and im still not sure if i can really ever get attached to anyone but hey, here hoping she can open up to Tong Tong soon and that i can learn to do somthing smiler too.