I lost my mom when I was 29 (she was 63). My dad is in hospice now, at a hospital, so I can't see him because of covid. I'm 33 now (he's 69). Losing parents is really really rough, my heart goes to you. It is like a void opens up. When you have a good parent/parents, you know that their love will always be a support for you. When they're gone, that support weakens. Its hard. Please make sure you take the time you need to grieve, and remember to always be kind to yourself.