Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 26.5 - My Happy Date ("Wholesome" Version)

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Do you mean chapter 26.5, chapter 30 or both?
In 30, Yuu suggests an intimate version of the fireworks date - the one at the internet cafe. That's when Aya says he's wrong/misunderstanding her & talks about how she'd go anywhere with him and lists outdoor activities in crowded places.

It would've been a parallel if Hikari did watch fireworks with him.
But as you pointed out, what Aya is picturing is the walking around at the festival part. And that's the part that Aya says Yuu's wrong, she'd walk around in a crowd for him.

she feels guilty that such a kind and honest person has to lie for her sake.
That's the thing though, he doesn't. There's nothing about Yuu's relationship with Aya that dictates that he has to lie to his parents about its very existence. I wish it was translated in English already, but in 26.6 his plan had been to go home (so no reason to lie about being on a date) but then he calls to make up an excuse to stay out later and is telling his parents that the "friend" he was w/ got sick. Yuu is making a very clear choice here to hide Aya's existence from his parents, and yeah being honest with them would likely alleviate some of her guilt.

And that's when Yuu would be able to introduce her to his parents - when she stops making a bad impression on everyone, like what Haru and Yuki say about her in 32.
What they say there is that she was still making a terrible impression and they would have never been her friend and Hikari just didn't care and made friends with her anyway. Yuu could have done that too. Nothing was stopping him from trying to do the things Aya is putting on hold b/c she thinks she doesn't deserve them until she becomes "normal". ETA: The reason I bring up this parallel is b/c when Aya meets Hikari, she's still mired in "I don't deserve nice things" (This life we're living... it's supposed to be a punishment. If I start feeling comfortable in it, then what's the point?) guilt b/c Aya moved the goalposts from her parents divorce to her mother's loneliness. Which is what Yuzuka is picking up on w/ Aya's "person like me".

this relationship is portrayed in a negative way because it doesn't follow the rules of a conventionally good manga couple"
Aya desires normal and her conceptualization of normal is the conventional - shopping/dates/festivals.

I think the relationship in this manga is portrayed in a negative way b/c Aya thinks of her behavior as putting on a character, is disappointed that Yuu can't read her mind, and thinks she doesn't measure up to Yuu's "dream girl". Because Aya is going through a really harsh and traumatic period in her life and puts up all the walls instead of seeking support from her partner, when Aya's been shown to share deeply personal things w/ folks she trusts - wanting to be in class w/ Hikari the following year (which Hikari then supports), her feelings for Yuu w/ Yazuka. Because Yuu is written as the type of eager earnest good boy who wouldn't intentionally keep his girlfriend a secret and keeping Aya a secret reinforces Aya's feelings of inadequacy. Because Aya is still resentful a year after she ended the relationship - most people aren't yelling at an ex they were truly happy with, especially if the relationship really ended due to circumstances.

Yuu's level of commitment (this is not about the seriousness of relationship, but it's related).
This feels almost pedantic - Aya feels Yuu isn't as serious about the relationship as she is because he's not as committed and that he's not as committed because he's not as serious. Some folks seem to delineate it as commitment = action and seriousness= intent & then sure that's basically what I've been arguing about Yuu not "reaching out his hand".
 
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In 30, Yuu suggests an intimate version of the fireworks date - the one at the internet cafe. That's when Aya says he's wrong/misunderstanding her & talks about how she'd go anywhere with him and lists outdoor activities in crowded places.
The one we've been discussing though is Yami is rejecting his intimate date suggestion - the one that suggests he does know her - by saying that she'd do the first crowded public one.
Okay, now I got it.
She is not rejecting his intimate suggestion at all (that's why I didn't get what you were trying to say at first), she is saying that those words
[ Yuu: The fireworks festival is tomorrow. Got any plans? ]
[ Yuu: I mean, you probably hate crowds, so... we could watch it on the TV at a net café or something. ]
mean that he is having the same misconception as before. He thinks there are some activities she wouldn't do with him or that she might get bored if they are just staying cooped up in a manga cafe. But the most important thing to her is just being with him, the setting doesn't matter. Remember that the first time she went "He doesn't get it" right after he invited her out, supposing that she might not enjoy spending the whole date in that manga cafe.

There's nothing about Yuu's relationship with Aya that dictates that he has to lie to his parents about its very existence. I wish it was translated in English already, but in 26.6 his plan had been to go home (so no reason to lie about being on a date) but then he calls to make up an excuse to stay out later and is telling his parents that the "friend" he was w/ got sick. Yuu is making a very clear choice here to hide Aya's existence from his parents, and yeah being honest with them would likely alleviate some of her guilt.
I mean, there certainly is a lot to hide and lie about - it started with him lying to his mother after the exam, it involves a lot of love hotels and teen sex. Even 26.6 starts with her suggesting the hotel. That's why her words make it clear that she's feeling guilty towards Yuu first and foremost.
On another note, I feel awkward reminding EijiRin about 26.6 since I've been bothering him/her a lot already. And it's Christmas time anyway, everyone probably has better things to do.
What they say there is that she was still making a terrible impression and they would have never been her friend and Hikari just didn't care and made friends with her anyway. Yuu could have done that too. Nothing was stopping him from trying to do the things Aya is putting on hold b/c she thinks she doesn't deserve them until she becomes "normal".
1. It's not like she was planning to break up with Yuu or like she knew her mother would attempt suicide. That was just her idea on how to become more like a normal person, little did she know how badly it would go.
2. Hikari isn't really risking anything by trying to befriend her. Yuu would risk everything, since there is a significant chance his parents would disapprove of their relationship.
3. For introducing her to parents, both Yuu and Yami need to agree to do it. And I'd assume there's no way Yami would've agreed to it. You will probably say that Yuu didn't even propose it, and I will say that her attitude could've made it obvious she wasn't ready for it.

Aya desires normal and her conceptualization of normal is the conventional - shopping/dates/festivals.
She wants to be Yuu's normal girlfriend, but she doesn't desire shopping and festivals, she is saying she's okay with anything as long as it's with him.
I think the relationship in this manga is portrayed in a negative way b/c Aya thinks of her behavior as putting on a character, is disappointed that Yuu can't read her mind, and thinks she doesn't measure up to Yuu's "dream girl". Because Aya is going through a really harsh and traumatic period in her life and puts up all the walls instead of seeking support from her partner, when Aya's been shown to share deeply personal things w/ folks she trusts - wanting to be in class w/ Hikari the following year (which Hikari then supports), her feelings for Yuu w/ Yazuka. Because Yuu is written as the type of eager earnest good boy who wouldn't intentionally keep his girlfriend a secret and keeping Aya a secret reinforces Aya's feelings of inadequacy.
Yeah, I'm totally fine with points like this and I can see why you think this way, even though I mostly disagree. What I want to avoid is judging it by comparing with other manga.
most people aren't yelling at an ex they were truly happy with, especially if the relationship really ended due to circumstances.
Let's be honest, this situation is far from ordinary, most people break up "normally".
This feels almost pedantic - Aya feels Yuu isn't as serious about the relationship as she is because he's not as committed and that he's not as committed because he's not as serious. Some folks seem to delineate it as commitment = action and seriousness= intent & then sure that's basically what I've been arguing about Yuu not "reaching out his hand".
Maybe I just got confused by the word "casual". For me, a "casual relationship" means something you can let go of easily. Like, "we tried dating, it didn't work out", this kind of thing. And it wasn't the case here.
As for the "commitment vs seriousness" thing, I mostly agree with orange (although I'd say commitment isn't just action but also how important the relationship is to you), but I think Yuu was quite serious about their relationship (as in viewing it as "love", not just "dating", staying with her forever etc.), just wasn't treating it as something so important that everything else pales in comparison.
 
