Tokubetsu na Chuutohanpa - Ch. 48 - Hollow victory.

[Dingo777]

I mean, great for her for passing. But seems like a lot of time passed with them apart and she hasnt thought about their future at all, so whats the point of meeting Misono now?

Asuna has known what she wants from the beginning, she wants to be in a relationship with Misano. Misano’s the one who’s been keeping them vague.

 

[crate90]

It's still funny that, of the two, she's struggled the most. It's like the dog that caught the car but doesn't know what to do with it. She never really thought through the circumstances of a gay relationship and what it might require in their setting, and it shows. I'm glad she was introspective this chapter and recognized her issues.

Now she has to hope it's not too late. Kudos to Misono for reaching out and wishing her luck despite their separation—it shows she still cares. She's always doing thoughtful things like that, so it's not surprising. I wonder why she hasn't responded, but I guess we'll see. Maybe she's also busy or needs more time.

Thanks for the chapter and good luck.

Let's hope Asuna trusts Misono now or else

 

[deathpigeon]

I mean, great for her for passing. But seems like a lot of time passed with them apart and she hasnt thought about their future at all, so whats the point of meeting Misono now?

surely the time that's passed isn't because asuna hasn't been thinking of the future but because she's found it difficult to approach misono without some additional reason.

 

[FreezeBlue]

like, this has been a yuri of all drama, and specifically the drama inherent to heteronormativity. if you want to read a yuri without that, then just read a different yuri because this one has always been this.

No I'm actually fine with that kind of drama
But the only thing that I tired of is that the repeated same drama with no character development and any progress at all!!
And it's getting worse with the time has passed, Misono texted her and Asuna reply and no read or reply from her at all, which is just going to make her cornered even more!!!
Sorry my friend but it's just... Damn

 

[Weebshit5149]

I imagine that we are going to have new drama, either Misano had something happen to her while they weren't talking OR she wanted to be "normal" again and is cheating with a guy.

I doubt shes "cheating" with a guy, shes been shown to be way more comfortable with who she is as a person since coming out and ending things with the first guy, shes not open about her preferences to the public but not everyone needs to be in the first place. If anything I can see her holding back a bit longer until asuna can figure her own self image and preferences out on her own cause that's the only way things end healthily n happily

 

[Weebshit5149]

At this point Asuna has tried several things to make herself feel more assured in their relationship (including crossdressing), and Misano has shot them down and offered nothing in return except words. People keep saying Misano is the only one who communicates but ALL she’s done to this point is talk.

Asuna can't rely on Misono to magic wand all her self image and sexuality issues away. That's shit she needs to work through on her own way before she can ask some one else to fix. How is misono supposed to cater to some one who doesn't know what they actually want or need that's like expecting a waiter to know your order even though you haven't looked through the menu at all

 

[Weebshit5149]

Your girlfriend, who to this point has shown 0 signs she's ever willing to take your relationship beyond anything more than a dirty secret, tells you she needs some space RIGHT BEFORE college exams and then hard ghosts you immediately after?

Sorry hun, it's not a question of "if" at this point it's a question of "who". She's either going to move on to another guy, or a girl who's more willing to let things stay secret because there is no way she's got the nerve to be out in college with you. This is assuming she hasn't already.

I can't read Japanese but a quick peak at the raw for next chapter clinches it for me. At this point best we can hope for is a flash forward where they meet again in college and hopefully Asuna's able to move on by then and be with someone who actually wants a relationship with her.

I think I you've missed a few things here in the story, their have been multiple chapters where both characters openly talked about their ideal future together and what they can and will do to make that happen, so I'm not sure how your getting a "dirty secret" vibe from that, the college exams you brought up were part of that plan you might have missed a few ch.s

 

[SrNevik]

I think I you've missed a few things here in the story, their have been multiple chapters where both characters openly talked about their ideal future together and what they can and will do to make that happen, so I'm not sure how your getting a "dirty secret" vibe from that, the college exams you brought up were part of that plan you might have missed a few ch.s

I feel like they've forgotten the earlier chapters of the series honestly. Otherwise I'm not sure where these opinions about Misono stem from.

Please, at least reread chapter 23 to freshen up about Misono's plans and the whole reason the two of them are applying to colleges in the same area and planning to live together in the first place. Also the reason Asuna's grades have improved and the reason the test mentioned in this chapter matters. That's all from Misono's work based on her goals with Asuna.

That one chapter rejects nearly everything that commenter you replied to said, and I can't imagine they remembered it before they responded or else I'd be more confused.

The idea that she's not doing anything, is "just talk" or isn't serious about their relationship is wild, considering how much the text says the opposite.

It feels like mental gymnastics and nitpicking Misono to avoid discussing the most obvious important issues which have been Asuna's lack of communication and rampant anxiety stemming from her naivety. I'm glad at least Asuna herself understands the problem though.

 

[Dingo777]

I think I you've missed a few things here in the story, their have been multiple chapters where both characters openly talked about their ideal future together and what they can and will do to make that happen, so I'm not sure how your getting a "dirty secret" vibe from that, the college exams you brought up were part of that plan you might have missed a few ch.s

I’m just saying since then I don’t really feel like she’s shown that at all. Honestly I’m currently under the assumption she changed her college choice. Like I said, she says a lot but I don’t feel like she’s done anything more than lip service and that’s why Asuna is spiraling. When push comes to shove I have 0 confidence that Misano will do anything other than what’s “normal”. Honestly I’d LOVE to be proven wrong, but Misano hasn’t really proven herself capable of taking that leap IMO.

