There's not really a resolution or anything, but this showcases this characters conflict really well, I sympathize with em. Makes me kinda emotional. I'm gonna read more of this author for sure.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person.
I need to be a good person. I need to be a good person. I need to be a good person. I need to be a good person. I need to be a good person. I need to be a good person. I need to be a go̷o̸d̷ ̸p̴e̶r̴s̴o̴n̴. I̷ ̵n̸e̶e̷d̴ ̵t̸o̷ ̴b̶e̴ ̶a̸ ̵g̴o̷o̸d̷ ̸p̴e̶r̴s̴o̴n̴. I̵̲͘ ̶̬͑n̴͎͋e̶͖͗e̷͐̅d̷͐̿ ̷̠̔t̶̰̍ỏ̶̯ ̵̇̇b̴̡͛ė̴͝ ̸̪̾ȧ̸̗ ̸̆̂g̵̬̉o̵͆͐ò̶͓d̴̐̀ ̷̃̎p̷͓͠e̵͐̕r̷͛̈́s̸͆̌o̵̱͐n̷̈ͅ.̷̂̽ ̷Į̷͉̃ ̵̖́̂n̴̞͆͜e̵̲͊͋ĕ̷͉͘d̷̘̉ ̸̗͛t̵͔͚̀o̵̊ͅ ̷̻̅̆b̶̹̋͜e̴̗͐ ̴̟̃â̴͇ ̴̦̈́ġ̸̫͇ǫ̶̰̈́̚ǫ̵̮͂͌d̶̜̈́̏ ̷͈͌p̶̙͆͝e̸̮̒ͅr̷̳͂s̶̘͙̉̈́ơ̵̮n̷͔̈́. Į̷͉̃ ̵̖́̂n̴̞͆͜e̵̲͊͋ĕ̷͉͘d̷̘̉ ̸̗͛t̵͔͚̀o̵̊ͅ ̷̻̅̆b̶̹̋͜e̴̗͐ ̴̟̃â̴͇ ̴̦̈́ġ̸̫͇ǫ̶̰̈́̚ǫ̵̮͂͌d̶̜̈́̏ ̷͈͌p̶̙͆͝e̸̮̒ͅr̷̳͂s̶̘͙̉̈́ơ̵̮n̷͔̈́Į̷͉̃ ̵̖́̂n̴̞͆͜e̵̲͊͋ĕ̷͉͘d̷̘̉ ̸̗͛t̵͔͚̀o̵̊ͅ ̷̻̅̆b̶̹̋͜e̴̗͐ ̴̟̃â̴͇ ̴̦̈́ġ̸̫͇ǫ̶̰̈́̚ǫ̵̮͂͌d̶̜̈́̏ ̷͈͌p̶̙͆͝e̸̮̒ͅr̷̳͂s̶̘͙̉̈́ơ̵̮n̷͔̈́I̵̲͘ ̶̬͑n̴͎͋e̶͖͗e̷͐̅d̷͐̿ ̷̠̔t̶̰̍ỏ̶̯ ̵̇̇b̴̡͛ė̴͝ ̸̪̾ȧ̸̗ ̸̆̂g̵̬̉o̵͆͐ò̶͓d̴̐̀ ̷̃̎p̷͓͠e̵͐̕r̷͛̈́s̸͆̌o̵̱͐n̷̈ͅ.̷̂̽ ̷Í̴̡̨̖̯͎̪̩̲̠̎͐ ̸̗̹̠̖̱͈͂̽̃͋͠ͅͅn̴̯̻̮̟͔̭̖̂̔͛̓͂̿̿̚ë̵̥́̀̃̅̆̇̓̄̋͝ē̸͖̝̱̩̓͋̊̃́̍ͅḓ̸̨̞̖̞̱̣̣̼̩͌̇̓̆ ̶́̃̇̈́͐̂ͅţ̸̛̣̜͕͙͈̜̰̈́̽͊̓̇̂̈́̊́ő̵̞͇̱͑̕ ̸̧̩̩̺͈̺̆̚b̴̡̢̖̱̤͎̟̋̏͗̄͌ę̵̜̮͚͍̈́̊͗̑̅͗̋̚ ̸̩͕̠̱̤̝̫̼̣͂͘a̶͓̲͑̄͝ ̴̧̤̫͍̹̥̓̐ģ̶̞̫͕̪́͗̓̓̽̃́̋͝ȍ̴̡̞͚̠͎̠̯̺̰̖̌ǫ̸̩̺̲̯̝͉̠̼̑̆̒̅͘͠d̴̡̡͇̖̠̊̉̌͋̀̈̀͘ ̷̡̙͔̫͔͎̖̩́̈́͌̏́̏̇͜ṕ̵̠̉̀e̴͇̥͕̩͑̈́r̷͓̖̈̎̓̄͌̇s̶̤̜͔̤͔͑̽ơ̴̛̘̮̳̝̜͚͔̏̈͆̊̑̽̽͠ṉ̸̨͎͑̏͆͜͠ͅ