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Which it's not my POV on relationships so much as well established manga conventions - do you have an example of a manga portraying a healthy teenage relationship and decent/living/local parents where the kids hide the relationship? - which I presume somewhat reflect Japanese conventions.
As I already said, precisely Shikimori is not just a cutie is an example of this. Over all with the title FMC. But even the MC tries to hide the relationship to his parents and they have to force him to reveal them the truth
This is probably what happened with the clumsy attempts of Yuu Takamura to hide his relationship with Ayami
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If the Yuu parents are really how Hikari and Ayami described them, there is not other possible way, they definitely got realize the truth in you yourself has described as a long period of time and forced Taa-kun to say them the truth. And again, if they could hold the secret of the failed exam to Hikari all this time, they could covered this too. Even more after the tragic ending of the relationship.
So, I am insist in my thesis: Yuu parents tried to meet Yami and, as minimum, she rejected his offer of meet them. Yuu Takamura seems definitely the kind of teenager who would try at least to convince his girlfriend to meet his parents, and she rejected the idea, again, as we already saw her rejecting other plans of Yuu before in this series.
Is even possible she ended meeting them (in his house if Yuu managed to convince her or his parents interrumpted one of their dates) and we will see this meeting in a new chapter or the future PoV of Yuu (if we would get it).
He asked if she was drunk - that's treating it like she's not serious.
Or they were just playing as part of their dynamics. Again, you are treating that flirting moment as a serious thing when Yami herself doesn´t seem annoyed for that comment of Yuu.
 
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Absolutely, but the situation we've been discussing is 30 chapters before they started going out.
Yes, this is the reason why I am saying this problem resurged when they finally became a couple, because implies a more depth difference between Gojo and Marin.
Chapter 112 they discuss what they want and are and are not comfortable with and in 114 agree that they're in it for forever.
They never discuss sex directly in chapter 112. They never make an agreement about how, when and where have sexual acts. Marin stills with her attempts of have sex with Gojo and he is still refusing in a very similar way to Yuu. You and me are speaking specifically about SEX. The manga ending hints Marin ended forcing Gojo to have sex sooner than later and in this way, like Yami and Yuu, the "problem" was resolved.
So, the different approachs about sex is not the reason who destroyed Yami-Yuu relationship.
Sex never puts Marin in danger.
Because she doesn´t have practically parents. Her father, the only alive parent, spend most of time outside home and normally he is not in house. Marin is practically free to have sex with Gojo in any moment she wants, and her father won´t impede her to do it anyway and never opposed to it.
This is precisely the exact opposite situation. Ayami is in a situation where her mother is not good for her and neither allows her have sex with her boyfriend. This is the reason why Aya were forced to broke the law to could have sex with Yuu, with the already known results.
Aya's other attention seeking behavior when it comes to sex is the lurid stories she tells her friends & the suggestions of public indecency
Teenagers talks about sex a lot of times. Yuki talks about lurid stories too -but less detailed, true- and you doesn´t say nothing. Compared with Marin speaking with Gojo and her female friends so entusiastically about her PORN VIDEO GAMES (like Shizuku Kuroe)... yes, Ayami telling to her friends about her sexual experiences is very normal and tame in comparison
Aya is also feeling deep insecurity b/c she's using sex to put up walls between her and her partner, and also uses sex to cling on to him b/c he's worried he'll pull away.
Again, is not proof on the text about this.
In those stories the sex is empowering where here Aya's insecurities and loneliness seems to get worse on every encounter.
I see all the opposite. The sex and the relationship with Yuu empowers both to make decisions and reach things they couldn´t do before, like expulse her abusive step-father from her life for Ayami and gain confidence and self-esteem for Yuu. Again, you are depicting a very negative portrait and denying to looking the positive parts of those scenes or the external factors already mentioned by Genn.
She doesn´t seem feel more insecure or lonely with every encounter. Even in chapter 28, she seems truely happy and thinking she resolved all her life problems.
So, the external factors are the real reason why both are forced to separate and lost the growth already reached. Is not sex who destroyed their relationship, is the way to they had to use to be able to have sexual intercourse. This is the reason why they broke the law and ended in serious problems. Not sex itself.
If the sex was the empowering bridge building key to a healthy relationship you're claiming it is, Aya would believe that she truly owns Yuu's heart after six months of connecting physically. Hikari looming so large means the sex isn't doing the thing she wants it to.
I am not saying this is a healthy perfect relationship. But more because sex as empowering bridge helped them, true, but also carried them to have problems with law and society (because they had to use love hotels), over all Yami -but we have not seen yet the real PoV of Yuu and if he payed a price for the 3 days travel if my theory is real-.
Also, as I said, if somebody failed in build a relationship beyond the sex, was Yami, not Yuu. For me, he did a real effort to spend time with Yami making other things and activities different to sex and read books and mangas, as Genn and I said to you. If there is someone to blame for this, is mainly her, not him.
And again, Ayami believed she owned Yuu´s heart in their good-bye in chapter 29. She never questions his fidelity in this exact point of the story. In that moment, nobody of them even mentions Hikari. Ayami never thinks in Hikari in chapters 27-30.
Aya'a playing the mischievous girl in 25.5
She quickly repents from that playing and recognizes she is truely in love with Yuu in precisely that chapter. Also, you are choosing precisely their first time, that doesn´t proof nothing.
He implies some of this, but again this is all stuff she does w/ and for him & not about her as a distinct person
Again, this is a dialogue of Yuu worrying about THE FAMILY OF AYAMI. If that is not about her as a distinct person, we are fucked up.
Which Hikari says Aya is honest when Hikari first meets her & at that point Hikari is correct and seeing through how Aya pushes her away.
Because how Genn said you, Ayami practically almost didn´t play with Hikari, she is much more direct with Hikari and has a different attitude with her because, of course, she is a different person than Yuu and, even more, Ayami is not sexually attracted for Hikari in the way she does with Yuu.
And anyway, is precisely the lies Yami said to Hikari at the end who provoked all this disaster. For e.g., Yami never admits the stories of her being a whore who slept with several dudes who told to Hikari are false and even tries to present them as valid and genuine in chapter 41.
So, Yuu at the long term is much better than Hikari detecting when Ayami lies. And again, is very logic in chapters 31-32, Ayami is not even trying to lie to a person she barely knows and doesn´t want near from her.
She'd then think that. There's literally nothing in her thoughts even implying that she thinks that Yuu looked for her. I agree that she recognizes that she's being in unfair in her anger, but that doesn't change the feels she's feeling.
"Why you always found me, Yuu?" This is definitely at least a hint. Other thing, of course, is you ignoring Ayami herself recognizes she is crazy and her rants are incoherent so you take so seriously those rants because "they are the feels she is feeling". Also, it was you precisely who are arguing Yami is a unreliable narrator, but only to the things who back up your argue, in other cases, Yami is sorpresively the most reliable narrator ever, over all if it´s to blame Yuu for the collapse of their relationship where Yami once and again frees him from any guilt in her thoughts.
 
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I mean, there certainly is a lot to hide and lie about - it started with him lying to his mother after the exam, it involves a lot of love hotels and teen sex. Even 26.6 starts with her suggesting the hotel. That's why her words make it clear that she's feeling guilty towards Yuu first and foremost.
On another note, I feel awkward reminding EijiRin about 26.6 since I've been bothering him/her a lot already. And it's Christmas time anyway, everyone probably has better things to do.
About chapter 26.6, there are some hints Yuu was not talking with his mother in that moment, but with Hikari mother or Hikari herself. This is why Yuu talks in the call about "the other family" (this fits very well with Hikari being the person he is talking and would explain why Yami is so aggresive here and in public). This is the reason why Yami express open suspects about the "family dinner" Yuu mentions in first page of chapter 26.6.
Here I add two of the pages, translated into Spanish to proof my point:
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So, this is other example of Yami working to separate -even more- Hikari and Yuu. And definitely I don´t see Yuu mother buying those ridiculous lie of "I am bring my friend to hospital". Hikari definitely would does it.
Again, as I said, all this is, anyway, assuming Yuu never talked about sex. This part definitely was hold in secret to his parents. But I definitely see him talking about Yami being his girlfriend to his parents or more probably being forced to his parents to explain with what girl he was spent all that time during those six months of relationship between February and August of First Year, and forced to clarify that girl was his current girlfriend.
I think Yuu was quite serious about their relationship (as in viewing it as "love", not just "dating", staying with her forever etc.), just wasn't treating it as something so important that everything else pales in comparison.
I mean, he perfectly could treat the relationship as something so important but because his shy personality, he is not fully able to express it. We only know Ayami is so in love with Yuu because her PoV, any external vision of her paints a much more tsundere image from her personality. Again, we almost don´t have the PoV of Yuu, but his brief words about Ayami in his omake PoV definitely hints he ended considering his relationship with Yami as the most important thing in his life.
 
