Houkago no Idol ni wa Himitsu ga Aru - Vol. 5 Ch. 40 - Kuromiya-san and responsibility

[Elfteiroh]

Freaking christ, I hope you went no contact with your sperm donor. Let me guess, was your sperm donor a total narcissist who saw you as a extension of himself? Only mentally unstable people scold their kids for having ASTHMA.

You’re pretty close yeah, I look a LOT like him (we often had arguments about which one of us it was on old photos), and I was bullied like he was when HE was a kid, so he was seeing all the weaknesses he hated in himself in me.
And don’t worry, I gave him chances once I was an adult, but yeah, I haven’t seen/talked to him in 3 years, and last time it was because my partner wanted to at least meet him on Xmas… and agreed with me that once was enough.

 

[AnonymousContributor]

83 is an uh oh but passable 55 is a fuckin F aka total death

 

[colorlesseatstomboys]

You can feel this chapter. That last page being the cherry on top. Delicious.

 

[Sung1906]

What the fuck is this mom??? she's crazy

 

[alpalin]

Look we know his mom actually cares but she is suck at showing it and she is suck at parenting. Comparing siblings and putting that much pressure is too much. There is better way than this surely. This guy is goated for only having this much issues.

 

[Ryan_Irsyd]

man really be like "hmm yes not being compared just means im even more worthless"

thanks for the chapter!!!

tbf, he's overworked and tired so anything out of the ordinary would guarantee a negative thoughts. Been there, but not to the point where I fainted.

 

[Zwamp]

Feel so bad for him. And with the stigma regarding mental health in many asian countries he will be told to suck it up and move on.

He needs his girlfriend to shower him with some warmth and being a shoulder he can lean on.

 

[deathmailrock]

This manga hurt so much to read... My father was like this, anything below 100% was a failure, and I also had to be great at sports (the day I was diagnosed with asthma, I got scolded so much, he punched a hole in a wall in “anger”). In 7th grade I went into burnout after being sent into advanced classes and still being expected to be the best in class...
Usually I would say “I didn’t have a cute idol in my life to help me”, but here I think the author have cleverly shown that he is seeing her status as another source of pressure. If he fail, it won’t be just the expectations on him that will be destroyed, but the expectations on her too…
Sorry for this ranting. This manga hit hard strings for me, and I needed to let it out.
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Ok, actual comment about the chapter: GOSH I hate his family! F*** all this toxic Shit!

Yah, except the mom was actually proud when he got a decent grade... in fact, NONE of her words in this chapter were unreasonable.

He's adding the negative meanings on his own. This is literally what depression does.

Mom is happy he's doing good in school and he's translating it as she's disappointed in him.

Mom: "You did a good job, don't over stress yourself and make sure to clean your room"
Kid: "Oh no, my mom hates me; she thinks I'm worthless"

Do you see the issue? It's not that his mom is abusive, but that he has signs of depression and mental issues.

A lot of our life is more about how we perceive the world than what actually happens. The scary thing about depression is that sometimes, it makes no sense if you understand it...