@DefaultKachii
I can't remember how I ended up here. I don't know how I found this manga, or if it found me, but after I read your comment I knew I had to read it.
I don't know how many hours ago that was - my mind is a bit of a mess right now, but I've just finished reading the entire manga in one sitting.
I realised I had a migraine at around 80 chapters in, but I pushed on. The pain faded at around 110, then it redoubled in the 130s.
My head is pounding now, and I've got dried tear stains on my face but I don't really remember crying.
I feel like I've just woken from a trance, I didn't even really notice I was still reading a manga until I got taken back to the manga listing; I'd hit next after the final page without knowing.
I just experienced someone's life, one that mirrored my own in many moments and in many ways. I consumed it all in a matter of hours, and while I can vividly remember everything to happen in it, I can't remember how I felt. I suppose that may come with time, I'm having trouble emoting in any way right now.
I'll say this: I've been depressed for almost half of my life, and I've spent a lot of that time consuming any and every form of media that I thought might show me myself as I appear in my thoughts. I've been unsatisfied every time. Still, I kept on searching for any piece of media that I could find myself in wholly, and sincerely.
I found that today, and I don't quite know what that means for me or my obsession with stories up to now - I'll be honest and say I don't think it's really set in yet - but I do recognise one feeling right now. Satisfaction.
If my closing paragraph is to be anything, it'll be to echo yours. Thank you for sharing this with me.
10/10. I will never read this testament to depression ever again, but I recommend everyone does.