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He thinks there are some activities she wouldn't do with him or that she might get bored if they are just staying cooped up in a manga cafe.
Here he's offering the internet cafe as the alternative thing she'd like to do and there's nothing on his side indicating she wouldn't want to go to the internet cafe. And it's paired w/ an image of them walking around in public.

it started with him lying to his mother after the exam, it involves a lot of love hotels and teen sex.
That's lying about what they do on dates, not about the existence of a girlfriend he's had for months. Which Yuu could acknowledge her existence w/o introducing her, and I dunno that Aya would have refused. To me, "meet my parents" is exactly the type of reaching out gesture Aya wants.

Saw on reddit how a different manga (Snow white with the red hair) uses that language in a confession scene and that has me wondering what the literary symbolism/connotations are in a Japanese context.

Yuu would risk everything, since there is a significant chance his parents would disapprove of their relationship.
Which is the point right? Taking that risk shows that he's serious about this relationship being a long term commitment. That's why folks generally only introduce partners they're serious about to their parents.

Also many parents aren't too happy if their kids have friends the parents disapprove of.

she is saying she's okay with anything as long as it's with him.
But that none of it is making her feel like a normal girlfriend. Which is a contrast to the things they don't do that she's saying she'd do if she was a normal girlfriend.

We keep going in circles here but the point I'm trying to make is there's nothing inherently abnormal about Aya and Yuu's relationship, but Aya keeps seeing it as such.

Let's be honest, this situation is far from ordinary, most people break up "normally".
Meh, what's normally? And also doesn't really change my point. Aya's crash out was resentment towards Yuu for not reaching out, which was also what Aya hoped/wished he'd do in 30.

"we tried dating, it didn't work out"
Shoujo/anything geareds toward girls (like Aya) sells the message that the way to prove that a relationship is more serious than this is through the actions that show commitment.
 
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yes, Ayami telling to her friends about her sexual experiences is very normal and tame in comparison
Hikari flags this as weird b/c when girls do this, it's generally assumed to be attention seeking behavior. And by sex putting Aya in danger, I mean the paid dating apps and walking around in the hotel district and sleeping with a danger.
Marin talking about the games she's playing is basically the equivalent of women on booktok talking about smut.

And again, if they could hold the secret of the failed exam to Hikari all this time, they could covered this too.
Yuu failing the exam is unlikely to ever come up organically, why Yuu isn't at dinner is.

Again, is not proof on the text about this.
chapter 41 said:
If you’re scared of losing him, just tie him down with your body!
There are basically two reasons Aya would say this:
1. Aya thinks Hikari is promiscuous (Aya thinks Hikari is a ball of innocent goodness so no)
2. Aya thinks that's what Aya did to Yuu.

. In that moment, nobody of them even mentions Hikari.
I think she's alluding to it w/ her "go fall in love w/ someone else" and also in chapter 13.5 she's 99.9% sure that Yuu is in love w/ Hikari b/c of the way he talked about Hikari while they were dating. Aya thinks there's a 0.1% chance that You could be talking about her (Aya) despite also being someone Yuu had met long he met Saeki.

Also, you are choosing precisely their first time, that doesn´t proof nothing.
This from 28 makes it sound like a fairly consistent behavioral pattern:

So, I do what I always do -- I change course.

"Not that I expect you to get it. You're in the middle of your bright, shiny youth, after all."
"You're the same age, you know!"

I let go of his hand and poke his nose playfully.
Teasing him like the younger guy he is, pretending to be the lazy, carefree girl who lives for the moment.

If that is not about her as a distinct person, we are fucked up.
At best, it's Yuu saying "yes fine I believe you, you'll be fine" in a context where Aya is explicitly pretending everything is ok:

But for now, just for now, I had to play the role of the Matsushita family's one and only daughter. Not happily, but I had no choice.

"Don't worry about me. You know me, Yuu. I'm not the kind of girl to just quietly take crap lying down."
"Well... yeah, you're definitely the type to dish it out instead."
"Excuse me? Being so cocky for someone like you."
"Hey, if I were cocky, I wouldn't just sit back and take it, would I?"
"Ahaha, fair enough~."

Why was I forcing myself to do something that's just normal for other people but practically impossible for me?

So essentially what Yuu is praising is the false face Aya puts on to cope.

So, Yuu at the long term is much better than Hikari detecting when Ayami lies
The whole fight in 41 is that Hikari knows that Aya is lying.

so you take so seriously those rants because "they are the feels she is feeling"
No I take those seriously b/c I think this manga has good characterization and generally sane human beings don't actually go off on baseless rants. Aya needs therapy but she's not psychotic.

This is why Yuu talks in the call about "the other family"
At least in the Russian, what he's saying is roughly "apologize to the neighbors for me" (more literally "make excuses for me", but in an "excuse me" way)
 
