@jwchibi
Eeeh, I think that’s slightly off, Helt isn’t the cause of her pain, yes, he’s one of the many people in her life that has brought her pain. But ultimately what is really killing her, is Guilt.
Guilt towards the citizens whom had been hurt by her family, guilt for being the only one alive, guilt for still being on the side of people who did terrible things, guilt for living happily in ignorance and guilt for having Helt bear the consequences.
I’m sure there are many other complex emotions weighing her down, such as hatred and sadness etc.
But ultimately, she doesn’t really hate Helt, and more than anything, Helt is a sort of symbol for all that has happened to her, as her realisation and downfall was trigger by him, he was her turning point.
Therefore, more than anything, she needs His forgiveness to move on.