 

[Hyacyon]

In my teen years, I would've just said "but love conquers allllllllll"

but now, I personally think there's a bit of foundational incompatibility at play-- Misono has big reservations about coming out publicly, and Asuna not only doesn't have the same issue, she actively seeks and desires to display her affection openly.

Like, if it's not now, it's going to show up another time for when this topic arises again. The issue isn't even exclusive to just them-- this is and was a big issue for a lot of same-sex couples in conservative societies/families.

Honestly can't really see a way forward without

1) Someone compromising heavily

2) They move to the outskirts outskirts / a different country


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To add to the poster above me:

I agree with your assessment that Misono is all talk lmao. She's def loves and values Asuna, but she def prioritizes herself and her own self preservation first (which in her case is flying under the radar as a normal person).

Like, she's pretty self serving-- personally I think people who cheat, regardless of the situation etc, are by definition self serving first. Compassion and consideration would be if they broke up properly beforehand.

 

[eightrooks]

Not going to have 49 up today (06/12), I'm afraid, since I spent most of the past week and a bit in and out of hospital and recovering, I've only just started back up with my half-assed scanlations and this series is no longer my first priority. I will still keep going, if nobody else steps in, but it'll be a few more days at least.

(Hospital was just a minor op, FWIW, and I'm nearly over it, but it needed a fair few "...so how are you getting on?" checkups afterwards and played absolute hell with my sleep patterns, so I was definitely not at my best. Anyway.)

 

[Dingo777]

Not going to have 49 up today (06/12), I'm afraid, since I spent most of the past week and a bit in and out of hospital and recovering, I've only just started back up with my half-assed scanlations and this series is no longer my first priority. I will still keep going, if nobody else steps in, but it'll be a few more days at least.

(Hospital was just a minor op, FWIW, and I'm nearly over it, but it needed a fair few "...so how are you getting on?" checkups afterwards and played absolute hell with my sleep patterns, so I was definitely not at my best. Anyway.)

Heartbreaking but understandable. GWS

 

[vixawi1793]

Not going to have 49 up today (06/12), I'm afraid, since I spent most of the past week and a bit in and out of hospital and recovering, I've only just started back up with my half-assed scanlations and this series is no longer my first priority. I will still keep going, if nobody else steps in, but it'll be a few more days at least.

(Hospital was just a minor op, FWIW, and I'm nearly over it, but it needed a fair few "...so how are you getting on?" checkups afterwards and played absolute hell with my sleep patterns, so I was definitely not at my best. Anyway.)

Hope you get better soon!

Was busy with life so I wasn't able to sit down and read much until now. I was pleasantly surprised how many had been translated because you release weekly. Just wanna say my thanks to that, really appreciate your effort.

 

[eightrooks]

#49 pretty much done, FWIW, so I'll sit on it to make sure I'm happy with it and then stick it up along with my other uploads tomorrow. Not to get anybody's hopes up too high but just to confirm I haven't forgotten/given up on it just yet. (I admit I partly just want the very slight kick of thinking "Damn, I managed to catch up with something that's still ongoing". <_< )

 

[KureyOn]

this is really a rollercoaster, just make up next chap pls

 

[TheLostLight]

Kinda late to the party, but I think the common interpretation of "Asuna wants to come out and Natsuki wants to remain hidden" is a bit off.

I think Asuna wants to stay closeted just as much, if not even more than Natsuki. Look at how much she panics when the topic comes up with her two gyaru friends. Or how Kyouko and Hayama had to practically wring it out of her. And most importantly, even when Asuna was upset about Natsuki denying they were in a relationship to her classmate, Asuna admits multiple times that she would've answered in the exact same way in that scenario.

Meanwhile, Natsuki straight up says to Kyouko, "I'mma make Asuna scream in bed" lmao. Natsuki is the one who's actually put thought into their future and relationship, and was the one to bring up the topic of eventually coming out to their friends and parents and sounds like she fully intended to when it made sense to do so.

The problem isn't that Asuna wants to come out and Natsuki is stopping her from doing that. The problem is that Asuna is insecure in the relationship and wants the security that having a public facing relationship and having your partner known to be taken ostensibly brings.

This is why she intentionally tried to create rumours about Natsuki having a boyfriend and was happy when it succeeded. This is why she was so excited to be able to anonymously claim to be dating Natsuki to the cram school students and other people in public. It gave their relationship a sense of authenticity that Asuna wasn't able to conjure from within. And this is why it bothers her so much to hear that people are confessing to Natsuki, even if she's turning them down.

Asuna never once has expressed to Natsuki any desire to come out, and I can only imagine based on how Natsuki has treated their relationship so far that if Asuna properly communicated that coming out would mean a lot to her, that Natsuki would be at least willing to consider it, or explore that further with Asuna.

But I think the truth is that Asuna doesn't really want to come out. She's too insecure to come out, but also too insecure to deal with the consequences of keeping their relationship hidden. In a way, it kind of mirrors what Natsuki was going through in the beginning of the story, with the 'normalcy' that a het relationship in a heteronormative society offers being desirable, but incompatible with their true desires. Which is really tragic, and kind of hard to blame either girl when you step back and look at the root of their problems.