With the background that Hikaru’s mother made her believe love makes people crazy, and coming to realize what it really meant (as a first time love is always filled with unexpected thrill and sadness and impulsive decisions and inexplainable feelings, it’s a great parallel to Kira’s experience to how love ruins and destroys things that seem bonded forever or so stable. The way live shakes things (for both girls) is coming to appreciate and manage strong emotions. Learning not to hate oneself. Learning not to be too hard on yourself for falling in love when you thought you never would. Honestly I felt this way when I first fell in love. Was super self disgusted and terrified with how much of a rollercoaster it could change me in hours. I’m glad I was able to learn though and learn about myself and love. Albeit really late compared to others (junior year university).