I have a self-imposed quota on atleast 1 a week F2F meeting but I regularly exceed that because she wants to.
In case you're not having fun when you go the extra way for her, I think you should tell her to try and settle the issue if it's possible.
... Honestly, fair strategy; I remember I have slept on her laps and her bed before and it was enjoyable~
Ahhh I think it's because I no longer feel safe to sleep around her because I don't trust her enough anymore to show my insecurities or true thoughts rather than good boyfriend personas. I think when I've wanted to show more of what I actually think; I've had to apologise for it and she isn't as discerning or empathetic as she thinks it is, so it's been really easy just for me to drop the topics and give up or just be low mood but still have her blissfully unaware which makes me sad that she isn't someone that I feel I could trust.
Honestly, I don't think I'm the best person to give you advice on your particular situation, but I'm pretty confident about what I would personally do if I were in your stead.
If I can't be open with the other person and voice my feelings, I'll definitely confront them and tell them it's hurting me. No way I'll not talk it out. If the person isn't trying to actually meet me halfway, then I'll have to announce to them that I'll be cutting ties, for sure. And if by doing so they aren't understanding and throw a fit, then it's just a goodbye from me, no going back.
But I would adjust how I do everything I said I would, depending on the parameters of the situation. Maybe in your case it's better to straight up not confront the person and directly announce the break-up? I wouldn't know.
I suggest you talk it over with your trusted ones before you make your decision, as they would bring a different hindsight on your situation. Since you're directly involved in the relationship with your gf and they're not, they should be less affected by the situation than you should be, so they should be able to take more level-headed decisions.
It should give you more confidence to settle things that way.
At the end of the day, the choice is yours. Just act once you're confident enough your decision is the right one; that's my advice for you.
Imo, if you can't express yourself in the relationship and that makes you feel bad, then it's definitely a major issue that should get treated immediately; there's no escaping it.
How you do it is up to you, though. At least I gave you some leads on how if you're really lost.
