Aww, it's nice to see how others go through the realization.
In my case it was three days and nights of everything that I thought I knew about myself crumbling, agonizing about what this means and oh my god what am I going to do and is this really how it's going to be or am I just faking it or is there a different thing that can explain this but also how did I never notice it all my life oh my god if only someone told me earlier it's too late it's not too late how could this be real how is this even possible why is this even a thing why me ahhhh
A "crash course" in realization, if you will.
