Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 40 - Gears Setting Chaos In Motion

[Zikeang]

as a chronic yami enjoyer: there's no defending this one

 

[Catbowl]

I like how Yami and Hikari both last-minute-rejected the option of suppressing their feelings and quietly letting things slide for expedience.

 

[NotSomeone]

... But that's the main theme of this story isn't it? Choosing between Light (Hikari) or Darkness (Yami) ...

That's a horrible way of putting it and it's wrong in so many levels.
It ignores both girls' agency and perspective in the story, by turning them into things to be "chosen between" by Yuu.
And it ignores the nuances in both characters, this is not about good and bad, light and darkness or anything like that, there are no absolutes here.

 

[middle-the-nerd]

You clearly have never been in a relationship as a kid lol.
He had a one sided love for a girl who he thought was above him. He meets someone who can relate to him at some level. And SHE initiates a sexual relationship. He confuses it as something real and rationalized it as a way to move on.

Then the girl who he got with, randomly just ghosts him. He is confused, hurt , and obviously shuts down.
A year goes by and just when he is finally over it, the childhood crush of his starts showing interest in him. He is cautious because he was hurt before but now believes its the right time to return back to those feelings he had.

Then the girl who ghosted him pops up back in his life by chance and starts hurling the most illogical and random insults his way and he STILL tries to empathize with her. Because he knows she has been through alot. he gets slapped and she forces a kiss on him. He again thrown into complete confusion because he wasnt able to fully get closure until now and she is basically forcing their relationship to end without giving him a chance to say his peace completely.

How none of y'all can even empathize with what he is dealing with and immediately just shit on him and call him an asshole when he is a kid experiencing love for the first time in the most chaotic way possible is beyond me. He is confused, unsure of what to do because he genuinely cares about the 2 girls involved and is fumbling his way through it. He's a fucking kid. Not a grown adult.

You know what I was gonna write a reply to that guy, but you honestly put it wat better than I was going to

Yuu isn't a bad guy- in fact, he seems like a pretty nice guy most of the time but he's also a wishy washy teen with some pretty bad self confidence issues who's making some fucking mistakes but he's also absolutely being put through the goddamn ringer emotionally right now

Now do I think we should give him a pass like- "oh he's going through his own shit? Yeah then that makes lying to Hikari okay" FUCK NO!!! He still should take accountability for his fuckups but it's wild to me how some people are so unempathetic non understanding to what HE'S going through like- give the guy a damn chance even HE he realizes he's fucked up let him learn from his mistakes first then if he refuses to learn from them, then I think he does deserve ALOT of shit but not nearly yet

 

[GomuGomuNoWeiner]

She saw her,she said she wasn't able to see her expression through the door and only saw her shadow.

sh DIDN'T SAW HER. It's literally written right there.

 

[KyoHisagi]

You clearly have never been in a relationship as a kid lol.
He had a one sided love for a girl who he thought was above him. He meets someone who can relate to him at some level. And SHE initiates a sexual relationship. He confuses it as something real and rationalized it as a way to move on.

Then the girl who he got with, randomly just ghosts him. He is confused, hurt , and obviously shuts down.
A year goes by and just when he is finally over it, the childhood crush of his starts showing interest in him. He is cautious because he was hurt before but now believes its the right time to return back to those feelings he had.

Then the girl who ghosted him pops up back in his life by chance and starts hurling the most illogical and random insults his way and he STILL tries to empathize with her. Because he knows she has been through alot. he gets slapped and she forces a kiss on him. He again thrown into complete confusion because he wasnt able to fully get closure until now and she is basically forcing their relationship to end without giving him a chance to say his peace completely.

How none of y'all can even empathize with what he is dealing with and immediately just shit on him and call him an asshole when he is a kid experiencing love for the first time in the most chaotic way possible is beyond me. He is confused, unsure of what to do because he genuinely cares about the 2 girls involved and is fumbling his way through it. He's a fucking kid. Not a grown adult.

This.
Also hormones. Hormones do awful things to 14-16 yo teenage boys' brains. God forbid teenager thinking with his dick for couple of weeks when their entire body screams to do just that...

