Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 38 - Happy End

[MangaDex]

 

[Liver]

hikari is so right for that

 

[Alzu]

Yuu can still win. We have to believe in the plan.

 

[Drakeon995]

yeah, aleast be clear about Yami situation.

 

[stylo_]

gg

 

[kleinsf]

Boom, and he's dead

 

[YoshMate1209]

Yeah, saw that coming. No way she was going let that kiss slide.

 

[Qwertybluefist]

nah cuz thats valid as fuck and whatever the guy is saying is 10/10 ragebait

 

[jonnywarlock]

Oh boy, here we fucking go...

 

[Ochrolv]

That last page made me laugh calling him a "lier". Okay real talk, I am proud that Hikari is sticking up for herself & not being passive about it. That seed doubt is within her & until that is resolved, there is no way she'll be happy with the relationship. Yuu really needs to set the record straight & communicate with Hikari on what is going on with Yami. I do get his reasoning that confessing early on could hurt their relationship & make things awkward because I've seen that happen IRL.
Her friends are really witnessing a front row seat of drama that they themselves are all confused on what is going on. Thanks for the translations.

Edit: The last page has been fixed.

 

[middle-the-nerd]

No fucking way

I totally haven't seen any of this

 

[UnluckyGrape]

Liers

Bruh. Its the last page too, damn near me took me out with it

 

[shadowsito]

Lmao I didn't notice the score is in 6.11 already

 

[Litreara]

First, for those who aren't aware, the author accidentally leaked the chapter of the novel last week. Here's an MTL of the chapter:

Spoiler: Chapter 38

Chapter 38: It's a Little Late, but About My Childhood Friend...

A Saturday in late September.
A day I would never forget.

Yuu: "I... I've liked you for a long time, Hikari!"

Behind the stage in the gymnasium.
Two of my friends are hiding in the shadows, peeking out and silently freaking out in excitement.
And in front of me, standing stiff as a board, face beet red, my childhood friend struggles to force out his words.

Yuu: "It's true... since middle school... no, since we first became friends."

It was unmistakably my “childhood friend Ta-kun” that I knew.

A boy who was a little unreliable, shy, pure, and kind.
And now, he was squeezing out every last bit of courage he had to say these words to me.
More than the words themselves, it was his attitude that made it so incredibly convincing.

Yuu: "I'm not lying... I’ve never been able to give up."

It was exactly how I had always imagined it, ever since I first started noticing him—
"If Ta-kun ever confessed to me, I bet it would feel just like this."

Hikari: "Since... a long time ago?"
Yuu: "Since a long time ago."

Finally, I managed to find my voice.
But... it still wasn’t my answer to his confession.

Hikari: "Then, then... why did you always act like everything was normal...?"
Yuu:"Well... I was desperately trying to hold it back."
Hikari: "Why did you need to hold it back?"
Yuu:"Because we were close..."

I stood on tiptoe to get closer to his face, pouting as I pressed him for answers.

I mean, this confession was way overdue. Seriously, only now?
And even then, only after everyone else basically set the stage for him? Talk about being a massive chicken!

Yuu: "B-but if I had been all obvious about how much I liked you... and you didn’t feel the same way, the atmosphere would’ve gotten super awkward, right?"
Hikari: "Ugh..."
Yuu: "And then if you stopped coming around to my place... if we started drifting apart... I couldn’t handle that."

Hikari: "Wait, hold on a sec..."

When I was desperately pretending to act normal...
he was doing the exact same thing?

Hikari: "You thought I wasn’t thinking about you at all, Ta-kun?"
Yuu: "I didn’t think it was nothing, but... I wasn’t sure if it was that kind of feeling."
Hikari: "Come on! Ta-kun, seriously, you have no confidence!"
Yuu: "But it’s you, Hikari! Do you really think I'm good enough for you!?"
Hikari: "I do!"
Yuu: "That’s just you being mistaken! No one knows how amazing you are better than I do!"

I feel like a boomerang just keeps smacking me right in the head.
What is with this coward!
It’s so painful, like watching all my own embarrassing behavior from the past six months!

Hikari: "But, but! Lately I’ve been super obvious about how much I liked you, haven’t I?!"
Yuu: "How was I supposed to believe that! You’re naturally way too close to people! You’ve made me think the wrong thing so many times before!"
Hikari: "That's so mean!"

Seriously, Ta-kun...
I basically just confessed to you right now!
Why can’t you realize that!?

Yuu: "That's why I kept being so careful, watching for the right moment..."

You're telling me... you were that serious about confessing?

