Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 40 - Gears Setting Chaos In Motion

[razorshaleh]

egghhh my head, so much drama in here

thanks for translating

 

[yoshiii]

So the bitch knew Hikari was standing there?

Honestly, no matter how sad your background is, to constantly betray your friends like that. She is for the streets.

Sorry excuse for a human.

Yuu is no better. Still wanting contact with your ex despite trying to get with Hikari. He wasn't truthful at all.

 

[SpikyGuy]

Ayami is still the worst. She saw Hikari there and still went to kiss Yuu

 

[Seaphron]

Never understood the hate myself. Also, SHE SAW HER AND KNEW THE WHOLE TIME?!?! The drama, the angst. Peak 10/10.

I don't think she saw her standing there. I took those text boxes at the end of the chapter to be future her narrating what happened there.

 

[Anonymous4245]

I actually like the albeit admittedly dragged out backstory chapters

 

[DaBlackMamba]

I hate everything about this character. The way she looks, the way she talks, the way she dresses, the way she walks.

I want all the bad things to happen to her and no one else but her. Take all the pain from everyone in the world and bestow it upon this fucking waste of a human being.

Shou Tucker should have merged this bitch with the dog. Griffith should have trapped her in the eclipse. She deserves to ride on a nice boat.

Yami is truly a doo doo head

 

[Litreara]

What the f***! Yami knew Hikari was there when she kissed Yuu even if she could not see her face. Damn what a great friend you are.

It specifically said "Didn't see her face" which lean to explanation that she see Hikari but not her face, cause why else would she specifically mention her face instead of just her.

She saw her, just couldn't tell if she was crying due to not being able to see her face.

It seems like a translation error to me. The MTL of the novel gave me this:

Yuu is crying.
I'm crying too.

Yami: “Goodbye, Yuu.”
Yuu: “There’s a limit to how cowardly you can be, you know...!”

But Hikari... wouldn’t understand.

She was hiding behind the door, and couldn’t see our faces.

I also checked the Spanish translation of the manga, and this is how they put it:

Yuu is crying, and I'm crying too...
but Hikari wouldn’t understand that...
Because she was hiding behind the door and couldn’t see our expressions.

To me, it sounds more like after-the-fact narration than her actually saying she saw Hikari there.

 

[Acolytus]

Can we get another PoV of this? I think we didn't get enough.

 

[Monty428]

Bro are there no spoilers for this man😭😭 Please someone tell me before I get too mad for Hikari and drop this

 

[HellJester]

JFC we're gonna get like 8 chapters now of Yuu's POV and it's going to be months before we find out what the hell translation was correct at the end of this chapter: did Yami see Hikari behind the door and decide to kiss Yuu in front of her or was this a mis-translation and it's after-the-fact narration.

Also, my boy Yuu did nothing wrong he's just dumb and a coward.

Edited to add: why the fuck are Yami and Hikari fighting over Yuu? Can't they find anything better like holy shit.

 

[Bonzalez]

sh DIDN'T SAW HER. It's literally written right there.

She said she couldn't see her face through the glass, meaning she couldn't make out her expression but still could tell that it was her

 

[nogoodsumbeach]

Here is an MTL of the novel chapter:

Spoiler: Chapter 40

Chapter 40: The Gear That Began to Go Awry

A Saturday in late September.
The dusky evening sky looked so dark, I could’ve mistaken it for nightfall—it seemed like it might start crying at any moment.

Yami: “Yami-senpai…?”
Yuu: “Nh… mm…”

And me—I looked like I might start crying at any moment too.

It’s been a year since we broke up without even saying goodbye.
A year since I cut off contact without warning.
A year since I dumped him without giving any reason.

Even though I was the one who treated him so horribly, so one-sidedly…
Why is it, why is it that all these intense feelings are bubbling up now?
Why do I find myself wanting to run to him and throw myself into his arms?

Yuu: “What? Why? Isn’t this… Hikari’s classroom…?”
Yami: “…”

But—
The moment that name, Hikari, came up…

My face twisted into a full-blown, sarcastic grin.

Yami: “…It’s been a while, Taa-kun…?”
Yuu: “Huh…?”

Teasing that openly confused look on Yuu’s face—
And as if trying to swallow the words:
Yami: "That’s your first reaction to seeing me again after all this time?!"

……

……

Yuu: “I can’t believe Yami-senpai was the ‘Aya-chan’ Hikari always talks about…”
Yami: “Hikari-chan’s always in your care~! Tehe♪”
Yuu: “Cut it out already…”
Yami: “…Sorry.”

We both calmed down a little—just a little.
But still couldn’t bring ourselves to care about the shards of the cup scattered across the floor.

Yuu: “You didn’t tell Hikari? About us?”
Yami: “Helloo? I only just found out myself, okay?”
(TL note: LIAAAR!)

Right there in the middle of the classroom,
Neither of us could take our eyes off each other’s face.

