You know though I understand the importance of missions and loyalty I'm actually glad she's wavering right now. She spent the whole of her last life being obedient to the t and I think she deserves some willfulness. Also it seems like Ernon isn't a bad person despite the fact that he's killed so many of the prince's men (not because he's a bishounen). Because think about it, even the prince's side gets fired up and try to kill as many of their opponents as they can right? He's just doing the same. Also he might be being coerced into it...