Yuu: "I wanted to wait until I was 100% sure... and then finally, with everything lined up, I could do it."

You're saying... my feelings mattered that much to you?

Hikari: "...Did you reach 100%?"
Yuu: "I’m not sure, but..."
Hikari: "But?"
Yuu: "But today... today, I just felt like I had to tell you."

Hikari: 'Why did you think it had to be today?'

I desperately held back the words that had been slipping out nonstop until now.

I pressed my lips tightly together, holding everything back.
One second, two seconds, three seconds...

Then, keeping that pressure, I forced the corners of my mouth up into a big smile.

Hikari: "So... that's how it is... huh..."

Still standing on tiptoe, right in front of his face,
I showed him a beaming smile.

Along with all the overwhelming feelings inside me.

Hikari: "I'm really, really happy, Ta-kun."
Yuu: "...!"

Those were the honest words from the bottom of my heart—no lies, no exaggeration.

I was happy. Really, truly happy.

That he had been trapped in the same dilemma as me.
That he had been carrying the same feelings as me.
That he had been hiding the same feelings as me.

And that today, everything finally been resolved.

Hikari: "I love you too... I really, really love you!"
Yuu: "Hikari..."

...Everything?

Hikari: "Maybe... no, I'm sure I realized it after you did..."

No, it’s everything.
Everything has been resolved.

Hikari: "But my feelings now are the same as yours... no, even stronger than yours."
Yuu: "That's not true... I've been in love with you for ten years!"

Honestly, I was supposed to be the one to confess first.
The future I'd been dreaming of for so long was now right here in front of me.
How could I not accept such a wonderful, miraculous accident?

Hikari: "In other words, right now, I love you more than ten times as much as you love me!"
Yuu: "There's no way that's possible..."

Yeah...
I'm sure that "thing earlier" was just a small misunderstanding.

Something tiny.

If I don't say anything, this is a happy ending...

"Heh..."
"Haha..."

So I’ll laugh.
And I’ll accept it.
Accept his feelings.

Hikari: "It doesn’t even matter, really."
Yuu: "Yeah... you're right."
Hikari: "..."

He embraced my pure feelings.

His arms wrapped around my back, holding me close.
So I wrapped my arms around his back too, grasping at the empty air above.

Yuu: "Hikari..."
Hikari: "Yeah..."

He looked deep into my eyes.
And before I could get swallowed up in his gaze, I closed mine.

It’s okay. I won’t ask anymore. I won’t look. I won’t say anything.
Because this is for being together with the person I love more than anything.

A little compromise...
should be acceptable, right?

Hikari: "...!"

Compromise?

Why do I have to compromise...
with Ta-kun?

With the first person I ever loved,
the person I love the most...
why should I ever have to compromise?

Hikari: "———!"
Yuu: "Whoa...!"

A loud crash echoed backstage.
It was because he knocked over some equipment when he fell backward onto his butt.

...No, that's not exactly right.
Because the one who pushed him was...

It was me.

Yuu: "Hi... Hikari...!"

Still sprawled on the ground, he looked up at me.
His gaze, his expression—
they said it all.

...He knew.
He knew why I did it.

Hikari: "I love you, Ta-kun! I really love you!"

Yes, it was a Saturday in late September.
A day I would never forget—
and a day I never wanted to remember.

Hikari: "But! But! I hate liars!"

Shirasaka Hikari, sixteen years old...

I just rejected my childhood friend.
...At this late stage.

...

...

...

...

I see... I knew it.

I did think Hikari was acting a little differently than usual.

She saw it.
She found out about that...

I didn’t lie.
I’ve loved Hikari, for so long, ever since way back.

But still, there’s no denying it—
today, I was the worst.

Takamura Yuu, sixteen years old...

Today, I experienced my fourth heartbreak.
And my third heartbreak with the same girl—Hikari.

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Second, from the author on X:

38話更新しました（漫画版のタイトル鬼畜過ぎませんかよむさん？）。今回、小説版だけ少し夕のモノローグが入っているのですが、だからって次の39話が夕視点になるかといえばそんなことはありません。そもそもこの後、もっと語るべき人がいるじゃないですか、ねぇ？ #さらなみ

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Chapter 38 has been updated (Isn't the manga version's title way too brutal, Yom-san?). This time, only the novel version has a bit of Yuu's monologue, but that doesn't mean the next Chapter 39 will be from Yuu's perspective or anything. I mean, after this, there's someone else who should be talking more, right? #Saranami

So no Yuu POV—at least not in the next chapter. That one should be from Yami's perspective. Hopefully, we’ll finally get to see what happened when she and Yuu met at the school.

