I live a life of an ordenary person, a regretably plain and boring life.
A life that is so plain you couldnt even label me a person and points, Im probably akin to be background noise.
But even so I have things I yearn for, things that I wish for, that I want.
But might never get.
I want a wife (or even just a dog) to welcome me home when I get back from work late at night, before I collapse of exsaustion and cry my lonly self to sleep.
I regret never having told the woman I loved about my feelings for her, before she got together with another guy that I knew and even supported because friends do that(?).
I live alone, in a semi tuna box style appartment, the rent is cheap (no pets allowed) and I earn enough to get me through a month with a little to spare for a vaccation maybe once a year.
I no office-drone, construction-monkey or factory-slave, Im a simple guy fixing machines and doing maintenance.
I often wish to just meet another human being that understands me, the simple joys of knowing someone is there with you, no need for luxerys or high-end electronics.
(To be honest I own a pretty beefy Gaming-Rig becides the point, I dont have much time to use it any way.)
Just a simple life of appreciation for what you have, what you have earned your self.
Money may buy you happines in the short run, but is it truely happiness if it doesent last?
But also does it matter in this modern age? Will my life haven been worth it?
I know my retirement, if I even get there will be quite meager.
Will I even have children, or furthere see my grand children?
I know my parents werent able to see me grow up, bless them with all the faults they may had.
My sister dosent care, I dont know if she is stronger than me or just simply cold.
Back to the point, if I even have to make one, I want to live my life like Im alive.
Yeah I will stop myself now before I monologue to much.