Yami: “I never imagined that the so-called ‘lady-killer Taa-kun’ I heard about was actually just plain ol’ Yuu the wimp.”
Yuu: “What’s this nonsense...”

Did he grow taller again?
But his face hasn’t changed much.
There’s still a trace of innocence in it.

Yuu: “So you’re back in school, huh, Yami-senpai.”
Yuu: “…That’s good.”
Yami: “Good? Please. Somehow I ended up in the same grade as you.”
Yuu: “Still, you moved up to second year, right? You’re going to class and everything?”
Yami: “…More or less.”

That’s because of your childhood friend, you know.
The moment I skip class, she messages me.
If I flunk a test, she forces me to study.

That nosy, annoying girl who’s just like you—
My best friend.
Thanks to her.

Yuu: “I was seriously worried, you know. When you suddenly stopped contacting me a year ago…”
Yami: “Well, I got bored. Of you, Yuu.”
Yuu: “…I… I see…”
Yami: “Exactly. So drop it already.”
Yuu: “Y-yeah. Got it. Sorry.”
Yami: “…”

Don’t believe that so easily, you idiot.
Don’t act all hurt on your own, you idiot.
Is that really what you think I’m like?
Or are you just trying to believe what’s easiest to accept?

Yuu: “S-speaking of which… if you’re back in school, then your parents…”
Yami: “Ahh, if you mean my dad, that’s all been dealt with… That side of things is fine now.”
Yuu: “I see… that’s good.”

Good? No, it’s not.
Pick up on the nuance, for once.
My mom’s issues are still completely unresolved.
Why is it that Yuu always lets go of my hand at the most important moments? Idiot.

Yami: “So, what about you? How have you been lately?”
Yuu: “Me? Nothing much has changed.”
Yami: “Well, your girlfriend has.”
Yuu: “We’re not exactly dating yet…”
Yami: “Yet, huh…”
Yuu: “N-no, uh… Let’s just drop this topic too, okay?”

Why?
Why can’t I ask, Yuu?
Do you seriously think I don’t care anymore?

Do you really expect me to smile and say,
‘I’m rooting for you and Hikari, as your friend~’?

…What the hell, me.
My head’s a mess, bouncing all over the place.
This is my first time talking to Yuu in a year, and my words and thoughts are completely out of sync.

Do I want to lash out at him?
Do I want to talk about Hikari?
Do I want to reminisce about me and Yuu?
Do I want to interrogate him about Hikari and Yuu?

Besides, Yuu hasn’t done anything wrong.
I know that better than anyone.

He’s kind, sort of cute, a little too easy to sway…
But that time, I was the one who nudged him in that direction.

So I can’t. I can’t go any further than this.
I can’t tie him down.

Not to this place.
Not to me.

Yami: “You’re meeting up with Hikari, right?”
Yuu: “Ah…”

Yuu looked quickly at his phone, face twisting in a wince.
He must’ve seen a call from Hikari.

Yami: “Go on, Yuu.”
Yuu: “But…”
Yami: “What, you’re gonna break your promise to your girlfriend?”

Yuu hesitated for a moment, showing a trace of indecision.
But in the end, he reached the “obvious” conclusion and gave me a regretful look.

Yuu: “W-we’ll see each other again, right?”
Yami: “…Who knows.”
Yuu: “R-right, uh… your new contact info—”
Yami: “No way I’m giving that to a guy I dumped.”
Yuu: “O-oh… right…”
Yami: “Besides, if you’re still thinking about me even now, that’d be unfair to Hikari.”
Yuu: “That’s not…”

Yeah. That regretful look.
And that disappointed look.
The usual wimpy Yuu expression.

Yuu: “I still think about you all the time, Yami-senpai. Of course I do.”

But—
But the moment he said that,
Just for that one moment—he had the face of a real guy.

The face Yuu had when I was head over heels for him.

Yami: “Go.”
Yuu: “…Yeah.”

That’s why I hurried Yuu along.

Because I didn’t want him to see.

To see my lingering feelings.

Yuu: “Okay then, Yami-senpai, see you—”
Yami: “...!”

How could he—
Even though I’m in such a rush.

Yuu slowly turned to me with a smile once more.

And yet, and yet...
He turned his back to me and started walking away.

One step, two steps...
Yuu was moving away from me.
Leaving me forever.

Yami: “...What, are you trying to turn this into a memory or something, Yuu?”
Yuu: “Huh...?”

What the hell am I saying?
I’m the one who told him to leave.
I’m the one who said, make it a memory.

Yami: “You ignored me for an entire year... And now what? You want to part ways cleanly, like it’s some beautiful, bittersweet goodbye?”
Yuu: “Yami... senpai?”

What am I doing... What am I doing...
This is such a messed up grudge I’m throwing at him.

Yami: “You could’ve found me, Yuu... You knew I was going to the same school as Hikari, didn’t you?”

