When you've been beaten down most of your life and finally attain freedom, you have to accept that you'll reflect on the bitter days, for that there is no escape. One must reflect and keep moving, if your fail to move you will stagnate and you will die.
The sun is shining outside today and it's lovely. The teenage me who spent years locked in a shed and then homeless values that I can make it all disappear merely by enjoying the sunlight as it illuminates the grass, trees and bushes. The birds sing and dance through the sky, the beauty of reality is worth moving forward for.