Zatsuyou Fuyo Jutsushi ga Jibun no Saikyou ni Kizuku made - Vol. 7 Ch. 34 - Insufficiently Human

[MangaDex]

 

[Rickachu]

Its weird, I can't say I completely relate but I can empathize with truly wanting to fit in with a group that appreciates your presence but feeling suffocated by the idea of suppressing your "true nature" in order to not come off as off-putting.

I hope Wim feels better after this little "episode" of his and can at least speak with his friend or at least someone about it without filter or reservation because it does become very isolating

 

[dcdfvr]

Welp he's gone off the deep end

 

[Lilabun]

I mean, I get it. Being around nice and good natured people and friends yet still feeling suffocated somehow. Isn't that similar to like, social masking?
But at least he got to get it out of his system and vent it all. He'll feel a little better after this probably.

 

[Mattex]

Not even stalker-san could bring him back; hes totally lost it

 

[uro-taku]

Wim boy nooo....

...Well actually maybe this is for the best, he without a doubt loves and appreciates those around him but he can't help but feel out of place there. They accept and respect him for how he seems but no one other than maybe heidemarie knows his true self and would accept him if they found out. Him repressing that deep feeling for the sake of his friends is likely culminating into something dark. Hopefully after he defeats the floor boss he'll feel a bit better.

On the topic of his friends heidemarie is probably already on her way to speak with the guild leader to pick up wim a bit later. Though I can't help but feel that the black guild is lurking around since there aren't any expeditions happening and that they'll be the ones to pick up wim after he's tuckered out, after all we got a small preview of how well he flows with them. Can't wait to see what happens next, hope wim will be alright

 

[DiscountJoJo]

Im sure this wont end horribly for Wim and he wont have any lasting mental damage at allllllllllllllllllll

 

[malfurionpre]

Who would have thought, magic doping your brain to unreasonable levels would have consequences.

 

[Arahoushi]

He went full edge lord. You never go full edge lord

 

[Reina4444]

is bro gay for the monkey?

 

[Resound]

the monkey even stop enjoying the fight at the last panel

 

[LtClone24]

Seems like Ape isn't satisfied with how the fight is going. Wim has been distracted and not putting his all into the fight you can really tell by the face he is making in the final panels. All noice but no joy.

 

[Squidco42]

I mean, I get it. Being around nice and good natured people and friends yet still feeling suffocated somehow. Isn't that similar to like, social masking?
But at least he got to get it out of his system and vent it all. He'll feel a little better after this probably.

It's not just social masking, but I would say just a total system shock. From what we read and infer, Wim never had a good life from the get go.
He's always had to struggle whilst the world put him down. He was never acknowledged for anything in his life. It made him into this person who thinks he's nothing to the world. Now all of the sudden you have people around you thinking you are the hottest shit since sliced bread. People who genuinely care about your well being. It's a lot to process through, and I understand that guilt that maybe he doesn't deserve all of this.

I feel like deep down, he has a death wish but is too cowardly to end his own life, so he just goes on about life without regards to his own life.
Its very apparent to me, at least, that this is the main reason why he enjoys fighting to the brink of death. It was the only thing that gave him power for the first time in his life whilst achieving his death wish.

But now you have people who actually care about him and he is hesitating and questioning his death wish. Does he really want to die now that there is people who will be genuinely sad and hurt when he dies.


Honestly, this slow decent to madness and self loathing is one of the best I've read in a while. It's not overly edgy whilst you understand all the confusion and thoughts going through his head, with a hint of brain malfunction

 

[Bibliothecarius]

Thanks for the chapter!!!

 

[Kireato]

Ooh, it's quite interesting that the puppeteer skill had been activated without him realising it. As someone said, he might indeed be controlled.

 

[kaminomikan]

well ofc he would suffocate, he is an introvert, and they go and throw him in that ambient... and Heide Marie, know the kind of guy he is, but she is acting like all extroverts trying to push the guy into that ambient, then he goes and discover that doping, and there is the result.

 

[Crover]

I get him but too bad I don't have a battle junky mind set.

 

[yarrayora]

"i wanted to see you" and they say romance is dead

 

[gameforcer]

To me he feels like an edgerunner from Cyberpunk. One that does not fit in the world he was thrown into. One that gets progressively more insane the more power he is given. One that will surely die, but remain a legend for years to come.

Can't wait to see what the autor cooks for us next.

 

[John_von_Shepard]

He just like me fr!!!