This is completely my fault—only mine.

Yami: “Even if I blocked your calls, it wouldn’t have been hard to find me.”

No doubt about it. I’m the one who was in the wrong. I’m the one being ugly.

Yami: “And yet... and yet... You never even tried to find me...!”

Anyone listening would think this was absurd, totally irrational.

Yami: “I’ve been going to school since last September, you know?”

Of course he wouldn’t have known that.
He wasn’t responsible for any of it.

Yami: “If you’d skipped school just once... If you’d waited in front of the station in the morning... If you’d found me and called out to me...”

That kind of thing—there’s no way you could’ve done it. It’s not realistic.

Yami: “And even if you had, I would’ve run away for sure. Even if you caught me, I would’ve pushed you away.”

In fact, if you had done all that, it’d be stalker behavior. Anyone would be creeped out.

Yami: “But still—if you had kept trying, if you had chased me down again and again—!”

But I’m not normal.
There’s something wrong with me.

That’s what I wanted you to do.
And I hated that you didn’t.

Yami: “If you had, then in the very end, I would’ve dropped everything, let go of it all, and run straight into your arms!”

Yuu: “...!”

My raised hand struck Yuu’s cheek with a dry smack.

He had come back—
Even though he had walked away, he was now right in front of me again.

Because he’d returned to be blamed, to be yelled at.

Yuu: “Yami-senpai, I—”
Yami: “Shut up! Don’t act like you know anything, Yuu!”

...

...

See? I knew it.
Kissing just tastes like spit.

...No—it just tastes like him.

Ugh... That’s why I was hiding.

Ever since he came to our school—into my classroom—I kept sneaking out.

So why, why... did I come back?

Why did you find me again, Yuu...?

The ringing in my ears scrambled my thoughts.
No—this wasn’t just ringing.

Thick raindrops had begun wetting the windows of the classroom.

Ayami Sudou, 18 years old...

Somehow, my ex ended up being my best friend’s crush.

...

...

Yami: “Come to think of it, you didn’t say it last year... did you?”

Yuu was crying.
And so was I.

Yami: “Goodbye, Yuu.”
Yuu: “There’s a limit to how cowardly you can be, you know...!”

But Hikari... wouldn’t understand.

She was hiding behind the door, and couldn’t see our faces.

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Author’s post on X:

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I’m not sure if Maruto was being sarcastic in his X post or not, but there’s one thing I do know: Yami absolutely sucks. And Yuu sucks too for standing there in silence while she spewed all that bullshit. The only character with some balls in this story is Hikari.

Thanks for the chapter!

Thanks for always providing the translation of the novel chapter!

So yeah think this confirm that the kiss is Yami emotion got the better of her.
A bit a surprised yom didnt include the part when Yuu saw the message from Hikari, feels like that is quite important.
And does this mean Yami saw Hikari after she kiss Yuu? Mad how she didnt run to her if thats the case lol. She really, really sucks huh hahaha

Would like to find out what was Yuu about to say when Yami was ranting there, probably him saying he does consider doing that or something along those lines and then apologizing to her after that.

Next chapter had to be the moment Yuu end things properly with Yami now and says that he realise he want to be with Hikari no matter what.

 

[Ariqrabbani17]

Thanks for always providing the translation of the novel chapter!

So yeah think this confirm that the kiss is Yami emotion got the better of her.
A bit a surprised yom didnt include the part when Yuu saw the message from Hikari, feels like that is quite important.
And does this mean Yami saw Hikari after she kiss Yuu? Mad how she didnt run to her if thats the case lol. She really, really sucks huh hahaha

Would like to find out what was Yuu about to say when Yami was ranting there, probably him saying he does consider doing that or something along those lines and then apologizing to her after that.

Next chapter had to be the moment Yuu end things properly with Yami now and says that he realise he want to be with Hikari no matter what.

Yami didn't saw Hikari, it's an After-the-fact naration

 

[Bonzalez]

Like isn't dumb, YOU left him and blocked him, yet you're mad that he decided to stick YOUR decision. Am I reading this story right cause i don't get it

That's what she's saying out loud but her inner monologue is literally her pointing out how what she's saying doesn't make sense. She's basically letting all the angst she pushed down for years bubble over with no filter. It's not supposed to make sense logically

 

[Litreara]

And does this mean Yami saw Hikari after she kiss Yuu? Mad how she didnt run to her if thats the case lol. She really, really sucks huh hahaha

To me, the last part sounds more like she’s narrating it afterward, not actually saying she saw Hikari there.

 

[Klay2]

Well that was insane!

Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAZUSA TOUMA THE GREATEST CHARACTER IN ALL OF FICTION!!!

 

[TheMode]

based haku merch

 

[jonnywarlock]

Girl just couldn't stop herself.

 

[Kimochi-kun]

Now, will we go back to Yuu's pov after this, or go back to the present?

 

[Kunashir]

I'm tired boss