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Third, since the chapter leaked last week, I’ve had time to write down my thoughts on the situation:

Yuu’s Lack of Honesty Was a Conscious Choice, and His Reasons Aren’t That Important

• He knew Yami could be at the school.
• He chose not to be honest with Hikari, even though he had multiple chances.
• He lied about his phone dying and Hikari caught it immediately.
• He still confessed after all this, fully aware he was hiding things from her.

This wasn’t a mistake — it was deception by omission. He had every opportunity to be honest and chose not to. I get it — he has his issues, and the situation is complicated. But at the end of the day, intent doesn't erase impact.

Why Forgiveness Feels Impossible (And Might Stay That Way)

Yuu’s actions create a triple betrayal for Hikari:

• The Kiss: Witnessing Yami kiss Yuu is a soul-crushing moment.
• The Lie: Yuu’s flimsy excuse about his phone compounds the hurt, making it clear he’s hiding things.
• The Hidden Past: The fact that Yuu's ex-girlfriend goes to the same school as her—and he never told Hikari—undermines years of trust.

Hikari’s rejection isn’t just anger. Her rejection comes from a place of deep emotional pain. She was prepared to confess her feelings, to open her heart, and in return, she witnessed a moment that shattered her world. She tried to force herself to accept his confession, but her emotions screamed "This isn’t right."

Why Yuu’s Confession May Feel Hollow to Hikari

• “I’ve liked you for 10 years” clashes with “You’re hiding things from me and kissed my ‘best friend.’”
• His words don’t match his actions. If he truly loved her for so long, why the secrecy? Why not just be honest?

For someone like Hikari, trust is everything. Yuu didn’t just break it—he shattered it in the moment she was most vulnerable (her planned confession).

Could Yuu Ever Be Forgiven? Realistically, It’s Unlikely

• The Foundation Is Already Cracked: Yuu chose to hide his past, meaning their childhood friend bond was never fully honest. Hikari might wonder: What else hasn’t he told me?
• Yuu’s Lack of Honesty Shows He Doesn’t Trust Her: If Yuu couldn’t be honest after multiple opportunities, how could Hikari ever trust him in the future?
• Yami’s Role Makes It Messier: This isn’t just about Yuu; Hikari’s “best friend” betrayed her too. Even if Yuu tries to fix things, Yami’s presence will always haunt their dynamic.

Even if Yuu were to explain everything now, it wouldn’t undo what happened. He let Hikari walk into a painful situation blind, lied to her face afterward, and made his confession without giving her the full picture. Hikari’s pain came not only from the betrayal itself, but from being denied the agency to make informed choices. That’s a deep wound, and it may never fully heal.

The Possible Path to Forgiveness (If It Exists)

For Hikari to even consider forgiving him, Yuu would need to:

• Be fully transparent—no excuses, no omissions—about his past and his lack of honesty.
• Prove he’s changed—not just apologize, but show through actions that he won’t hide things again.
• Give Hikari space—if reconciliation ever happens, it has to be her choice, in her own time.

But even then? The trust is gone. And what’s the value of honesty after the fact? Close to none. Some wounds don’t heal, especially when the betrayal involves multiple layers of secrets and lies.

My Verdict: Yuu Doesn’t Deserve Forgiveness

Yuu’s actions weren’t just small mistakes—they were a chain of deliberate deceptions that led to Hikari’s heartbreak at the worst possible moment. He broke her trust, ignored her emotional well-being, and acted only when it served him.

Yuu may have had fears, insecurities, or even reasons he thought were justified—but none of that changes the fact that he broke her trust. And without trust, even the most heartfelt love can fall apart. Forgiveness isn’t owed just because someone feels regret. Yuu had every chance to do right by Hikari and chose not to. He doesn’t deserve her forgiveness.

Disclaimer

Yuu bros, before you jump in to defend him, I want you to think about this: impact > intent.

Thanks for the chapter!

 

[Brucenorris007]

Good for her; don't need self-delusion to make this a bigger mess. Get it all out.

Like I said, there's no realistic way of writing a happy ending that feels natural without a time skip, but at least Hikari can have some closure.

 

[Trollicorn]

Hell yeah

 

[Knerro]

Hm

 

[Itsn]

HURT ME MORE, SNAKE

 

[DragonsNDungeons]

You go Hikari!
6.11 Will it go up or down?!

 

[casgar]

Happy? where the fuck is my happy author WHERE IS IT