I have nothing bad to say about him, expect he should grow a pair and either A) decide who he actually wants to pursue, or B) quit this stupid game altogether and focus on studying and self reflection, because he's only winning stupid prizes rn

 

[middle-the-nerd]

Ok but what is there to hate about Hikari? Her character development has been immaculate this arc. She also is a relatable human being with actual human emotions/emotional range (when compared to her earlier)

Most you can say about her is just that she can be a bit much at points... Other than that basically nothing she's so sweet

Yami is a selfish bipolar (not an excuse tho) psycho schemer and Yuu a deceiving weak pushover loser (I defended him until these chapters)

I think saying he's "deceiving" might not be a completely fair word I really don't i think he's trying to be manipulative or malicious- now this doesn't excuse him lying he HAS to take responsibility for it but I feel like it far more stems from his own emotional problems and lack of self confidence and even he admits in the novelization of chapter 38 it was really shitty of him to do he's a damn teen of course, he's emotionally immature, we should be a little understanding of that

 

[GennArc]

Not necessarily tbh but Yuu saying how he needs to be 100% sure that Hikari does like him before he confess in chapter 38 makes me think there is also a possibility of him having those thoughts.

He explains it right away, doesn't he? He doesn't want to ruin their friendship in case she doesn't reciprocate.

Yuu having some type of closure with the very first real relationship he had probably makes him think this is the perfect time to confess to Hikari.

I doubt he thinks of it as "perfect", more like "after this, I just have to".

Besides that rant from Yami plus the kiss is a pretty big suggestion to Yuu that Yami is still in love with him and i would argue if Yuu hasnt moved on he will try to get back with her there and then.

I dunno, he started saying something but she interrupted him with the kiss and then the goodbye. It would be weird if he wanted to confess to her and then confessed to Hikari, but you never know.

 

[middle-the-nerd]

This.
Also hormones. Hormones do awful things to 14-16 yo teenage boys' brains. God forbid teenager thinking with his dick for couple of weeks when their entire body screams to do just that...

I have nothing bad to say about him, expect he should grow a pair and either A) decide who he actually wants to pursue, or B) quit this stupid game altogether and focus on studying and self reflection, because he's only winning stupid prizes rn

Oh got yeah hormones are a fucking BITCH and make you do tons of stupid shit and not act mature at all

I think it's pretty evident over the last few chapters he's already chosen to pursue Hikari the thing he needs to grow a pair for here is to stop being wishy washy so he can take responsibility, apologize to Hikari, and be fully open about everything he NEEDS to be fully open with her which he was clearly scared to do previously

 

[Beezy]

This.
Also hormones. Hormones do awful things to 14-16 yo teenage boys' brains. God forbid teenager thinking with his dick for couple of weeks when their entire body screams to do just that...

I have nothing bad to say about him, expect he should grow a pair and either A) decide who he actually wants to pursue, or B) quit this stupid game altogether and focus on studying and self reflection, because he's only winning stupid prizes rn

Exactly. Now is the time for him to finally get over his inferiority complex. This event at least shows he is not ready to be in a relationship. He has too many underlying issues that have yet to be addressed by himself and needs to handle it before trying to make things work with Hikari.

Lets just pray he never has to open up to the people in this thread because they will just call him human waste and say he doesnt deserve to be loved ever again.

 

[outinthegardener]

I enjoyed this chapter, it really reinforced the theme of "teenagers trying to handle situations way above their maturity levels will get wrecked." They made some small mistakes, they made some big mistakes, they had terrible timing. Get your popcorn, cause this plane wreck isn't over. It gets worse before it gets worse!

Some folks speculated that Yami's crash-out was related to bipolar or borderline personality disorder, and that's possible. I'd suggest the simplest explanation is trauma conditioning. She had an unloving childhood and is both starved for love and unable to trust when love is given. So she flings herself into relationships, escalates way too fast, then backs off to "test" her partner. Even when she recognizes the self-destruction, it's a learned behavior that is tough to break out of. It's fun to play armchair psychiatrist, when it's not directed at real people.

wait but the mangadex comments told me yuu was super mega hitler 9000 who fucked yami for 6 days straight while hikari stood in the rain then ran a train on every other girl in the school and created an ubermensch army of yuulings who all went on to gaslight hikari, this just makes him look like an idiot with a psycho ex

 

[MKE3]

Does anyone know where to read the actual light novel because the suspense is killing me.

 

[GennArc]

Does anyone know where to read the actual light novel because the suspense is killing me.

The web novel and the manga are released simultaneously. Neither is ahead of the other, so this is the latest chapter for both.

 

[gmanhunt]

No Yuu
No Yami
Only Hikari
Full nuclear

 

[Greinhmorf]

All three made human mistakes in my opinion.

Yami is still struggling to change from her old days, still has the same self-destructive tendencies, she did it to Yuu and Hikari in each of her meeting with them and this time she dragged them both. But she also the most wounded of all.

Hikari is used to living in the warm sunlight that she isn't used to darkness (Yami's bertrayal and her perceived Yuu's bertrayal), her optimism no longer holds. She had the choice of just normally confronting Yuu about it and instead she delayed it and ended up destroying their relationship when she can't hold her feelings anymore.

