Okay, idk about everybody else but there's a lot of people saying that she's stupid for wanting to try to die, but like... When you grow up in a toxic and abusive environment, one that you feel like you cannot escape from, your perception of things tends to skew. Dying can become just another potential way for getting out, because at least you won't have to put up with the bullshit anymore. So it makes a lot of sense to me, at least, that she thinks of dying more casually than others expect. Plus, if there was even a potential for there to be a reset button I'd want to figure that out as soon as possible so I could plan better around it.