Jimoto no Ijimekko-tachi ni Shikaeshi Shiyou to Shitara, Betsu no Tatakai ga Hajimatta. - Vol. 3 Ch. 20.1 - I can't wait for the battle to begin.

[phil777]

I wish this wasn't a real thing, but people get super weird when they talk about their "Oshi".

It really is like a switch is flipped, these people casually give away $500 dollars at a time to their Oshi but still act like normal people 95% of the time. But any logic, common sense, money management skills, everything goes out window when they see their Oshi... I am unfortunately talking from experience .

Streamers and vTubers have this dedicated fan base that have become like Cults. And if you ever point it out to them, they respond with "it makes me happy" or "I'm just paying for entertainment like a tv show". But you look at their bank statement, and they are "donating" almost all their disposable income, thousands of dollars a month of gift subs, donations, merch, everything they have. They live in an echo chamber, just like a cult, where everyone around them also does the exact same thing and normalizes it.

Over 4 years of watching vTubers, I spent 10,000's of dollars I didn't have... because I felt so loved. It was the only time I have felt loved in my entire life, and even now I still want to go back, have that flood of emotion after she reads my comment, but I can't put the genie back in the bottle...

And here's the saddest part, despite how unhealthy it was, it was the main thing that gave me hapiness. Now she's gone... I just want to kill myself so... yeah. I don't know. I just wanted to be loved but reality won't ever have that. So maybe vTubers reading my comments are the closest i'll ever get

You have to learn to love yourself first. Live without seeking the approval of others. It's hard, but once you do, nothing will faze you anymore.

 

[phil777]

Also, as Tharon'ja predicted! Now let's see what's next~

 

[Jackist]

You have to learn to love yourself first. Live without seeking the approval of others. It's hard, but once you do, nothing will faze you anymore.

It's funny you say that, because I have a personality disorder which literally makes that impossible. So every time I hear it, I feel this dropping feeling in my stomach. I can't love myself, I literally can't, if I had a great support circle, thousands of dollars of therapy, expensive drugs I don't have insurance for, maybe I'd be able to crawl back but I don't.

Saying "love yourself" is so frustrating to hear, I can't even explain to you how miserable it makes me. I've never been loved by a human in my life, my brain is fucking broken, I FUCKING DESPISE who I am, WHAT I AM. You think I want to be this way? No, which is why killing myself is something I think about on constant loop. A voice in my head screaming PLEASE NO MORE AHHHHHHHHHHH PLEASE AHHH DIE PLEASE KILL Y OURSELF SLIT YOUR WRISTS 24/7 all day every day unless I block it out with something, try and escape for a few minutes. I can't my afford medication anymore, it's not something I can afford and also not be homeless. So stop. Stop telling people that useless platitude. It's makes me so fucking sad

 

[phil777]

I've never been loved by a human in my life [...]

Not even your family? Cuz if so, yeah, that's harsh.

 

[Grailm]

Im surprised the 3 girls aren't somewhere in the background giving death stares.

 

[Dipuc4Life]

I ... I once thought that the ML, even though a bit quirky, was cool. But ... this level of rabbid fandom has me rethinking that assessment. We can see that he is CLEARLY been broken by all the 'trauma' he went through as a child. This man is NOT mentally stable ... but I guess we didn't come here to see and rate his debilitating cultism for an avatar. We came here to see all the sexual shenanigans that these girls will go through for a chance to make him their exclusive sexual slave. Ironic that he is already a slave to Fumi-tan, LOL.

 

[Fuzaki]

Is this vtuber stans in a nutshell? Also whenever this gets an anime adaption, it will be interesting to hear how "natural" the English will be.

 

[InsaneAwesomeTony]

It's confirmed!!! Let's fucking goooo!!!
Thanks for the chapter 🙏🏼❤️

 

[MewOne]

This guy . . . . He was a friggin gentleman in the sport saga. And now when Fumi tan is on his mind he becomes a friggin BEAST! Lmaoooo

Thank you so much for the sl!

 

[nanimuwu]

No wayyyyy

We didn't know that

No wayyyyy

 

[thatmanthatthat]

those are mormons

uhoh this is gonna go poorly for him and he'll never know

I'll be fucking honest, I thought mormons are what you call people from the state of Utah.

 

[aangry_aardvark]

Dry up formerly moist places with this one weird trick

 

[0mnifarious]

I ... I once thought that the ML, even though a bit quirky, was cool. But ... this level of rabbid fandom has me rethinking that assessment. We can see that he is CLEARLY been broken by all the 'trauma' he went through as a child. This man is NOT mentally stable ... but I guess we didn't come here to see and rate his debilitating cultism for an avatar. We came here to see all the sexual shenanigans that these girls will go through for a chance to make him their exclusive sexual slave. Ironic that he is already a slave to Fumi-tan, LOL.

Yeah, a lot of people here are worried that he is going to put Sumika off with his simping, but he may not even care if he finds that she is the one behind Fumi-tan. Why? Because the character is likely the one that he is actually in love with. I'm sure we'll get plenty more gags and comedy to come; however, I wonder if at some point the author will approach the situation from a more serious tone: Sumika's newly-found self-confidence wavering if Kotaro turns out to not have any interest in her as a person, the man himself sliding into parasocial isolation worshipping his oshi while shutting out the real people around him, and/or the idiot trio having to own up to their roles in how he turned out...and maybe redeem themselves (and him) along the way.

 

[Daizeemi]

So it really is her the 4th Waifu

 

[obsidianpassion]

I can't wait to see how this turns out lol.
At least fumi is a woman and not some sweaty otaku. Our boy gets to keep whats left of his sanity.

 

[Nat_reed]

Finally the history goes on!!!

 

[yoshiyosan]

Win

 

[jhs_reika]

I wonder if at some point the author will approach the situation from a more serious tone: Sumika's newly-found self-confidence wavering if Kotaro turns out to not have any interest in her as a person, the man himself sliding into parasocial isolation worshipping his oshi while shutting out the real people around him, and/or the idiot trio having to own up to their roles in how he turned out...and maybe redeem themselves (and him) along the way.

That can make the manga darker than some old readers would be comfortable with, to suddenly have that level of seriousness that spans for multiple chapters (months or even years IRL). But that sounds like a good read. I hope it ends with Kotaro x Sumika though.

 

[fform]

 

[definitionofinsanity]

"I can't let Kotaro find out I'm Fumi-tan, he'll be disappointed."

Sumika, you might want to be more worried that he finds out you're Fumi-tan because you might end up handcuffed to a fucking radiator in a basement.