Honestly this hurts, because similarly I was like this a long time ago, trying to please everyone around me. Even though I know I shouldn't try to, but I just sit with the fact that someone would dislike me. Even then I was incredibly harsh on myself for the smallest things. It's a mindset that's self destructive, after a while it just gets tiring beating yourself down. Soon there isn't anywhere else to go, however luckily I've gotten out of that hole and mindset. Doing better for myself, so the Mc is able to get out of it if he so pleases.