Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 13.5 - Endless Tears of Melancholy

[MangaDex]

 

[essensue]

Don't worry, some aren't laughing. And many are like, big mad.
It's totally gonna be Ayami, innit...

 

[JoJoBar]

I AM NOT GIVING YOU ANY PITY! STOP GETTING YOURSELF SOAKED IN RAIN FOR DRAMATIC EFFECTS, GO DANCE WITH FROGS INSTEAD MAYBE THAT'LL BE EQUAL TO A REAL REDEMPTION ARC

 

[jetslose]

I love popping in for my daily brainlet seethe about the chapter release.

 

[KiB56]

I understand she had a rough childhood, but it doesn't help that she's overall not a good person. Having a shitty childhood doesn't justify being a shitty person. Also, you can't say God isn't fair when you left him in the first place. You can't want someone when just because someone else wants them. Their attempts to make her seem tragic always comes down as some sort of parody of an edgy person, at least to me.

 

[ActuallyArma]

As feelsbad as it may be, it's less feels bad since she's the one who ghosted him in the end so, I mean...

We're just a few days away from returning to the original timeline

Thank fuck

 

[b-no]

Oh. Look a walking dumpster of traumas.

 

[volodyuka]

I bet you could build a salt mine (or a couple) on top of all the comments all the way back from "the twist"

(some ppl need to either chill (for fucking real) or stop hate reading, as you were clearly and easily baited)

 

[essensue]

Oh. Look a walking dumpster of traumas.

A trauma dumpster that's having a bit of a weep over its favorite raccoon and possum doing an imaginary Lady and the Tramp over its contents.

 

[Ochrolv]

Oh ok guess the extras are now going back to fuel drama & away from the lighthearted themes. Man I was hoping for more extras of the Hikari side of things. I did remember reading this specific extra in particular should've been included as a main chapter for further context & I somewhat agree but hey I'm not Maruto sensei (nor would I want to be). Thanks for the translations.

 

[Mangamoz]

This is childlishly edgy, not smart edgy.

 

[epicfail48]

The audacity of this bitch to complain about fairness when literally everything she's complaining about is entirely her own damn fault...

 

[Dingo777]

Ah, down in the pouring rain like a stray bitch deserves

 

[ProbablyWill]

I'm sorry, am I suppose to feel bad for a horrible person like her?

 

[Robinisback]

Bruh, miss me with that bullshit. I wouldn't even share her a umbrella.

 

[nogoodsumbeach]

Dawg, it never ceases to amaze me how hated ayami is in these comment section lmao. Understandable but still very funny in some way lol

 

[halerain]

This is childlishly edgy, not smart edgy.

Makes sense, considering they're like 15 or something.

 

[Mangamoz]

Makes sense, considering they're like 15 or something.

The grown ass man writing this thinking it is deep isn't 15.

 

[halerain]

The grown ass man writing this thinking it is deep isn't 15.

Did Maruto say he thinks this flashback is deep or something? I don't follow his Twitter (or Twitter at all), so have no idea what he has posted.

 

[essensue]

I understand she had a rough childhood, but it doesn't help that she's overall not a good person. Having a shitty childhood doesn't justify being a shitty person. Also, you can't say God isn't fair when you left him in the first place. You can't want someone when just because someone else wants them. Their attempts to make her seem tragic always comes down as some sort of parody of an edgy person, at least to me.

I don't think Ayami's arguing she's a good person, or even that she's not a bad person. She's not jealous of Hikari for having a shot with Yuu now, she's torn up because she's learned that the perfect angel who got through her tough shell is also the ghost she could never catch up to in Yuu's heart.

Spoiler: Just more explanation:

She doesn't want him back because Hikari has a crush on him, she never stopped loving him. She ghosted him because in her head it would be easier for him that way and he could move on with his dumb, happy, simple, pure life without her. She was devastated when she turned her phone back on and he hadn't. And the stated reason for even leaving him at all was to take care of her insane, suicidal, hospitalized mother, who she feels responsible for making. The unstated and implied reasoning further being as a kind of ritual self-flagellation/self-isolation over that guilt and her sense of being too tainted a soul to stand by him and bring him down when he was already obsessed with (who turned out to be) Hikari.

Yeah, it's dumb, but it's absolutely miserable, depressed teen logic that checks out.

The thing I assume she means isn't fair isn't "I can't be with him," or "she can," it's that a shameful and heart-rending (for her) and traumatic memory in her time with Yuu can no longer stay buried and will soon come bursting back into her life. When? Dunno. Soon. Even if she had made peace with that, it's also now unavoidable for her that through very unlucky chance, some really shitty things she did in the past have the potential NOW to badly hurt her best friend, after same friend helped her reform from being as much of a self-destructive jerk.

And yeah, the only two people she's felt really close to are destined to be together, in her mind, and when they finally hook up, she's going to be all alone again at best, and hated by them at worst. The fact that karma's come a-knockin' isn't unfair, but to Ayami, the punishment feels a little disproportionate.

Actual spoiler theory:
Little does she know that it isn't going to play out like that at all, and when she accidentally meets up with Yuu again after trying to avoid him at the festival, he isn't mad but instead tells her he's never for a minute stopped loving her since they separated, hence the ol' slap slap kiss kiss.

edit: ugh, it would make sense if she hit him because he kissed her first, then her willpower crumbled.

But yeah, Ayami probably agrees about the parody, thing. And also that she sucks and you don't have to like her, lol.