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Hikari flags this as weird b/c when girls do this, it's generally assumed to be attention seeking behavior
"Attention seeking behavior" is definitely a good description of Ayami personality, over all after her breaking with Yuu. She definitely wants to play being the "bad girl" -maybe for guiltyness for the suicide attempt of her mother-.
And by sex putting Aya in danger, I mean the paid dating apps and walking around in the hotel district and sleeping with a danger.
Yes, she was definitely in a self-destructive way when she met Yuu and she is returning to that self-destructive way after the cultural festival catastrophe, this is the reason why Yuu is so worried right now. But we are talking about the role played by sex during their relationship with Yuu, and yes, Yuu was not already a stranger in the moment she carried him to the love hotel in chapter 24.
Marin talking about the games she's playing is basically the equivalent of women on booktok talking about smut.
You have said, WOMEN. Marin is a 15 year old girl, even younger than Aya.
Marin talking about eroge games and canonically whore characters, is definitely much more unhealthy and strange than a 16 year old girl talking about her sexual experiences with her first boyfriend and mutual first time.
Even more when you realize what is the familiar context of Marin Kitagawa -and why being him an orphan is an important reason why Gojo can connects with her in a way Yuu Izumi or Yuu Takamura couldn´t have do it-.
Yuu failing the exam is unlikely to ever come up organically, why Yuu isn't at dinner is.
Yuu failing the exam is much more likely to come up organically than Yuu having an ex-girlfriend who Hikari never met until after Yami breaking with Yuu. Literally the exam was something mentioned for a third random character who only appeared in that chapter and had years without see Yuu neither Hikari. Again, there is a reason why in 20 chapters, the question of the ex-girlfriend of Yuu only came up organically once in chapter 19, and curiously, by Yuu taking the lead mentioning Seki.
If there was a time where Yuu actively hidded Yami to Hikari is during their relationship, not after Yami dumped him.
So, the failed exam is a good proof Yuu parents are disposed to keep his secrets from Hikari, and even more important, the main reason why Yuu didn´t tell nothing to Hikari was merely:
1) He believed Hikari and Ayami never would meet, he even doubted Yami would return to school in first place
2) Hikari never asked except in that time in chapter 19, and even in that moment, he doesn´t deny to answer, he only expresses feel ankward with the dialogue, but is very obvious if Hikari would have pressured more him in that moment, like Haru did in chapter 43, he would have talked.
So, again, the most secure scenario is Yuu parents forcing him to talk with them about his relationship with Yami during his time dating her, and deciding don´t say nothing to Hikari because that was a thing who concerned only to Yuu himself in his friendship with Hikari -or because Yuu asked it directly to them, or both-. Again, the failed exam was a much more "innocent" thing and the parents of Yuu never said nothing to Hikari.
There are basically two reasons Aya would say this:
1. Aya thinks Hikari is promiscuous (Aya thinks Hikari is a ball of innocent goodness so no)
2. Aya thinks that's what Aya did to Yuu.
There is a more simple explanation: Ayami feels this is the more easy way to provoke Hikari and make anger her, seeing how all the previous attempts failed, precisely because Hikari is a ball of innocent goodness and a very prudish girl -and this second affirmation is really true-.
And this is important because, again, Ayami, Yuu and anyone else, including the readers, are making the mistake of think Hikari is like Haru. Haru is definitely the moralfag girl Yami believes who Hikari is.
Also is her way to criticize Hikari for doesn´t follow her counsels in previous months, basically saying "if you would have already had sex with "Taa-kun", all this would have been avoided".
But to be fair, as already you and me agreed, Yami definitely thinks sex is the most easy way to control and conquest Yuu. Even if the real facts proved she was wronged from already chapter 24.
I think she's alluding to it w/ her "go fall in love w/ someone else" and also in chapter 13.5 she's 99.9% sure that Yuu is in love w/ Hikari b/c of the way he talked about Hikari while they were dating. Aya thinks there's a 0.1% chance that You could be talking about her (Aya) despite also being someone Yuu had met long he met Saeki.
I mean, she literally abandoned him and ghosting him without any explanation, in the same time Hikari is telling to Aya how she feels so hoped with "Taa-kun". Is very obvious she thought Yuu had renounced to her -and she was right-, and her actions were the reason why Yuu is returning to the arms of a Hikari who is really disposed now to accept him.
And this is the reason why Ayami probably felt so affected when she saw Yuu was still worried for her and he still felt something for her, but he chose Hikari over her anyway, and even more important, is HER fault.
This from 28 makes it sound like a fairly consistent behavioral pattern
At best, it's Yuu saying "yes fine I believe you, you'll be fine" in a context where Aya is explicitly pretending everything is ok
In chapter 27, yes, thus is. But in chapter 28 Aya genuinely believes she resolved everything and this is the reason why Yuu believes fully in her in this point. I mean, precisely his words in the hotel proved he securely noticed the family fight in Ayami house during the phone call of chapter 27.
So essentially what Yuu is praising is the false face Aya puts on to cope.
Again, Yuu omake proves he does it because he knows she is seriously wounded and this is the reason why she hides her real nature under her tsundere-cool girl mask, and she needs play this role to feel more comfortable and secure. More in control.
The whole fight in 41 is that Hikari knows that Aya is lying.
And the fight in 40 is because Yuu realized Yami is lying and decides accept her lies to "make a good memory" of this and break with her in good terms -this is the reason why he offers his LINE and she rejects it-, because he chosed Hikari over her and he is securely very tired from the plays of Aya.
He probably didn´t want make more difficult to her the things, knowing Ayami securely sacrificed her feelings for Hikari but noticing Aya still feels something for him -and this is the reason why, again, he offers being available to talk and help her if she wants it-.
So, other example of Yuu knowing better when Ayami lies and being better managing her than Hikari. And remember again, is precisely the fight in 41 who provokes the new ghosting and flight of Ayami.
No I take those seriously b/c I think this manga has good characterization and generally sane human beings don't actually go off on baseless rants. Aya needs therapy but she's not psychotic.
In that case, you would take seriously too the inner thoughts of Yami where she absolves Yuu from any guilt. Precisely because this would imply how Yami knows she doesn´t deserve Yuu´s love more, but she is still desiring he would stay fighting for her even if would imply going much more beyond the rational and common sense. This fits very well with her grief feelings and, again, as I said, with Yuu really fighting for doesn´t lose Yami but giving up before come until the end.
At least in the Russian, what he's saying is roughly "apologize to the neighbors for me" (more literally "make excuses for me", but in an "excuse me" way)
The text in Russian doesn´t say literally "neighbours", according my MTL translation. Anyway, I am posted here the translation of the Spanish scanlation who have working in Imasara much before the plot-twist of chapter 21, and I consider them as more reliable.
So, is perfectly posible and even probably the person who was talking with Yuu... was Hikari.
 
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Here he's offering the internet cafe as the alternative thing she'd like to do and there's nothing on his side indicating she wouldn't want to go to the internet cafe. And it's paired w/ an image of them walking around in public.
It's the second time he mentions that she might be unwilling to go the festival, she's addressing that specific idea. Her thoughts
If Yuu was the one inviting me, I'd go anywhere -- even into the summer's sweltering, chaotic crowds.
which contradicts 'rejecting his suggestion to go to the internet cafe' you're talking about. At no point does she say she wants to go for specifically those "social" things (instead of stuff they used to do), she keeps saying that as long as it's with Yuu, she wouldn't mind doing anything, and she's addressing the fact that he thinks she could refuse an activity that wouldn't suit her "lifestyle".
That's lying about what they do on dates, not about the existence of a girlfriend he's had for months. Which Yuu could acknowledge her existence w/o introducing her, and I dunno that Aya would have refused.
But that's not "introducing her to his parents" at all. How is that supposed to comfort her if he doesn't even tell his parents much about her and how they met? And of course if he just tells them "I have a girlfriend now", a ton of questions will follow.
Which is the point right? Taking that risk shows that he's serious about this relationship being a long term commitment. That's why folks generally only introduce partners they're serious about to their parents.

Also many parents aren't too happy if their kids have friends the parents disapprove of.
I'm not sure risking his relationship with either his parents or Yami was worth the demonstration of "seriousness" just for the sake of it. And it's not like she actively wants it.
We keep going in circles here but the point I'm trying to make is there's nothing inherently abnormal about Aya and Yuu's relationship, but Aya keeps seeing it as such.
She is not though? She keeps saying that she is not normal, not that their relationship is abnormal.
At least in the Russian, what he's saying is roughly "apologize to the neighbors for me" (more literally "make excuses for me", but in an "excuse me" way)
The text in Russian doesn´t say literally "neighbours", according my MTL translation.
It does mention neighbors twice: page 2 ("у нас с соседями будет семейный ужин" = we're gonna have a family dinner with our neighbors) and page 5 ("извинись за меня перед соседями" = apologize to the neighbors for me).
The original line from page 5 is "向こうの家にも謝っといて?", where "向こうの家" is roughly "next house" or neighbors. So I doubt he was talking to someone other than his mom. And he then says he will have to keep in touch with his mother, which is another indication that he just talked to her and likely promised that.
 
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But that's not "introducing her to his parents" at all. How is that supposed to comfort her if he doesn't even tell his parents much about her and how they met? And of course if he just tells them "I have a girlfriend now", a ton of questions will follow.
He doesn't have to give his parents all the details, nor do I think they'd try to force them out of him. He can say she's a girl he met on the street, that she has her own family problems, and that they became a couple by comforting each other -and try to get over Hikari-. He doesn't have to mention sex or anything like that, just that he goes on dates with Yami, they read manga, go to the movies, and so on.
But responsible parents, like the ones Hikari and Ayami describe, would definitely have noticed Takamura's outings and would have forced him to talk. Like Izumi's parents did with their son in the picture I posted in this thread earlier.
I'm not sure risking his relationship with either his parents or Yami was worth the demonstration of "seriousness" just for the sake of it. And it's not like she actively wants it.
I don't see why telling them that Yami is now his girlfriend would risk his relationship with his parents, as long as he omits the sexual details. Anyway, I agree that Yami doesn't actively want it, and I think it's very likely we'll get a new bonus chapter in the future where Yuu tries to convince Yami to meet his parents, and she refuses —just like she's already refused several of Yuu's plans on screen— or where Yuu's parents "accidentally" catch them in public when they see that the girl who are dating their son doesn't seem interested in meeting them.
As I said, if they were able to hide Yuu's failed exam to Hikari, it's much easier for them to hide this, and much easier for it not to come up organically in conversation.
It does mention neighbors twice: page 2 ("у нас с соседями будет семейный ужин" = we're gonna have a family dinner with our neighbors)
Actually, that's page three. Anyway, the Spanish translation I posted here only says "I already had a family meal planned today" ("yo ya tenía una comida familiar programada hoy"), it doesn't mention neighbors at all, and Yami's suspicion seems to stem from this.
and page 5 ("извинись за меня перед соседями" = apologize to the neighbors for me).
The original line from page 5 is "向こうの家にも謝っといて?", where "向こうの家" is roughly "next house" or neighbors
Sí, "next house" is translated by the Spanish scanlation as "the other family" ("la otra familia"). I consider Hikari a more likely candidate because:
1) Yuu's mom wouldn't fall for such a ridiculously obvious and poorly constructed lie (nor ignored the hickey made by Aya). If it really was Yuu's mother on the other end, I hope she had a serious conversation with Yuu after he got home, or at least was able to pressure him to say he was on a date with a female friend.
2) This tweet from Maruto regarding the release of chapter 26.6, where he seems to imply that Hikari was the one answering the phone (this also would explain why Yami acts in THAT way during the call):
So I doubt he was talking to someone other than his mom. And he then says he will have to keep in touch with his mother, which is another indication that he just talked to her and likely promised that.
I mean, it could still be Hikari calling Yuu on his mom's orders, and that's why Yuu says he has to write to his mother, so she doesn't send Hikari to call him again. We know that Yuu's mom has used and will use Hikari for similar tasks.
 
