I also want a relationship, but im too scared to get closer and them getting disappointed in the real me. I have social anxiety, texting and speaking in real life are not the same. I dont want them to know that im socially awkward in real life so I pushed them away. She asked me to sit next to her in class and i made a lame excused to sat at the back away from her, then she lost interest in me and doesn't respond to my text anymore. Happens every single fcking time im so tired of it