A little over a year ago, I hit the end of my rope. Didn’t see any future for myself, didn’t really have any support around me, nothing. I was given some advice, and it really helped. Specifically, I was informed about how many 100% free therapy services there are in almost every city.
Basically, they tend to be somewhat time-limited (mine was for 8-months, with an understanding it COULD be extended if needed). But it was zero cost in any way shape or form. They worked with my schedule, were very simple to get started with, and VERY helpful. After about 6 months I was doing drastically better, and at the end of my 8 months, I did not need to continue to go. It was one of the best actions I’ve taken in my life.
So that’s my advice. Use Google and call some of the local therapy and support offices in your town. 100% chance SOMEONE offers the service for free. Some churches even offer it from paid therapists but the church covers the cost for you - so look for that if you can’t find an office.