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she's addressing that specific idea.
By specifically saying "no, I'd face crowds" and the image being the crowds and her list of normal people things being public things? The emphasis here is on how she'd do public things w/ Yuu, not just on how she'd be w/ him.

How is that supposed to comfort her if he doesn't even tell his parents much about her and how they met? And of course if he just tells them "I have a girlfriend now", a ton of questions will follow.
Because then she's not a dirty little secret. Aya feels like she's not good enough - someone like me, someone not normal. Hiding her reinforces that she's someone to be ashamed of. And the answer to the follow ups is the PG version - met her at the train station and we hit it off. She goes to Hikari's school but is taking time off because of family stuff.

was worth the demonstration of "seriousness" just for the sake of it.
It's not just for the sake of it, it's to let his parents know that she's an important part of his life that he plans to keep around.

She keeps saying that she is not normal, not that their relationship is abnormal.
She keeps saying "if only she could be Yuu's normal girlfriend" but the thing is functionally is acting as a normal girlfriend. Which things like not keeping her secret would reinforce that she's a normal girlfriend.

It does mention neighbors twice
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But we are talking about the role played by sex during their relationship with Yuu, and yes, Yuu was not already a stranger in the moment she carried him to the love hotel in chapter 24.
She'd known him for a few hours at most. And in their relationship, while Aya may enjoy the sex (sure), she's also using it to "bind" Yuu. That's the part that's unhealthy b/c it inhibits her ability to form a real bond w/ Yuu. She gets stuck in a negative feedback loop where she clings more desperately - marathon sex at the hotel paired with the impossible ask of moving in together. It's only when she doesn't get the response she was hoping for that she fully commits to leaving him.

Marin talking about eroge games and canonically whore characters, is definitely much more unhealthy and strange than a 16 year old girl talking about her sexual experiences with her first boyfriend and mutual first time.
Have you been on AO3? Or met a fujoshi? Teenage fangirls talk about the sex lives of fictional characters with their fangirl friends precisely b/c it's a "safe" way to discuss sexuality. Nobody thinks a girl is promiscuous if she's being a bit extra about fictional characters, they do if she's talking about her sex life in graphic detail. And Japanese culture is conservative enough where a "normal" girl is going to go out of her way to not get labeled promiscuous.

Literally the exam was something mentioned for a third random character who only appeared in that chapter and had years without see Yuu neither Hikari.
Precisely because the characters saw them together and assumed it was part of the story of how they got together. But also yeah, maybe Yuu's parents didn't mention it b/c it's a sore spot for their son - he failed after all. That's a different ballgame than a girlfriend he's supposedly proud enough of to tell them about her. Which what would even be the reason to hide her from Hikari if he was proud of her?

Ayami feels this is the more easy way to provoke Hikari
But it wouldn't work to provoke Hikari unless it had some truth to it - either Aya or Hikari believing it. That's what the whole fight leading up to it shows.

and her actions were the reason why Yuu is returning to the arms of a Hikari who is really disposed now to accept him
Yuu says he's always liked someone, which would imply continuous liking. Aya doesn't question the always, just goes to of course he's talking about Hikari.

Aya genuinely believes she resolved everything
Aya's excuse for ghosting is precisely b/c of the things left unresolved. And also what Yuu's maybe praising Aya for isn't Aya's cunning at coming up with a plan or Aya's resolve at following through, what Yuu is praising Aya for is her ability to bite back at people - which is the false face Hikari is talking about in 33.

Yuu omake proves he does it because he knows she is seriously wounded and this is the reason why she hides her real nature under her tsundere-cool girl mask, and she needs play this role to feel more comfortable and secure. More in control.
Yeah so that's a negative coping technique. One that would still allow for Yuu to communicate to Aya that Yuu sees the real her. Hikari also understands this is a coping technique but let's Aya know that it's okay for Aya to let down her mask. Which is what Aya does in 35.2, which also has Hikari literally reaching out her hand to Aya & taking Aya's hand.

Yuu realized Yami is lying and decides accept her lies to "make a good memory" of this and break with her in good terms -this is the reason why he offers his LINE and she rejects it-
Even if that was true, Aya explicitly doesn't think that - she thinks Yuu can't read the room and is "letting go of her" when it most counts. Yuu asks for her number cause he's generally worried about her sure. The make a good memories stuff happens after she's crashed out and finally told him some of her truth and kissed him. There's no lies to accept at that point - she's put it all on the table - and he calls her unfair b/c she's doing it now, a year after she ghosted when he's at this festival for Hikari.
Yami where she absolves Yuu from any guilt.
Her not thinking he's guilty doesn't mean she's not resentful - that's why she calls it the "ugliest form of grudge". But I think Maruto is trying to establish that Aya's hurt by Yuu not reaching out given that in the fireworks chapter she thinks "If only Yuu would reach out" and in the crash out chapter she thinks Yuu "is always letting go when it most counts". To me that reads like a pretty clean connective thread/call back.
 
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1) Yuu's mom wouldn't fall for such a ridiculously obvious and poorly constructed lie (nor ignored the hickey made by Aya). If it really was Yuu's mother on the other end, I hope she had a serious conversation with Yuu after he got home, or at least was able to pressure him to say he was on a date with a female friend.
2) This tweet from Maruto regarding the release of chapter 26.6, where he seems to imply that Hikari was the one answering the phone
1) She seems to have fallen for "I am staying at my friend's place in 24" and for the summer study camp in 28, how do you know she wouldn't fall for this? And if it was Hikari on the other side of the phone, she would tell Yuu's mom that same lie anyway. How is that gonna help?
2) Not sure how this is implying it was Hikari.
I mean, it could still be Hikari calling Yuu on his mom's orders, and that's why Yuu says he has to write to his mother, so she doesn't send Hikari to call him again.
It was Yuu who called, not "the other side".

By specifically saying "no, I'd face crowds" and the image being the crowds and her list of normal people things being public things?
By saying "as long it's with Yuu, I'd go anywhere" and responding to that specific idea of her unwilling to go to the hanabi fesival.
The emphasis here is on how she'd do public things w/ Yuu, not just on how she'd be w/ him.
The emphasis is on how being with Yuu makes even public things and heat a welcome experience.
It might not be too reliable as far as arguments go, but Gemini gives me the following:

Nuance Breakdown​

  • "断るわけないじゃん" (Kotoaru wake nai jan): This carries a tone of "As if I’d ever refuse" or "There’s no way I’d say no." It shows that the person (Yuu) is an exception to all the speaker's usual rules.
  • "真夏の人混み" (Manatsu no hitogomi): Midsummer crowds in Japan are notoriously hot, humid, and exhausting. By mentioning this, the speaker is emphasizing that their feelings for Yuu outweigh extreme physical discomfort.
  • "我慢でも、なんでもなかった" (Gaman demo, nandemo nakatta): This is the emotional core. Gaman means to endure or put up with something. The speaker is saying that being with Yuu changes the very nature of the experience—it’s not "suffering through a crowd" if they are together; it becomes something they actually want to do.