Yuu is indecisive, as shown by when he still tries to care for Yami despite planning to confess to Hikari, this

broke the dam holding back Yami's feelings instead of her just closing it down for good. But that's the main theme of this story isn't it? Choosing between Light (Hikari) or Darkness (Yami).

They all made mistakes in their progress of maturing beyond teenager, that's how I take it.

Seriously, I thought that was the bare minimum of understanding that a normal person should have, but after reading the comments and seeing so many people not getting it I feel kind of dissapointed in the human race

 

[zeroto7dan]

Seriously, I thought that was the bare minimum of understanding that a normal person should have, but after reading the comments and seeing so many people not getting it I feel kind of dissapointed in the human race

lol precisely because this manga shows human emotions that this got a lot of engagement and readers is in multiple sides, people pick sides because they understand what they understand base on their perception not logic, we have an entire history and internet to prove that humanity is not a logical being. clearly your not disappointed enough.

 

[Weebius]

I dunno what kinda war yall got goin on in here, but damn this seems like a Premium Woman Moment if I've ever seen one

 

[Burner5]

I need someone to explain to me how Yuu's mind works. So this dude, apparently had always been in love with Hikari before he met Yami. But Yami flirted with him for like, 2 days, dude immediately gave in and willing went to bed with her, despite never attempting to flirt with his crush. Then Yami dumped him after a while and he just came back to crushing on Hikari like nothing happened. Then after he bumped into his ex, he requested to keep contact with her and asked for her number, when he is, seemingly, still into Hikari. What's for? What is his stance in romantic relationship here? Logically speaking, he does have the right to do all those things since he's not offically in a relationship with Hikari. However, every thing he has done contradicted with his personality that were portrayed through manga vision and through Hikari and Yami's perspective. Are you telling me this guy is supposed to be just a "oh he's nice but he's a little bit dense, adorkable guy :3" type of love interest? To me, he just seems like a dude who is confused of knowing what he wants, so he grabbed every cake possible. But hey, he's nice! And since he's nice, it's okay for him to be emotionally stupid and indecisive too, because even if you hurt people you love in the process it's okay too! And he's a nice guy!!

Yuu had a huge crush on Hikari but realised she didn't care about him in the same way. He thought that going to the same high-school would create an opportunity to change that or, at the very least, fix his insecurities about asking her out.

He fails to get in the same school, thus he treats it as the universe's way of rejecting his love. While he was dejected, Ayami comes along and tries to pump and dump him as a means of relieving all the emotional distress her home life has caused her. Both initially "used" each other to satisfy emotions that were getting hurt elsewhere. He rebounds with Ayami and starts to develop feelings. She ghosts him because she doesn't feel worthy of him due to her own guilt about "destroying" her home.

After this, Hikari starts to develop romantic feelings for Yuu. However, Yuu is being guarded with his feelings in order to protect himself. Over time (the better part of a year), Hikari pulls down his guard which allows him to be more accepting of asking her out. Hell, he was still hesitant enough that Hikari had to pled for him to come to the culture festival.

Fast forward to now, Yuu sees Ayami and tries to understand how she's doing. There isn't any romantic intentions with his actions, as his attitude is being compared to Hikari. He is just asking about her and trying to see if she's ok as he still worried about her. When it is clear to him that she is doing "ok" and doesn't want to get involved with him, due to her feelings of inadequecy, he relents and tries to leave. This is because he respects Ayami's feelings enough to trust her and he found some closure with that relationship. When she kisses him, he cries because he didn't want that type of relationship with her and she disrespected his feelings.

Due to wanting to ask Hikari out that day and having his emotions in disarray due to Ayami, he later confesses to Hikari. His mental state was probably similar to the time when he felt "rejected" by Hikari so he was probably clammering to find something positive to remove the pain (of, in this case, being emotionally used).

 

[NotSomeone]

This.
Also hormones. Hormones do awful things to 14-16 yo teenage boys' brains. God forbid teenager thinking with his dick for couple of weeks when their entire body screams to do just that...

I have nothing bad to say about him, expect he should grow a pair and either A) decide who he actually wants to pursue, or B) quit this stupid game altogether and focus on studying and self reflection, because he's only winning stupid prizes rn

"Hormones do awful things to teenage boys' brains"
I am a full grown adult and my dick took me places I wouldn't dare go even if I had a gun on me.

 

[Panino]

Not in the mood to read all comments, but from past experience I can imagine a lot of people picking a side and insisting one character is "bad".

This was a good chapter to show that both didn't know how to deal with their own emotions and failed themselves and each other.
Both "ruined" their relationship, despite caring so much for each other.

It happens.