Obviously she was an awful awful person, one of the very worst in this series, but I can't help but admire how many antidotes for herself she apparently made in an attempt to live. That's a desire to live I could never fathom.
Same. I have to give a hats off to her. Managing to concoct 40 antidotes is beyond impressive. It's such a waste of talent that I want to say "I can fix her" (I can't).