He doesn't have to give his parents all the details, nor do I think they'd try to force them out of him. He can say she's a girl he met on the street, that she has her own family problems, and that they became a couple by comforting each other -and try to get over Hikari-.
Because then she's not a dirty little secret. Aya feels like she's not good enough - someone like me, someone not normal. Hiding her reinforces that she's someone to be ashamed of. And the answer to the follow ups is the PG version - met her at the train station and we hit it off. She goes to Hikari's school but is taking time off because of family stuff.
If he just says he has a girlfriend but doesn't introduce her and has to come up with cover-ups, I don't think it's any different from not telling about her at all, at least from Yami's perspective.
She keeps saying "if only she could be Yuu's normal girlfriend" but the thing is functionally is acting as a normal girlfriend.
She is consistently calling herself not normal, saying there's something wrong with her etc. even without the context of their relationship. Like from chapter 40
But I’m not normal.
There’s something wrong with me.
or from 41 where she goes "What the hell is wrong with me?".

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1) She seems to have fallen for "I am staying at my friend's place in 24" and for the summer study camp in 28, how do you know she wouldn't fall for this? And if it was Hikari on the other side of the phone, she would tell Yuu's mom that same lie anyway. How is that gonna help?
2) Not sure how this is implying it was Hikari.
1) Considering that these were very two specific moments in the relationship that marked its beginning and end, and that throughout the entire relationship Yuu didn't dare repeat it —with chapters 24 and 28 being the only times he spent a whole night with Yami— it's quite obvious that it wasn't so easy for his mother to swallow something like that. That, and the fact that in chapter 24, Kaneda probably acted as a cover for Yuu, saying that Takamura was with him. Which obviously didn't happen in chapter 28 —and reinforces the idea that chapters 28/29 are the point where Yuu's parents discovered the... sexual side of his relationship with Yami.
By the way, if you noticed, both lies in chapters 24 and 28 are scripts provided by Yami to Yuu, while this chapter 26.6 shows what happens when Yuu tries to lie on his own without Yami's direct help—that is, he MESSES UP. The "dead telephone" in chapter 36 is another example of Yuu not knowing how to lie even when he tries.
2) For Maruto to say he "feels sorry" for "the person on the other end" in a tweet that includes a picture of Hikari and when he never showed much interest for Mrs. Takamura´s character... yes, this fits better with Hikari being the person Yuu was talking to than his mom. It would also explain much better why Yami started kissing his neck and sexually arousing him while he was talking.
It was Yuu who called, not "the other side".
It's not established whether it was him who called or his mother/Hikari who did, given Yuu's statement that he needs to stay in touch with his mother.
As I said, six whole months passed with Yuu constantly seeing someone who wasn't Hikari. Obviously, this must have raised increasingly bigger questions, and with increasingly flimsy lies. It's clear that his mother figured it out sooner rather than later and forced him to talk to her about Yami, and Yuu gave her mom the PG version of events, as story645 told you.
That's why I showed you the Shikimori scene, because that's exactly what happened there. A male lead trying to hide his relationship from his parents only to be forced to talk about his girlfriend anyway. And a FMC who spent
65 chapters of the story without telling her mother a single thing about the supposed love of her life.
Even more so for a Yuu who boasts in chapter 28 that he's not ashamed that Yami is his girlfriend. Someone like that absolutely shouldn't be able to, or want to, avoid a direct question from his parents.
If he just says he has a girlfriend but doesn't introduce her and has to come up with cover-ups, I don't think it's any different from not telling about her at all, at least from Yami's perspective.
But this would be because Yami is the one who refuses to meet Yuu's parents, just as she refused a long list of the boy's plans. Then it would be different from Yami's perspective.
She wants Yuu to give her that emotional validation, but nothing more. She would appreciate a "my parents want to meet you", but I highly doubt she would agree to see them, and if she did, it would be more reluctantly—like when she agreed to go to the cinema in chapter 26.5 when she wanted to go to the love hotel.
That said, I still think we'll see Yami meet Yuu's parents during their relationship, but yes, probably in a way that makes it clear Yuu had to at least pressure her.
 
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She is consistently calling herself not normal, saying there's something wrong with her etc. even without the context of their relationship
I mean, that's another Ayami´s thing based on Kamiya. Kamiya says of herself that she's an bad person, that she's tormented by her own inner darkness, and so on.
Ayami is simply an emo girl, and that's it, sometimes bordering on chuuni.

