Thanks for the translation. Despite the dreary subject, I'm really enjoying this series more and more.
It's rather relatable at times, "I thought it'd be better to disappear while I was still having fun."
It's so easy to fall back into the pit of self-hatred, even when a good event happens, I couldn't help but feel like I was going to be disappointed down the line or it'd never really work out. So, I'd justify that it was better to die in this sort of happy state than to deal with whatever came afterwards.
Laughed when she suddenly kicked the dog out of nowhere. Rather cruel but I imagine she must have her own circumstances. Curious to see what exactly caused her to have that reaction.