Okay, Ultra-Mega Secret, For the Past several months I've been watching Porcelain Maid Shorts. Nothing weird, I'm usually the Anti-Vtuber guy, but he's hilarious! Reminds me of family actually, So I keep watching the shorts, then the usuals appear in recommended. I've always sort of glanced at the progression of V-Tubers to be honest (Since the Gura "A" meme). It was then sort of like... a Weird Safari XD!
Anyways, then I started watching Zentreya clips... Hilariously It was November Last Year when I was suggested her "Drop It" video... Yeah... And I've been watching this smaller v-tuber guy as well, who's a warhammer fan like me.
So, today, I finally did it, I subbed to Porcelain Maid first, I've been watching his stuff, he's made me laugh, subbed to Zen, because she makes me laugh too. And i've been subbed to the small v-tuber for a while.
I've actually entered this weird era, after summer of last year, the most trialing in all my life, I've sort of... snapped. Like during, since I keep things in, I started watching Jimmyhere vids, then after summer, I decided to start watching Markiplier vids again. Yes I missed [Redacted], for it's entirety, UGH! But, it's like... I used to watch his FNAF stuff, and I wanted to feel... simple again I guess. Watched Ethan again too, It's sort of like a roundabout thing. And now Vtubers, after I stopped observing their progresses, It's weird, like I was away for a while and they've ballooned or something!
Open-Minded sounds weird, but... Like "Realizing" is more like it. Kind of like... I can be a kid and not a kid again, but still feel... happy. I'm realizing what I should have and should not have in my life. What keeps me going. And sure, watching youtube is a small part of life, but, a good laugh goes a long way. I've healed, balmed, now I'm sort of building up like a shell for what comes next, if anything.