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She'd known him for a few hours at most. And in their relationship, while Aya may enjoy the sex (sure), she's also using it to "bind" Yuu. That's the part that's unhealthy b/c it inhibits her ability to form a real bond w/ Yuu.
As I said, Ayami uses sex primarily as a way to control Yuu and establish herself as the dominant girlfriend in the relationship. And it's precisely being dominant that makes her enjoy sex with Yuu so much and allows her to connect with him in a way she never did with any other boy before, even before her stepfather's attempted abuse — as Yuzuka implied. That you consider this whole dominant-submissive aspect of their relationship "unhealthy" speaks volumes about your prejudices.
Again, it's not the sex itself that's unhealthy and prevents her from forming something healthier with Yuu. It's how they manage to have that sex and under what conditions, violating Japanese law. Things like the "do you want to live with me?" request stem precisely from that. From a girl who wants to escape her toxic family environment and do so in a way that doesn't end with her in a police station. This is partly why Yami feels guilty about her mother's suicide attempt, because of how she threatened to run away from home again.
Marin and Gojo don't carry nearly that burden. Furthermore, Yuu's "refusal" of the idea of living together is by no means the point where Yami decides to leave him. That comes later; nothing in the scene in chapter 28 indicates that Yami is planning to leave him, even though she certainly feels uncomfortable and upset by how Yuu (didn't) react.
It's certainly a seed, but it's obvious that Yami's change in attitude between chapters 28 and 29 only makes sense if she received a call after this point telling her that her mother attempted suicide. And as Genn told you, this was the real turning point, regardless of what Yuu did or didn't do.
Have you been on AO3? Or met a fujoshi? Teenage fangirls talk about the sex lives of fictional characters with their fangirl friends precisely b/c it's a "safe" way to discuss sexuality. Nobody thinks a girl is promiscuous if she's being a bit extra about fictional characters, they do if she's talking about her sex life in graphic detail. And Japanese culture is conservative enough where a "normal" girl is going to go out of her way to not get labeled promiscuous.
AO3 and fujoshis definitely don't represent the "normal" teenage girl, even less the "normal" Japanese teenager girl. In that case, one could talk about hypersexuality as a form of trauma response, again, considering we're talking about underage girls who go to school. Furthermore, even these fujoshis wouldn't talk so openly about the sexuality of their favorite characters with a BOY.
The fact that Marin is a gyaru who has no problem wearing revealing cosplays that leave her almost naked at public events (despite being underage) like anime conventions makes it clear that she doesn't fit the mold of conservative Japanese culture in her -real- hypersexuality. As I mentioned, Yami does conform much more to those cultural parameters, which is why she isn't very affectionate with Yuu in public and seems to go to such lengths to keep her sexual intimacy a closely guarded secret.
And yes, this is why "Aya-chan's stories" to her friends are told within that "could have happened or might not have happened" framework.
Precisely because the characters saw them together and assumed it was part of the story of how they got together
Not necessarily. Everyone in middle school knew that Yuu and Hikari were best friends and that Yuu was in love with Hikari. Seeing them together didn't even remotely imply that Yuu had passed the exam, even though the exam certainly had something to do with the chain of events that ended with Hikari and Yuu together on that date.
But also yeah, maybe Yuu's parents didn't mention it b/c it's a sore spot for their son - he failed after all. That's a different ballgame than a girlfriend he's supposedly proud enough of to tell them about her. Which what would even be the reason to hide her from Hikari if he was proud of her?
Precisely because he still loves Hikari after all, even if he's actively trying to get over her, as he himself said in chapter 38 and as confirmed in his POV omake chapters. If Yuu told his parents a PG version of his story with Yami, he undoubtedly included, as he did with Haru in chapter 43, that feeling of "we comforted each other" and "she told me she would help me forget Hikari and be able to see Hikari only as a friend".
This would explain why his parents agreed to hide this "sore spot" in Yuu's life from Hikari, perhaps with him making the excuse of "I'll tell her myself when the time is right." Add to that, as already mentioned, that Hikari probably never asked anything, nor did the topic come up on its own... with chapter 18 being, as stated, the only exception to the rule.
You are precisely the person who said Yuu tried to hide his love to Hikari herself but didn´t have problems with talk about her with other people.
But it wouldn't work to provoke Hikari unless it had some truth to it - either Aya or Hikari believing it. That's what the whole fight leading up to it shows.
Because Aya believes she can provoke Hikari by playing the role of the slut who used Yuu as a sex toy, and as we saw, this did work, with Haru. Again, Haru is the girl who everyone believes Hikari is, including Yuu and Yami.
This doesn't work with Hikari for the reason Ayami herself explains later when she sees that plan A failed. Hikari's interest in Yuu stems from the romantic-sexual experience Yami gave to him. That's why Hikari doesn't deny it and simply states that Ayami and Yuu's relationship was and is real, even though Ayami tries to reduce it to "just sex"
Yuu says he's always liked someone, which would imply continuous liking. Aya doesn't question the always, just goes to of course he's talking about Hikari.
Because of what Seki already said about the accidental two-timing, Yami knew Yuu loved her, which is why she values his public confession of love in chapter 29 so much. However, she also knew he still loved Hikari despite everything. That's why she tells us directly that the reason she's sure he's talking about Hikari is because of all the times she heard him talking about her.
Both the public confession in chapter 29 and omake 4 present a Yuu who still loves and cares for Hikari, but who loves Ayami more and actively prioritizes her above all else, including Hikari. The scene where he hides from Hikari during his search when she goes to her school demonstrates this.
And this is important because chapter 40 presents the exact opposite situation: a Yuu who chooses Hikari but still utters, "I still care about you, Yami-senpai, and I always will" —all this, again, after she said, "I got bored from you, Yuu".
Aya's excuse for ghosting is precisely b/c of the things left unresolved
Because she was wrong to believe everything was resolved in chapter 28. That's the point. Yuu's fears turned out to be true, and it was she who was wrong and who dragged him down with her. That's why Aya undergoes such a radical change between chapters 28 and 29.
And also what Yuu's maybe praising Aya for isn't Aya's cunning at coming up with a plan or Aya's resolve at following through, what Yuu is praising Aya for is her ability to bite back at people
False. What Yuu is praising is Aya's ability to defend herself and those she loves. Remember once again, he's attracted to her at first sight because he feels she's protecting him. This is why it's so important that it was Yami who let go of Yuu's hand, and not the other way around.
That's the fundamental difference between Yuu and Hikari: Hikari doesn't want or seek anyone to protect her, neither man nor woman. Hikari may be passive, but she's not submissive; she responds when she feels attacked or threatened —Yami quickly detected this. That's why the Yami-Hikari friendship is very different from the Yami-Yuu relationship, as Genn said you.
Yeah so that's a negative coping technique. One that would still allow for Yuu to communicate to Aya that Yuu sees the real her
That's the point. Yuu does manage to communicate to Yami that he sees her as she truly is. That's why, as Genn said you, she asks for his ID after that "Yami-senpai, what are we?" dialogue in his omake POV. That's why their relationship is a constant game of her playing the bad girl and him seeing through her mask, and they both know it. Chapter 26 shows this quite well.
In this way, Yami can have her cake and eat it too, in a way that Hikari only partially manages to replicate by being a enabler who forgives Yami for all her outbursts and fits of rage.
A large part of Ayami's problems in chapter 40 stem from realizing that she traumatized Yuu so much that he no longer has much desire to continue playing this kind of games with her.
This is where she clearly tells us that she realized Yuu chose Hikari over her, and above all, that Yuu wants real answers from her and is tired of playing tsundere games if she wants to get back together with him. He still loves her as a person, but he no longer trusts her, which is why he chooses Hikari, someone he can still trust despite everything.
Hikari also understands this is a coping technique but let's Aya know that it's okay for Aya to let down her mask.
Yes, that's the problem. Ayami doesn't want to take off her mask. Only with Yuu, and in the strictest intimacy, have we genuinely seen her let down her mask. She needs GUARANTEES that she's in CONTROL of the situation to be able to let down her mask. That's why Yuu acts the way he does; he realizes she needs that reassurance.
Which is what Aya does in 35.2, which also has Hikari literally reaching out her hand to Aya & taking Aya's hand.
Chapter 35.2 is precisely proof that Yami is not willing to drop the mask. She thinks Hikari can help her, but little more. Hence, Yami will continue to lash out at Hikari whenever the latter makes her angry or feels threatened, and Hikari will continue dangerously playing this game of "Aya-chan gets angry, lashes out, and then apologizes" until it all blew up in her face at the cultural festival. The attempted kiss in chapter 5 was already enough proof that Ayami is still the same and that she is not willing to drop the mask
And if you're going to talk about the hands, also consider how Yuu interlaces his fingers and squeezes Aya's hand while pressuring her to tell the truth in chapter 28. There's a reason Maruto emphasizes so much that Yami is being honest here, and that it's her mistake as a dominant girlfriend and guide, as Yuu's supposed "teacher" and "senpai", that drags them both down to the ruin.
Even if that was true, Aya explicitly doesn't think that - she thinks Yuu can't read the room and is "letting go of her" when it most counts. Yuu asks for her number cause he's generally worried about her sure. The make a good memories stuff happens after she's crashed out and finally told him some of her truth and kissed him. There's no lies to accept at that point - she's put it all on the table - and he calls her unfair b/c she's doing it now, a year after she ghosted when he's at this festival for Hikari.
False. The "good memory" line happens right BEFORE the outburst; it's from this point that Yami collapses and starts screaming. After Yuu says, "I still matter about you, Yami-senpai". This is where Yami finally connects the dots and realizes that Yuu chose Hikari over her, and that her lies had indeed succeeded in scaring off a weary Yuu, leading him to seek Hikari out as she herself had requested just moments before.
Her not thinking he's guilty doesn't mean she's not resentful - that's why she calls it the "ugliest form of grudge"
She's not resentful, she's spiteful and heartbroken. She's spiteful because Yuu wasn't masochistic enough to grovel for her the way she wanted. That's why her heartbreak makes her want Yuu to do things that Yami knows are not only irrational but also unlike the Yuu she fell in love with, things that would make her hate him. That's why she launches into that incoherent inner rant of "I want, I don't want". Spite makes Yami's thinking irrational, plunging her into despair and causing her to want Yuu to do things she knows are not only irrational but immoral, things that would make her hate him.
That's why, if my theory is correct, she orders him to shut up when she realizes he's about to say that he was indeed the stalker she wanted and that he did try to find and recover her.
If you're going to include those lines Yami says about Yuu, you should also include all the derogatory things she thinks about Hikari in chapter 41 (like the fact that Aya knows Hikari doesn't know the real Yuu and that's why she still calls him "Taa-kun", a nickname Yuu said to Hikari that he hates it a lot of times), but you don't because it doesn't suit your purposes.
 
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The emphasis is on how being with Yuu makes even public things and heat a welcome experience
She is consistently calling herself not normal, saying there's something wrong with her etc.
I think if it was just that, then "I'd go shopping, etc" wouldn't be prefaced with "if I was a normal girlfriend". Which I think "normal girlfriend" indicates that the way they've been dating reinforces that there's something wrong w/ her.

Especially since this is where the "reaching out" metaphor first pops up - if only Yuu would reach out, then she'd do all the normal things. Which is then circled back to in the breakup where she says he never reaches out when it counts. And is contrasted with Hikari reaching out and holding her hand in 35.

If he just says he has a girlfriend but doesn't introduce her and has to come up with cover-ups, I don't think it's any different from not telling about her at all, at least from Yami's perspective.
I think there's a major difference b/c sharing her existence w/ them gives her object permanence in his life. She's someone where questions would be asked if she disappears. And letting his parents know lets Hikari know, which is about as clear a statement/action that he can make that he's given up on Hikari short of introducing Aya to her.
 
