I succeed to read the sensored parts, it's almost accurate :
I had an older brother. My older brother was very good-looking and always excelled in his studies. He was the best in everything he did.
Everyone loved my older brother. He was always the center of attention.
That older brother, was my enemy.
This thing is why. My older brother showed interest in me, The people I liked, Everyone, everyone, scribble (?)
My brother was always the center of attention. That was a given fact. So I was always in my brother's shadow. Don't hold your brother back. Don't offend your brother. Don't make your brother mad. So I always, always acted considerately towards him.
I lived for my brother's sake. I was my brother's marionette.
I started living alone when I became a high school student. 'I'll only be a hindrance to my older brother if I stayed by his side'. I told my parents that so they wouldn't disagree with my decision. However, my brother visited my high school. He came to my house where I lived alone. There, nobody was watching. I need to become more distant from my brother.
After becoming a university student, I stayed away from my brother. I'd purposely made myself hard to track. I used whatever I could to make sure that I stayed hidden. That way, I could be happy, even if just for a little while. For the first time in my life, I can be myself. Then, on a seemingly normal day, my fate arrived out of the blue.
I thought I had changed. 'Even if my brother', appeared, on that fated day, I wouldn't act like how I used to. I can just rebel against my brother.
That's what I had thought. But when I saw my brother, I returned back to my old ways. Everything was my fault. I acted like an impatient fool. Iwas my fault that I hurried to turn away. [...]