There is, in this world, nary a string of words that can truly describe that which I've experienced here in the forums today.
A monolith of the most... thought-provoking ideas one has ever encountered. Senseless gibberish at first and now I stand here and... comprehend it. Je compris! Je peux parler un peu de français, moi chérie, mais je suis trés horrible en le écrit. Je peux lire meilleur, trust me (also, I dont know any other fond name in french besides chérie, so you're stuck with that for now hahah). I very much enjoy feeling shivers and oh by the lords how many you've made me experience. Wow, just wow. I- I am so shocked- in a good way - and proud that I now understand it.
Chat, it all makes sense, chat.
I know myself to be at the top of the popular dunning-kruger effect, there must be something I haven't quite come to grips with yet. Such as the limit of nature's processing power. But for just a few moments I felt pure ecstasy. The amount of dopamine that was released in my brain more than makes up the general lack of serotonin I often feel (Not clinical, merely poetical).
The happiest I've ever felt at once before were 15 minutes of me spouting insane gibberish in english, much to the chagrin of my neighbors. Today? Today was a much more refined, subtle, gentle experience, and as such, it feels as though its lasting effect will be longer. Only time will verify, but this does truly make me want to do so much, to study so much. It makes me want to connect deeply with this world.
I realize I haven't commented on anything, but rather stated my joy over and over. I'll keep it that way. There's many arguments floating around my head right now, many things I could say, but I'll let the dust settle before displaying them.
Thank you, jecrois.