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That you consider this whole dominant-submissive aspect of their relationship "unhealthy" speaks volumes about your prejudices.
My prejudice that I believe the narrative when Aya says it's an act, that she's always deflecting by pretending to be the "cool, carefree, live for the moment girl"? It's unhealthy in this instance cause Aya is using dominance to avoid being vulnerable with Yuu, which leads her to not getting the support (reaching out) she really wants.

nothing in the scene in chapter 28 indicates that Yami is planning to leave him,
chapter 28 said:
This is fine......
No, this is what I decided from the start.
So why am I wavering now?

Furthermore, even these fujoshis wouldn't talk so openly about the sexuality of their favorite characters with a BOY
She would if he was a friend w/ the same fandom interests b/c they're fictional characters. Which cosplay (and even gyaru fashion) is like wearing a slutty Halloween costume - it's a costume for safe self expression.

And yes, this is why "Aya-chan's stories" to her friends are told within that "could have happened or might not have happened" framework.
Sounds like Aya wants them to think her stories are true:
chapter 5 said:
Whenever she shares her experiences, she just sounds so convincing. In a way, we all kind of look up to her.
Where the reason Hikari is hedging - sounds so convincing - is precisely b/c this isn't a thing girls usually talk about in such detail.

Not necessarily
chapter 16 said:
"Oh, come on, Takamura, tell us about you two! So, did it start back in junior high? Or was it more like us, getting close once you were in the same class in high school?"

Yuu tried to hide his love to Hikari herself but didn´t have problems with talk about her with other people.
B/c Yuu didn't want to get rejected by Hikari. Your premise that Yuu is only hiding Aya from his "dream girl" is legit worse than Yuu just hiding Aya from everyone. Hiding Aya from everyone could be because he's insecure about the relationship or thinks it's very casual, hiding Aya only from Hikari strongly implies he's trying to keep that door open.

Again, Haru is the girl who everyone believes Hikari is, including Yuu and Yami.
I think Haru has/had a long term boyfriend so she's experienced, but there's no indication she's promiscuous.

ecause Aya believes she can provoke Hikari by playing the role of the slut who used Yuu as a sex toy
Aya is saying use sex to make him fall in love, which is the opposite of the case Aya was making in the beginning of the relationship being a casual no feelings thing.

Because of what Seki already said about the accidental two-timing, Yami knew Yuu loved her,
Seki says this many chapters after 13.5, Aya is unaware of Seki saying this, and many folks cheat w/o loving both (or either) of the girls they're with. And this doesn't disprove my original claim that Aya thinks Yuu loves Hikari and would prefer Hikari if given a choice. I think Aya thinks Yuu's too nice to dump her for Hikari, but not that she (Aya) holds a larger place in his heart.

Remember once again, he's attracted to her at first sight because he feels she's protecting him.
He's attracted cause she makes him feel better by cheering him up, which is reinforced by his and Haru's characterization of the relationship as mutual wound licking.

that he no longer has much desire to continue playing this kind of games with her.
Yuu wouldn't be done w/ the dynamic if it was a truly healthy mutually enjoyable dynamic.

Ayami doesn't want to take off her mask.
Aya is holding on to the mask for dear life, yes, but that's a defensive coping mechanism that's reinforcing her negative self-perception. Aya wants Yuu to look past it in 40 (don't believe that, read the nuance) and Aya lets it down in 35 to tell Hikari she wants to be in the same class next year even though they've only been friends for a short while.

how Yuu interlaces his fingers and squeezes Aya's hand while pressuring her to tell the truth in chapter 28.
Yeah so that doesn't count as Yuu reaching out b/c:
I reached out and touched Yuu's hand on the bed.
40 is also very much a callback to this scene:
Good? No, it’s not.
Pick up on the nuance, for once.
My mom’s issues are still completely unresolved.
Why is it that Yuu always lets go of my hand at the most important moments? Idiot.
Because Yuu didn't ask for any details in 28, he doesn't know the context for the nuance he's supposed to be picking up in 40.

This is where Yami finally connects the dots and realizes that Yuu chose Hikari over her,
She thinks Yuu loves Hikari in 13.5 and starts 40 snarking at Yuu for choosing Hikari. I agree w/ you that Yuu's "ok, bye" is what triggered her outburst, but I think mostly b/c it's the last straw of Yuu accepting her nonsense instead of "reaching out". Pretty sure the difference between my take and yours is you think Aya thinks Yuu knows she's lying, and I think Aya thinks Yuu doesn't know.

She's not resentful, she's spiteful and heartbroken.
Spite and resentment are a negative feedback loop. She's being spiteful here b/c of long standing resentments.
Which I think she tells him to shut up b/c she's afraid of what he's gonna say - either excuses for why he didn't look for her or yeah telling her she's wrong he did look for her.

like the fact that Aya knows Hikari doesn't know the real Yuu and that's why she still calls him "Taa-kun", a nickname Yuu said to Hikari that he hates it a lot of times
Um, where does Yuu tell Hikari or Aya that he does not like being called Ta-Kun.
chapter 41 said:
What is she even talking about…?
I don’t care about Ta-kun.
The one I care about—the one I know—is Yuu.
Get it right.
What I read from Aya's thoughts in 41 is she's making the distinction between the childhood friend Hikari is in love with and the boy Aya is in love with. This seems reasonable in as much as Aya and Hikari know different sides of the same person.
 
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For Maruto to say he "feels sorry" for "the person on the other end" in a tweet
Just as a side note, twitter's auto-translate has never been all that reliable, especially for character based languages, and xAI's translation engine is also not the greatest.

Popping that tweet into Google translate gives something more in keeping with Yuu talking to his mother:
Episode 26.6, the commercial version features two consecutive chapters of original artwork! Seriously, I'm so sorry to the "people in the house on the other end of the phone"! #Saranami
 
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I think if it was just that, then "I'd go shopping, etc" wouldn't be prefaced with "if I was a normal girlfriend". Which I think "normal girlfriend" indicates that the way they've been dating reinforces that there's something wrong w/ her.
She says "normal girl" there, not "normal girlfriend". Same in the manga TL.
Like I'd turn you down just because I hate crowds.

If Yuu was the one inviting me, I'd go anywhere -- even into the summer's sweltering, chaotic crowds.
If Yuu reached out his hand to me, there'd be nothing I couldn't endure.

If I could've been just a little more like a normal girl...
I'd have gone shopping with him, gone on dates, anything, everything.
She's someone where questions would be asked if she disappears.
This is a scenario where his parents never met her and know pretty much nothing about her, so both her existence and her disappearance will only be revealed to them through his words and nothing more. I think this is not a part of being a "normal girlfriend" at all.

it's quite obvious that it wasn't so easy for his mother to swallow something like that
Not obvious to me at all. We don't really know what kind of person she is besides a few lines here and there, and we haven't even seen them talk properly.
That, and the fact that in chapter 24, Kaneda probably acted as a cover for Yuu, saying that Takamura was with him.
Or she didn't call any friends to check and just believed him.
both lies in chapters 24 and 28 are scripts provided by Yami to Yuu
Nothing in 28 suggests that. And there's nothing definitive in 24 either.
It's not established whether it was him who called or his mother/Hikari who did, given Yuu's statement that he needs to stay in touch with his mother.
So your scenario is the following: the moment Yuu realizes he can't show up in front of the two families, Hikari just miraculously happens to call him (asked to do so by Yuu's mom, I assume) to inquire if he's gonna show up - even though he is not even late yet and the dinner hasn't started. Yuu starts talking to Hikari, and Yami, knowing who is on the other side of the phone, starts kissing his neck and sexually arousing him, but then suddenly starts feeling guilty because he is lying to Hikari. In the process Yuu also asks Hikari if he should apologize "to the other family" (meaning his own parents, apparently) as if he thinks Hikari could also apologize to his parents in his stead. And finally Yuu decides that he should keep in contact with his mom because otherwise during their family dinner she will ask Hikari to call him again (instead of doing it herself for some reason).
Did I miss something? Because this doesn't sound like a plausible scenario to me.
 

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