@A-tan
>If you are not going to keep going then dont. He just made himself suffer for reasons we still have to see.
I will use myself as an example, without getting into details. I was once in that spot, where you have a passion, then you have to give it up, for whatever reason, and brother/sister I'll tell you, that hurts more than anything I've ever experienced, and you keep trying to hold on to it, despite knowing you're not helping anyone, but you can't just let go... And then... It doesn't matter anymore, you don't love it, in fact you begin to hate the very thing that you've always loved.
I do believe, in my case my will was weak, but I don't think that's Ryuji's case. Now, what
@Serenata said can be true, but I don't believe it's enough to make her stop attending classes or giving up on the exam
Oh, and we still have to take in consideration Ryuji's sexuality and gender issues. It is, most likely, of great importance, and surely affects her state of mind, influencing other aspects of her life, such as art. Jesus, I can't begin to imagine what could be going in the mind of someone in that position... Must be hellish